Wednesday, May 26, 2021
3:52 AM
How I’ve spent my forced imprisonment
Starting in 2018 I went from barely knowing how to turn on the computer to building five websites in one year. I have torn down and taken down my website a total of eight times. That would be my main website.
My main website is specifically built to be multifunctional and multi-purpose. And so far I’ve spent over 10 grand in that website. Tinkering with my website is something that I’ve learned that I enjoy after my kids are grown and gone. I enjoy it when it’s not made into forced labor.
Not only am I admin to wordpress, but I’m also admin to all the Google analytics and programs that go with the website. As well as admin to office 365 business. Being a believer in security I went ahead and got Microsoft E5 mobility Plus security. Which is a business account for an organization of more than 200 employees. I very quickly learned that I gave myself more work than I expected.
I have had to teach myself how to be my own IT department as well as teaching myself web design, web graphics, SOME coding, IT work, to a degree. To give myself experience making websites on several different platforms that includes SharePoint, WordPress, Wix, Weebly, and squarespace.
I have also studied and learned law in many different subjects including but not limited to porn law, data and privacy laws, copyright laws, trademark laws, human trafficking, obscenity laws, stalking and harassment laws, FOSTA and SESTA laws
I’ve also taught myself photography, producing, directing and editing and watermarking being that I’m a sex worker.
I have also built two other websites rightsforsexworker.wordpress.com and mylifeasati.code.blog
and honestly speaking I’ve actually built like 30 websites those two I just put out publicly the others were practice for me.
Oh and by the way that’s all in between being a targeted individual and dealing with 24/7 harassment and being abused, undergoing continued attacks working through being sick with the directed energy weapons EMF radiation Burns I’ve dealt with as well as being disabled with my back I pushed and worked through it all and refused to let my attackers bring me down. That’s also dealing with homelessness hunger fighting for my human rights and everything else that I’ve been fighting for the last 4 years
I’ve gone through human trafficking, satanic ritual abuse, trauma based mind control, hypnosis without realizing it, EMF radiation Burns which has caused me brain damage and I show in pictures where my brain was being cooked by EMF/ microwaving and my brain swelling outside my skull and protruding OUT of my forehead. I’ve gone through being violated and raped I’ve gone through having my clothes literally ripped off my back, my door kicked in several times, waking up being violated a guy jerking off in my bed fucking with my body while I was passed out from pain in my back which is why I don’t sleep with a man in my bed.
I’ve gone through hell and back. Back to hell and of course I got kicked out of hell again.
I’ve always been a very spiritual person that’s very in tune with herself, and I’m very gifted as well as I am an empath. There are seven different kinds of empaths and I happen to be all seven of them. Which would explain me being a healer, a seer as well as getting spiritual messages like I do and seeing visions. I am instantly hated or loved there’s no in between. If you can’t stand my fucking guts and you can’t stand what you see or can’t stand the way you feel or can’t stand the feelings you get from me…if there are any negative then that would be called the mirroring effect. As an empath reflects those that are around them. I don’t carry any negativity around me so if anybody feels any negativity from me that would be me reflecting your true self back to you. Which that tends to happen a lot I can’t help it I don’t know it, it’s just natural.
But if you do feel any negative from me it is not me because I don’t carry negativity. I’ve gone through a lot of hate and judgment in my life so therefore I don’t feel the need to, first of all bring myself down to those people’s levels I respect myself more then that and because it’s been done to me I wouldn’t want to do those things to others. While the world has taught me hatred and judgment what it feels like to be hated and what it feels like to be judged I tend to want to do the opposite and show the world what it’s like to care to be kind and to love unconditionally.
And believe me my kindness is not to be taken as a weakness. Because it takes every bit of strengthen me to continue to be kind to those that have hurt me. It takes every bit of strength than me to continue to love thy neighbor even those that hate me. So my kindness is a strength not a weakness.
I don’t claim to be perfect Lord knows I’m not. Matter of fact I don’t make any claims I just claim to be real to be myself and to stay true to myself that’s all. I’ve learned in my older years to try my best to better myself to do right by others and just simply to do the right thing no matter what it is. To treat others as you want to be treated. And just try my best to be better than I was the day before. I have a lot of trauma I have a lot of hurt and I have a lot of damage from that trauma and the abuse that I’ve gone through. As I know I’ve got brain damage but I don’t know to what extent. I know that I stutter because of the brain damage that I now have.
