Journal Entry: Wednesday January 27th, 2021: Ppl Being Experts On Other People’s Lives

Journal entry people being experts on other people’s lives

Wednesday, January 27, 2021
4:51 PM

I just can’t stand it and I can’t understand it really I just can’t understand it…

People have never been in my shoes
How can you walk in my shoes when your big toe won’t even fit into my shoe being a size 3 in kids
When I talk about my life I don’t tell you about my life’s hair for you to tell me what I should do how I should be how I should live my life cuz you don’t know what I’ve lived

You ask me how would I like what I don’t like how I feel or don’t feel but yet when I tell you what I feel you tell me no that’s not how you feel

You want me to tell you about my life you tell me you don’t know anything about what I’m telling you but yet you fucking tell me how to be I’m so sick and tired of people telling me about my life telling me how my shooters should not be telling me who I what I shouldn’t should not do you need to stop it triggers me


I kept telling everybody and I kept telling everybody and I kept fucking telling everybody you treat a human like an animal what are they going to end up being like a goddamn animal motherfuckers like a fucking animal

So you created this trigger you created this animal in me you may need be out with animals outside homeless and hungry what did you expect when you did this to me

All because I’m a worthless whore right yeah I get it I get it so fucking well but now that I can’t even relate to humans anymore I relate better outside with the animals like I’ve been told where I fucking belong and where I’m worth having a home

And yet you mother fucker sit there and wonder why I cannot talk to you anymore why I cannot relate to humans who have been so hateful and so deserving of taking my rights

Humans they don’t have the fucking right to be judge jury and hangman has hung the fuck out of me for the rest of my life and yet you judge me when you should never judge and take on God’s job why the fuck do you think you’re so powerful as God


I kept telling you and I kept telling you and I kept telling you yet again and again and yet a fucking again if I was ever an experiment… This my friends is your fucking outcome the animal that you treated me to be so don’t wonder when I cannot relate to you who the fuck I am and how I cannot express what I have gone through when you have never been in this size three kids fucking shoes and walked my miles that I have fucking walked

Seems like there’s so many fucking experts about my life when your lives are worse off than mine is you tell me I’m crazy yet I’m the same as motherfucking crazy around crazy means I’m only misunderstood you tell me that yet again and again and again every time you calling me crazy and psycho what did you expect when you kept treating me the way you treat me like an animal I became the animal you treated me to be with the fuck did you expect when you made this animal in me

well everybody’s telling me about my life and how I should live it let me tell you about your mother fucking lives and how you should live it

You know the ones that are homeless dumpster dived for the clothes on my fucking back while you motherfuckers took the clothes off my back it will humble you when you become without when you find your life gone from others hands being on nosy in your business thinking their the righteous ones when there’s no righteous in the deeds you’ve done

You take the material straight off my back and tell me I’m not worthy of the clothes to wear you take the roof over my head and tell me I’m not worthy of a roof and shelter you take the food in the Marshall straight from my mouth as I am about to bite it when my stomach is in pain and hunger and yet you say you righteous and you boast about how you’ve treated this worthless whore this animal that I’ve become

Youyou’ve judged me you became powerful more powerful than God let me tell you about God and what God is going to do it won’t be me because you home your own self on you

Keep playing the righteous ones on the on people’s lives and you’re going to find yourself judged just like you have judged others you will find your righteous asses that you’ve handed yourselves on a silver platter over to the ones that bill be judging you he these words I say it like it is and I don’t give a fuck what you think or how you feel because none of you gave a fuck about how I think or what I feel none of you give a fuck about my life when you took it right from my own hands


All I’m going to say is this you have sold your soul doing the deeds of the dirty devil and they haven’t been done cheap I promise you you have sold your soul out of cheap price but you were paying something highly more than you ever expected to pay in your trade of having blood stay in some your hands I thank you for you teaching me the lessons of humility I thank you for giving me my peace back when you think you stole from me you only handed me what I needed and that was my strength in me I don’t need nobody else all I need is the strength and peace in me that I have become righteous with the one my God and my God only God that has helped me through this thick and thin God the only righteous one


