Wednesday, December 9, 2020
10:00 PM
While you are sitting there talking about how im sniveling and a cry baby, and the other day talking about i was just crying out bullshit or however you said it.
I guess if you wanna get brutally real about it, that you are sitting there being selfish as fuck and only god damn thinking about getting your dick fucking wet….!!!!
I guess when you said that id be safe here, that didnt include the fact that you are doing the same exact things that i have undergone.
YOU ARE INVALIDATING ME AND WHAT IVE GONE THROUGH,
OH AND WHILE IM THINKING ABOUT IT, THE OTHER DAY the second day i was here, after just trying to catch up on a little bit of rest… And you just had to make damn sure that you threw your 6 foot 5 big ass man self around about your house and scared the shit out of m e so fucking bad… That i don’t guess you realized that while you back in there to HUMILIATE me to your son… “I tried to be nice about it” that you scared me so fucking bad that i had pissed all over myself when you were throwing your domanice around to a little woman thats 4 foot 10 and been beat the fuck down for 4 fucking years by fucking men
I don’t guess you stop one fucking time to think that I’ve been abused so fucking bad by many many different men over and over THAT I CANT TALK ABOUT IT, THAT I DON’T FEEL COMFORTABLE TALKING TO A MAN ABOUT ANY OF IT…
while you are sitting there so fucking worried about getting your god damn dick wet… YOU HAVEN’T THOUGHT ONE FUCKING TIME HOW YOU HAVE MADE ME SHAKE FOR THE LAST COUPLE OF HOURS SO AFRAID OF YOU I CANT EVEN LOOK AT YOU….
I ALSO DON’T GUESS YOU “REALLY” HEARD ME WHEN I TOLD YOU MONDAY THAT I WAS AFRAID OF YOU GETTING UPSET WITH ME ON SUNDAY CUZ I WAS IN BED SICK ALL DAY LONG.
NO just like everyone else you only heard what ypu wanted to hear!
I GUESS NOT ONCE DID IT ENTER YOUR MIND THAT AFTER 4 YEARS OF SEXUAL ABUSE FROM MANY MEN, MAJOR PSYCHOLOGY ABUSE, AS WELL AS SANTANIC RITUAL ABUSE, GANG STALKING AMONG OTHER FUCKING ABUSE THAT I DO NOT WANT TO FUCKING EVEN THINK ABOUT SEX….
THAT IM COMPLETELY TURNED OFF BY THE MERE THOUGHT OF SEX… NO I GUESS YOU DIDN’T.. what i guess after 15 years ago which because of all the memory loss im having to accept amd deal with. You just thought it was going to be like 15 years ago…that we were magically be just like 15 years ago…THAT I CANT HARDLY REMEMBER.
Got damn it …where in the fuck is my supposed friend???!!!! IT DOESN’T MATTER IF YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND… AND IT DOESN’T FUCKING MATTER IF I CANT TALK ABOUT IT…IT ONLY MATTERS THAT THERES A SUPPORT SYSTEM…A FRIEND
OR I GUESS IS YOUR DICK GETTING WET MORE IMPORTANT TO YOU INSTEAD OF JUST BEING MY FRIEND.
So ok im sniveling amd a cry baby to you. But being selfish about you getting off … Aint much fucking better do i guess one aint much better than the other…
Oh just because there’s no one else coming here to do the same thing that ive been through, i guess you got excluded on that huh… You may get UPSET as fuck but i need to see that YOU ARE DOING THE SAME EXACT THINGS THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH AND YOU HAVE ALREADY MADE ME SCARED AS OF FUCK OF YOU… AND YOU DON’T CARE TO REALLY STOP AND LOOK AT THINGS DIFFERENTLY. AND I REALLY WISH YOU WOULD JUST ALLOW ME TO GO AT MY PACE. I HAD STATED I NEEDED YOU TO BE PATIENT 9N THE SEX PART. JUST LET IT GO AND LET IT ALONE.
IM TRYING TO ACTUALLY SAVE A FRIENDSHIP… CUZ THERE ARE MORE THINGS IMPORTANT THAT FUCKING SEX!
I DON’T WANT TO BE HUMILATED NOR HOLLERED AT OR TOLD IM A CRY BABY OR TOLD THAT
YOU YOUR 6 FOOT 5 SELF WOULD NEFER ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE A VICTIM
IM Glad tuat you do that and not have to worry about being a little woman and be over fucking powered by men who just do as they fucking please just because they are big
Not to mention that fact that i have been violated ehile i was passed out in fucking pain with my back…
Yea getting raped while i was passed out from so much pain in my back..
