August 26, 2021 5:56 pm, just came to me to write it

I find myself disassociating into my music

Where i realize this is what they want

As i disassociate frim all the trauma and the hurt

I find myself slipping, slipping away from the world
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As i begin to fooat, float above myself

Like a ballon

Now i know what they’ve been meaning

As i cant socialize in society any longer

As know one can feel my pain,
Feel my trauma

Now i know, now i know what they’re whole goal is

To disassociate myself leaving me on the concrete away from the world

This is where i start to sweat bulkets

This is what the trauma does to me i sweat i stutter to where i cant talk
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As i scream out in my head for someone to help ne

To hear ne

To make it all stop

That im 8nnocemt

Ive done nothing wrong to go through this pain theis traima

Why cant i get the help that the government promises i can get

Why do i have to prove im a victim

While they get away with the complete perfect murder

As im sitting in kfc eating line the animal that they have made me to be

With my earphones in hming to candlebox

Every song just fits as im swaying

Ricking back and forth to comfort only myself as i feel the guitar solo in my heart and soul

This is so wrong to do tjus to anyone much kess the innocent

God i pray, oh i pray for the blood of Jesus to protect me from these faceless murderers that get away Scott free

I pray to God and i try to keep strong even in my weakest of movements. I just pray to wrap his blanket aeound me and hold me tightly