Journal Entry Thursday January 14th, 2021: Running For Your Life & Running Right Back Into What You Were Running From

Running for your life and running into

Thursday, January 14, 2021
9:20 AM

Imagine yourself especially a small woman you women out there imagine yourself less than 5 ft tall about 115 lb don’t know anybody in the state of Texas and you find yourself running for your life…. And you run like hell…

And it’s several months later before you realize… What cold chills down your spine and your hair standing up on your whole body when it hits you …

You ran right the fuck into what you were trying to run away from!!! BUT WORSE!

Imagine yourself doing that again and leaving the state for a couple of weeks only to realize you’re dealing with the same motherfuckers that you were running away from yet… AGAIN!!!

How about this one here’s the kicker for you you try something different you try to go to a friend and you run two states the fuck away from Texas…. and what happens to you…

What happens to you???

Whom you thought was a friend is telling you to make yourself like it! and what do I mean by that you wonder?

Make your self like and enjoy coloring down laying down on your knees submitting willingly complying to open your mouth and literally wipe your own fucking face!!!!

Make yourself do it AMD ENJOY IT.

NOT TO MENTION THE STUPID MOTHER FUCKER REALLY THINKS THAT YOU ENJOYED IT

Imagine yourself. . Every time you run you run for the fucking heels for it to save your life only to run right back in to the same fucked up bullshit you were running away from imagine….just imagine…

Just imagine how dehumanizing that would feel like imagine what dignity you don’t have what else is short away from you imagine how you would feel having to make yourself put your face down and fucking rape your own face….

And compared to that the second go-round when you say NO… LORD HELP YA IS ALL I GOT TO SAY because you’re going to feel the wrath of that NO word


Because you were trying not to be a whore you were forced into being a whore more than that being a whore that can’t even take a whore back and a place with no water and filled with rats no food trash everywhere no clothes been stripped of the clothes of your fucking back cuz you don’t deserve them how does that make you feel just reading these words???

Well I can tell you what I know how I felt and I can’t put it in fucking words that’s what I can tell you

So you have to come back to the same place you were running away from to the same people doing the same thing for the last 3 years already.ummmm. .

Brand new year from January 2nd up to the same tricks from the same tricks thinking they doing something new….guess what???

This. Is exactly what I’m going to tell you after what I’ve just been through Mississippi

NOT NO….BUT …OHHHHHH HELLLLLL MOTHERFUCKING NO YOUR NOT … I’LL LITERALLY KILL YOU NOW!

I DON’T GUESS THAT WOULD GIVE YOU A CLUE AND EVEN THEN YOU STILL FUCKING WOULDN’T HAVE A CLUE BECAUSE I NEVER COULD CONVEY IT IN WORDS YOU HAVE TO SEE IT LITERALLY AND LET THEM TELL YOU WHAT THEY’VE DONE TO ME HOW ABOUT THAT ONE THAT’S WHAT I’LL DO I’LL LET THEM TELL THE STORY AND I’LL JUST FILL IN THE FUCKING BLANKS