I don’t know everything but I sure try to learn everything, or at least as much as I can as knowledge is power. I sure have endured a hellva lot. But in between, I’ve also had many great experiences while I was enduring. I’ve lived a full life. Both good and bad.
As a parent, I have two boys grown men, both went into to the military. My oldest is 33 and a Marine, my youngest 19 and a half and coincidentally enough in the Air Force for cyber warfare. A single mother to my youngest…. I’ve made it through my child wanting me to kill me when he was 11 12 and well he left 2 months before he turned 13. He actually was a miracle child because I couldn’t have anymore. I was going in for my hysterectomy when I found out I was pregnant for him. And we’ll, , I don’t see any support groups these days for parents who have kids that kill them. They are dead and I so happen to have made it and am still alive.
No matter what I stay true to myself I stay humble and I remember where I came from, and even through what I’ve experienced in my life, it has changed me I don’t let it define me. And the only way that I will allow anything to define me is in a positive way. As what I have gone through it is what keeps me humble, it keeps me down to earth and it makes me even more compassionate of others even though I just don’t understand humankind these days.
What’s important to me is honesty, respect and honor. And I’m old school. Everything after that follows suit. My mind is complex very complex so I tend to try to stay living as simple as I can. No one understands me but yet I’m not meant to be understood so therefore I’m always called crazy which is okay. I’d rather be crazy than the demented sick motherfuckers that have done the things that they have done to me. So you can call me crazy you can call me psycho you can call me whatever you want I don’t give a flying fuck it doesn’t matter to me. I can tell you this fucking much I’m happy to be crazy and psycho it’s so much better than to be demented sick and abusive it’s better than hating and judging. And these kinds of people I do not care to encircle my life around.
I’m not going to prove myself to anybody I shouldn’t have to besides that I have nothing to fucking prove to no one I’ve already proved it to myself. I have nothing to gain from anybody’s drama or negativity. My life my experiences what I’ve lived it’s not up for approval it’s not up for a negotiation it’s not up for fucking discussion how can you fucking negotiate what I’ve already fucking lived we can discuss it all you won’t but I don’t care what the fuck you think about my life or what I’ve done and in my life it’s already been done and it’s over with. If you feel the need to be stuck in the past and stay stuck on that lower level and your root chakra then go right ahead by all means please do so alone or without me around. I choose to be a living better than that and above that. If any motherfucker thinks what I do or don’t do or what I do as a job or whatever defines me. That has nothing to do with me nor my character I was defined long before you even know I existed. You have no say so in what defines me I define me. Me myself and fucking I.
So don’t get it twisted because at that point I’ll untwist it fucking for you and make sure you know who’s boss of me, his controlling the situation and more importantly WHO’S IN COMPLETE CONTROL OF THEIR OWN SELVES WHICH SEEMS TO BE ONLY ME. CONSIDERING THOSE THAT THINK THEY CAN CONTROL MY LIFE DON’T SEEM TO HAVE ANY CONTROL AT ALL. WHICH I FIND TO BE IRONICALLY ENOUGH. BECAUSE THOSE MOTHERFUCKERS THAT THINK THEY CONTROL IN MY LIFE HAD THEY HAD ANY CONTROL THEY WOULDN’T BE IN MY LIFE FUCKING WITH IT THEY WOULD BE IN THEIRS BETTER IN THEIRS LIKE ME. BUT THAT’S OKAY I DON’T HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER THEM I DON’T CARE TO HAVE CONTROL OVER THEM BUT I SURE HAVE CONTROL OVER MYSELF THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERS. I MEAN JUST SAID THAT YOU REALIZE YOU DON’T HAVE TO LOSE CONTROL TO BE ANGRY JUST SAYING….
So to all your trolls out there who think you are the most fucking narcissistic important motherfuckers in the world you’re not I could care less about you. While you were out trying to fucking diss people and down people just so that you can fill inferior and Superior I’ve decided to carry on with my life and move on along without you and better myself because that’s all I can do. See I know I don’t have control over you and over who likes me and who doesn’t like me but personally I don’t even care who does or doesn’t I’m not here for a popularity contest. And who says you’re fucking important to me to care what you think about me I don’t even know who you are so you’re not that fucking special to me to worry about what you got to think about me it doesn’t fucking matter when you don’t matter when I don’t know you.
As I said instead of spending my time worrying about the Joneses and my neighbors and what their fucking doing, sticking my nose where don’t fucking belong I’ve chosen to better myself as much as I could all on my own. In between living hell literally. So if you can do better than what I’ve done I am all kinds of happy and proud for you and I will give you all the…”attaboy’s and attagirls” all that you need and your little heart can desire.
