I don’t get it I just can’t understand it. I mean like this last one that left me on the concrete in the front of Starbucks I mean I spoilt the living shit out of him.
And yes I said that that way on purpose. Because there’s spoiled And then they’re spoilt lol That’s way more than spoiled in cajun terms anyways lol.
I mean like I don’t get it I bought this man cigarettes I bought him drinks about his meals I bathed him I even snuck under the table as started trimming him just because you know I wanted to that’s all. I mean like I do things out of my heart and I really don’t even ask for payback I just want respect really. Like I don’t ask for nothing no pay no no payment on what I spend I invited him every time I had the chance to get a room because I didn’t want to be by myself because it reminded me too much of work when I’m by myself. And being treated bad so I just wanted some company really. And I really just want to be able to spoil a man because that’s where I get my most pleasure from and that and that’s the truth. I enjoy seeing a man happy genuinely happy from just being spoilt. I mean like that extra spoiling you know.
And it comes from my heart, to give you a couple examples of the way I am. My youngest son who is almost 20 and November in a couple of months. His dad I used to spoil him all the time when I was with him. He was doing roofing at one time okay that meant I got up at 2:00 in the morning I made his coffee I made his lunch and i made his breakfast I woke him up with a blowjob and his cup of coffe and I sent him out the door with the little note or some pictures of whatever back in the day when you had like you know real Polaroid cameras. You know just to make his day go by better you know especially like at lunch time.
He would get in from work and I would draw his water for him and bathe him. I laid his clothes out for him I did everything like that like spoiled the fuck out him I mean right you know.
But here’s the catch when it comes to me I do it out of my heart I don’t do it because I feel like I have to. When a man starts expecting it It starts feeling like a job and then isn’t out of my heart anymore at that point it takes to fun out of it for me ya know. I do it because I like to see the genuine smile I like to see the genuine happiness and that only comes when it’s a surprise kind of thing. When you’re expecting something and when you know you’re going to get it or you demand it then the smile on your face and the happiness that you show it’s not genuine because you already know you’re going to get that and it just takes all the fun out of it for me completely.
And I mean I was raised in construction so all my life I have heard men talk I mean like I’ve always been one of the guys so I think like a man a lot of times which is can be dangerous lol but I know with men like I know what men won’t and I know I hear men all the time I’ve heard them all my life and I do just what I’ve heard men talk about about their wives and their girlfriends and I earned my keep and I learned how what a man enjoys and and and I’ve learned how to please them you know more than just through their dick and their stomach. Not to mention I learned how to give the best blowjob around that anybody has ever you know I don’t know I don’t even know how I do that but anyway you know I don’t understand how this isn’t enough
Like so my son’s dad, one morning I had decided that I had been leaving notes in his lunch a little too much you know and he came in from work that afternoon and he said well where’s my note at I didn’t get my note today. And so I answered him and I said well you won’t ever get a note again because now you’re expecting it now became a job. Ok. And he didn’t understand that you know.
And I miss doing that I really do I tried to do that with work I tried to spoil my clients that I had and of course you see how that went you know like I got treated like shit completely. Like I I guess I was trying to mix my personal with my job because that’s just kind of person I am.
So this person here that left me on the concrete in front of Starbucks… Every man I spoil I’ve done that with the married man that I had seen I done that with the client that turned personal that I was seeing I mean once I get hurt, or taking advantage of I won’t do it for that person anymore. Because it apparently it it’s not appreciated at that point.
So this one here Chris, just so you can follow the story… I bathed him and he wasn’t used to it, I mean it first he said I’m not a baby and I’m like I’m not trying to treat you like a baby I’m trying to like just spoil you.. like I took care of his hygiene like and it’s not that he didn’t and it’s not that he you know it’s because I wanted to do these things I wanted to shave his face I wanted to trim him I wanted to whatever I because I wanted to that’s what I enjoy doing I enjoy pleasing and then that’s how I get please That’s my pleasure that’s where my pleasure derives from. Maybe you can say it’s that submissive slave in me but it’s where my true pleasure comes from.
But why is it that men talk about women and talk about how women treat them and then when they come across somebody like me who will spoil the living daylights out of you and treat you like gold platinum silver and brass and bronze all mixed in one like so damn good that you can’t even recognize it when you actually get a good woman That’s right in front of you and you don’t recognize the loyalty in the dedication no matter what we go through I’m not behind a man I’m not in front of a man I’m beside a man and there beside him no matter what.
I know I’m a damn good woman I don’t cheat I bring women home from my man matter of fact. I’m a bisexual swinger I don’t mind as long as you don’t do it behind my back
What I want to know is how is it that I’m spoiling the wrong fucking men who don’t appreciate what I give to them and continually treat me like shit when all I hear from a man is the way a woman is treated them like shit and I sit and tell every fucking man I won’t treat you like that I promise. My word is honor it always has been.
How is it that I spoiled the wrong man who don’t appreciate what I give to them????
I have cooked filet mignon dinners before and like through them in the trash because of the way my man comes home from work and treats me like shit when he’s got a surprise dinner and me all dressed up nice and sexy and I just turn around after the whole dinner in the trash can pots pans and all I just dump it
Like I’ve been this way since I was 16 and married the first time it’s been every man since my first husband and I’ve been married three times. With my last husband which was he left the day before Columbine high School shooting I used to bring women home for him all the time but yet when he was out of town working he was cheating on me I don’t understand you men I give you exactly what you want and yet I get treated like this I don’t understand I just had to voice this I guess
And excuse me for my dictation typos because you know speech to text and Cajun accent just doesn’t mix sometimes lol
I guess I just wish that I don’t know I don’t know how to say it Men would see what they have in front of them and appreciate being treated good and not treat the woman so bad when they’re treating them like gold on because I know I’m a damn good woman I know I’m worth being kept since you know I’ve been taught how to earn my keep I guess I’m a keeper I’m more than a keeper and I know I am and I’m just wish that men wouldn’t hurt me so much even after treating them so well
Targeted: The New Modern Day Slavery 