NOW YOU CAN TAKE IT THAT ONE TO THE BANK FOR MOTHER FUCKERS I DON’T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE THIS IS ME I ACCEPT ME THIS IS HOW I BECOME THE ANIMAL THAT YOU WOULD BROUGHT ME TO BE LIKE IT AND LOVE IT I DON’T GIVE A FUCK CUZ THAT’S WHAT YOU EXACTLY YOU TOLD ME

TAKE YOUR RIGHTEOUSNESS AND TELLING ME OF HOW TO BE AND STICK IT UP YOUR ASS BECAUSE YOU NEED TO BE FIXING YOUR OWN LIVES INSTEAD OF THINGS AND YOU’RE FIXING MINE YOU HAVE NO POWER NO CONTROL OVER ME I AM THE ONLY ONE I’M THE ONLY BITCH THAT’S LIVED IN THESE SHOES

TAKE YOU’RE FUCKING BIG TOE OUT OF MY SIZE KIDS THREE SHOE AND WALK IN YOUR OWN FUCKING MCDONALD’S FUCKING FLIP FLOP SHOES THAT ARE TOO BIG FOR ME TO OWN KEEP YOUR NOSY ASSES TO YOURSELVES AND STOP TELLING ME ABOUT MY LIFE WHEN YOU NEED A FIX YOUR FUCKING OWN

JOURNAL ENTRY JANUARY 27TH 2021 506 P.M.

PS how do you see me as the week one when I see all of you who are weaker than me you have left me to be strong and tell me I’m weak in the knees

you’ve got them right I have a lot to fucking say because I am so sick and tired of people telling me about how I am how I need to be how I need to live my life what I feel what I don’t feel what I like what I don’t like and taking my fucking choice for me

You motherfuckers out there that think you were so strong to take someone else’s life and boast in it I see you is nothing but weak pitiful sorrowful when you when you when I tell you about my life and you feel sorry for my life I don’t feel sorry I feel strong I feel inferior because I had made it through bullshit bitches like you

boast in your weakness as you’ve taken my life cuz all I see is for someone to go this far and to lower their asses lower than the dirt they are walking on there nothing to me when I am standing here still strong stronger than ever before you keep forcing this life on me and I will keep being the strongest bitch on this Earth You Will ever God damn see I promise you take again yet that to the bank take my word is honor take my word if it is because it’s written in stone as I say these words and dictate this fucking general entry as I see it yet again you both on your weakness and your fucking pitifulness and making a woman stronger than your fucking manly ways thank you for what you’ve made me become the strongest bitch with a backbone double take and break yours in half with the measley words I speak

5:10

PPS why the living fuck do you men think that I need to have a relationship why do I need a man why is a woman looked at so fucking weak that they need to have somebody why would I want you like that in my life you ain’t nothing to me when you’ve done this to me brought me to the animal I become you look at me as weep when I look at you it’s the same weaker than me because I’m standing on my two feet where the fuck are you standing in the same place you were yesterday and 10 years before I’m sitting here growing within my homelessness and then my humanity I find that I’m the strongest one I don’t need you I don’t need a man in my life I choose what the fuck I want to do how I want to do it and why the fuck I want to do it and it ain’t none of your goddamn concern stay the fuck out my God damn life and my business give me the same respect as I give to you like


Like I said I did have plenty to fucking say cuz I’m sick of being told of how to live my life when you haven’t been in these shoes that you put me in

One last thing that I’m going to say I found peace again I couldn’t even recognize it for what it really was I just knew I had a stillness in me and December I ain’t not a goddamn soul work taking my peace again if you going to take my peace you got to fucking go straight to fuck up cuz you ain’t worth it when you take my peace away from me


Take your expert answers on my life and get to fucking carrying on cuz I don’t need your around me if you going to be like that