I’m just me,. And there is no other like me thank God. I’m an individual I don’t want to be in like anyone else that would be a boring world to live in so I’ve embraced my individuality I’ve embraced my sexuality I’ve embraced my spirituality. And if you don’t like it I don’t give a fuck. I choose to be better than those that have abused me and that have attacked me. And if you don’t like me personally speaking… YOU CAN TURN AROUND AND WALK AWAY JUST AS EASY AS YOU FUCKING WALKED UP GET Ya FUCKING STEPPING THEN. IDGAF.
IF YOU SEEM TO THINK YOU’RE BIG AND BAD ENOUGH TO WALK MY JOURNEY IN A SIZE 3 AND 1/2 KIDS SHOE THAT I KNOW YOU CAN’T STICK YOUR FUCKING BIG TOE IN GO RIGHT THE FUCK AHEAD AND TRY. I SURE IN THE HELL WOULD LOVE TO SEE YOU WIGGLE AND GO THROUGH AND MAKE IT THROUGH THIS SHIT THAT I HAD ACTUALLY LIVED AND MADE IT THROUGH FUCK YOU I’M A SURVIVOR IF YOU DON’T LIKE IT KISS MY FUCKING ASS I DON’T CARE. NO SURVIVOR CARED WITH THE OTHER FUCKING PERSON THOUGHT ABOUT THEM SURVIVING.
I am 49 years old disabled with five different things wrong with my back 410 and 115 maybe 120 pounds fucking soaking wet. And I have fought five different grown men four them cops all at one time so if you got any beef with me and you come to me directly and take it up with me we can talk about it adult like or I can go toe to toe I don’t care. Although I do much prefer to love and share the love than to fight and be about all kinds of drama that’s not me.
Here’s what you got to remember… Those that have been targeting me well they didn’t know or realize when they took it ALL from me that I became a dangerous motherfucker cuz I have nothing to lose anymore. I have nothing to care for anymore besides myself. Material shit don’t matter to me. I’m not going to bring anything material when I’m die. All I got is time honey I choose to spend it like I want to better myself.
Here’s the secret… Just when you THINK … You have me figured me out do yourself a favor and stop at that word think because if you don’t, you just fucked up because well …..there you go thinking again… Lol and you got it all wrong when it comes to me I’m not like any other you have met before in your life.
One last thing to say to all the little spoiled brats who are youngins thinking they running the whole show let me tell you something I thought that too, my peers that are my age thought that too and those before me and us thought that also. So get a grip if you think the fucking world revolves around your narcissistic stupid ass think again. As I used to tell my youngest son you’re not that fucking special in this world. You are no different than me and I am no different than you we are all just trying to figure out how to fucking survive this thing that we call life on this planet that’s called Earth and honestly speaking looking at the big scope of things, we are all just little bitty peons to the whole big Earth we ain’t nothing but a drop a little bitty dust that’s on the ground. So you no more special than I am. So get over you’re conceited vein selves. Smh….
So that’s it in the nutshell. 😁
Much love and peace out
TAKE CARE, I WISH EVERYONE WELL. I just thought I’d share a little bit.
From <https://www.reddit.com/user/TirdofbngTerorizdnTx/comments/nlbi7s/how_ive_spent_my_forced_imprisonment/>
Oh well DUUUDE I guess it’s quite obvious that you are not educated in the pornography and adult industry. Hmmm interesting lol and last time mother fucking checked I have 36g tits I am not a dude dude or dude it fuck man God damn y’all talk about me right shit learn how to fucking talk correctly please. I mean it’s obvious that you don’t know anything about this industry and that you’re probably just jerk off to it which is planning good because that’s what you’re supposed to do but yes the porn industry is the most regulated industry there is with the exception of there is no safety regulations for those that work in it so I guess that fucking goes to show you DUUUUDE there are a lot of things I’m sure that you really don’t even know about and well you can either continue jerking off and not learn them or you can educate yourself about it that would be your choice not mine DUUUDE. Go figure some motherfucker was going to have to say something I mean it was an inevitable somebody got to say something about something and get all kinds of stupid about it but anyway I mean it was inevitable and I expected it you can tell who is grown adults here and who’s not. which is funny as fuck. But anyways have a great day DUUUDE😂😂😂😂
Targeted: The New Modern Day Slavery 