I DON’T TRUST MEN I DON’T CARE WHO IT IS…DO YOU THINK IM COMFORTABLE…ONLY ONE WEEK IVE BEEN GONE AWAY FROM ALL THAT HELL AND YOU THINK IM GONNA JUST BE ABLE TO LEAVE ALL OF THAT JUST THERE..
YOU MUST BE OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND IF YPU THINK THAT I CAN BE JUST BE ALL HONKY DORY AFTER 4 FUCKING YEARS OF ALL THE SHIT I HAVE GONE THROUGH.
I WISH TO GOD MEN WOULD GOD THINK PASSED THEIR FUCKING DICKS I SWEAR TO GOD.
THIS IS only way i could express anything… And im actually scared to fucking death of even expresing all of this, scared im going to get punished and feel the repercussions of expresing myself to a friend…
If you thats the case… If you get UPSET amd get pissed off about me coming and getting it out tbis way
IF YOU DO GET UPSET OVER THIS… THEN WHY WOULD I THINK ABOUT COMING TO YOU AND TALKING ABOUT WHAT IVE GONE THROUGH…
Im not trying to be opposing here, im trying to get you to look at things at a different prospective than what ypu looking at things. Damn it.
I NEED A FRIEND I DON’T NEED NOR DO I WANT TO HAVE A SEXUAL PARTNER
if you want to take it out in trade, if thats damn important to you, i gave you that option … I guess you weren’t happy with getting your dick sucked by who has been the BEST IN SAN ANTONIO BECAUSE I ALWAYS GAVE FUCKING EXCELLENT SERVICE
I guess that wasn’t good enough for you either
When i gave you the price of my service that DID MEAN TO HAGGLE ME… which of course is just like the rest of them…. Ypu getting a 30 minutes oral worship session, once a week equals 4 weeks 8s a month is an equailvant to 500 … That was taking it out in trade but like i said, i guess that wasn’t good enough either…
I have been called THE BEST BY MANY
It was a client that gave me my brand that wasn’t me, oh YOU DON’T REMEMBER WHAT I GAVE YOU 15 YRS AGO… SINCE YOU CAN REMEMBER EVERYTHING…
Stop acting them mother fuckers please
You have no idea you are acting the sane way all the while juat like everyone does…
“im not like thise other guys” …
Stop please ok
I guess im just expecting the worse out of this and get mad me amd make scared of you more and for the shit to hit the hit the fan fuck im even scared to srnd this…
I guess if you do get pissed off about me trying to express things to you it won’t be any worse than what ive already been through… dick used as a weapon,raped,beat Hungry homeless exploited like a mother fucker and every god dam thing else I’ve been through. I pretty much expect shit like that from any man now. Its just the shitty ass fucking ways men love to treat women, its the way it goes…
Men gotta make sure they throw their weight around on a little woman who can’t possibly fucking do anything about it when the man 3 times fucking bigger than the woman i swear i guess that makes a man feel like fucking popeye i swear. Yall don’t fucking think it scares the living shit out of woman…or do you men enjoy the fact that we are scared
And why in the living fuck do i have to talk about what ive gone through IF IM FUCKING NOT READY TO
just because you say i have to? And just because you don’t understand what ive gone through i guess that means im just crying wolf huh? You ever thought the way i react comes from being abused…i don’t guess you did huh…smh *sighs*
I guess all of this doesn’t matter you are only going to hear what you want to hear so none of this matters anyways…
WHAT MAKES YOU ANY DIFFERENT??? I KNEW I WAS PUNISHED OFF THE INTERNET, EVERY TIME I THINK A MAN CANT GET ANY LOWER… IT SURPRISE ME, IT ACTUALLY AMAZES ME HOW LOW A MAN WILL GO JUST TO GET AT A WOMAN TO HURT THEM ONE WAY OR THE OTHER, WHAT MAKES YOU A DIFFERENT THAN WHAT THESE MFERS ARE DOING TO ME… THEY DON’T EVEN KNOW I HAVE TGAT EMAIL BACK… BUT YOU SEE HOW THEY ARE CONSTANTLY EXPLOITEING ME!!! I thought you said i can just let it all go huh im in bum fuck mississippi and NO ONE KNOWS WHERE IM AT… AND IM STILL HAVING TO DEAL WITH THIS SHIT… AND … NOW…. I HAVE YOU TO WORRY ABOUT ON TOP OF ALL THIS OTHER SHIT I HACE TO DEAL WITH
Targeted: The New Modern Day Slavery 