Sunday, November 8, 20208:26 AM
Here’san analogy I’m hoping and thinking that everybody can be able to grasp
The Hunger Games
Close your eyes and visualize the hunger games. You’re not a spectator…. YOU ARE THE GAME… YOU ARE THE HUNTED… YOU ARE THE ONE TO BE KILLED… YOU ARE THE PRIZE!!!!
There’s no basic training, there’s no warning, there’s no passing go and collecting $200. You are alone all alone no support nobody to call on nobody but the trees the grass the wilderness the animals….and YOU!!!…. You have no defense no weapons you weren’t given a knife even a fork you weren’t giving nothing standing naked alone no one to turn to and they’re coming after….YOU…. YOU ARE THE DEER THEY ARE FUCKING HUNTING!!!
Where do you go, your naked. You begin to panic you spin around looking where to hide your body, where to protect yourself….Where do you hide there ain’t nothing but you the sky and the ground. That panic turns into fear ……. Now you have PANIC AND FEAR… THE BODY IS ON FIGHT OR FLIGHT MODE YOUR HEART IS PALPITATING ALMOST TO THE POINT OF A HEART ATTACK….. AS YOU ARE TRYING TO THINK STRAIGHT AND FIGURE OUT …..How are you going to defend yourself naked alone nowhere to hide and no weapon of choice matter of fact no fucking weapon at all. It’s just and a lot of them and one other thing… ENDURANCE!!!!…… HOW MUCH INSURANCE DO YOU HAVE WHEN YOU IN A CONSTANT STATE OF PANIC STRICKEN FEAR AND FIGHT OR FLIGHT MODE TRYING TO DEFEND YOURSELF ALL TIMES OF YOUR LIFE OVER THE COURSE OF TWO YEARS YOU BECOME AN ANIMAL THEY TREAT YOU TO BE
THEY PLAY YOU LIKE THE GAME CAT AND MOUSE. THEY TOY WITH YOU TAUNT YOU MAKE YOU THINK THAT YOU’VE GOT FOOD AND WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU’RE ABOUT TO CLOSE YOUR MOUTH ON THAT LITTLE BITTY PIECE OF MORSEL….. YOU’VE BECOME MEAN AND YOU FIGHT FOR THAT FUCKING MORSEL THAT YOU WERE ABOUT TO PUT YOUR TEETH IN YOUR THAT FUCKING HUNGRY. THAT FUCKING PANIC YOU GOT THAT MUCH FEAR OF BEING HUNGRY AGAIN YOU FUCKING ATTACK LIKE THE ANIMAL YOU’VE BEEN TREATED…. YOU’VE BECOME AN ANIMAL YOU’RE NO LONGER HUMAN BECAUSE YOU’VE BEEN DEHUMANIZED AND STRIPPED OF ALL HUMANITY THERE’S NOTHING LEFT OF HUMANITY AROUND OR ABOUT YOU……. BY A TREE DOWN THERE THEY GOT A ROPE TIED TO IT AND YANK IT FROM YOUR MOUTH! YOU’RE PLAYED WITH TOYED WITH TAUNTED TORMENTED TORMENT YOUR DREAMS AND YOU SEE THE DEVIL HIMSELF RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU AND HONEY BELIEVE ME HE’S NOT A GOOD LOOKING FELL OW THAT MOTHERFUCKING MONSTER IS WORSE THAN ANY STEPHEN KING MOVIE AND EVER HORROR MOVIE INVOLVED COMBINED IN YOUR FACING NOTHING BUT THE DEVIL TWIN WITH YOUR MIND YOUR BODY YOUR SPIRIT YOUR SOUL EVERY PIECE ABOUT YOU. THE GROUP LEAVES SOME BRANCHES SOMETHING YOU CAN START BUILDING SOME LODGING WITH NEXT THING YOU KNOW IT COMES TO CRASHING DOWN AND THAT’S A STORM FUCKING HITTING YOU FROM EVERY WHICH DIRECTION HOW DO YOU HIDE FROM IT WHERE DO YOU GO HOW DO YOU DEFEND YOURSELF HOW DO YOU EAT HOW DO YOU KEEP THE STRENGTH TO KEEP THE FUCKING ENDURANCE. … THAT’S THE WHOLE GAME. TO SEE HOW MUCH PRESSURE THEY CAN PUT ON YOU AND HOW MUCH IT TAKES TO KILL YOU YOU ARE THE FUCKING HUNTED HUNGER GAME¡!!!!¡!!!!!!!!!
AND …. THAT MY FRIENDS IS REALITY…
And I capitalized it all on purpose.
Oh by the way no I’m not crazy no I’m not psycho I can actually hold a very intelligent conversation still add subtract multiply and divide even though I was never good at math I can hold and juggle right at 100 admin apps still dress myself bathe myself cook try to pay bills if I had the money to do so and still put up with all of your bullshit in the meantime learn what I need to learn to do all these apps take the pressure I’ve been taking continually wipe everyone’s ass and drama and pay for it that everyone leaves me to do and wipe up clean and pay for all the while I’m dealing with hell!! I’D SAY FOR WHAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH I AM FUCKING HOLY CLEAR CRYSTAL GOD DAMN CLEAR FULLY SEEN AND I HAVE GOD DAMN SURVIVED FOR YEARS OF THIS I’D SAY I’M ONE OF THE GODDAMN LUCKY ONES THUS FAR AND I EVEN KNOW THE STAGE OF WHERE I’M AT RIGHT NOW BEING THAT IF ONE MORE FUCKING PERSON TELLS ME I’M CRAZY I’M STRONG OR I’M SORRY I WILL GO TO KILLING SOME PEOPLE YES I’M AT THE HOMICIDAL STAGE I ADMIT IT I I AM ONLY THE ANIMAL THAT YOU HAVE TREATED ME TO BE I HAVE BECOME THAT ANIMAL I HAVE BEEN BEING EXPERIMENT OF CAUSE AND EFFECT THIS IS THE EFFECTS OF WHAT YOU CAUSED THAT YOU NEVER WANTED TO SEE THAT HAS BEEN IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME. THAT’S FACT JACK!
I mean how can you tell any one person and actually get across what it feels like not just to know but to actually know what it feels like to have to start being so freaking anal about how things are placed in your home how you place them exactly the way you place them and the reasons behind it just to be able to make sure that you keep your sanity intact while everyone around you literally everyone is telling you your fucking crazy your psycho grown dope you’re an exobatic making you question your sanity in your stability along with everyone making sure that they try to put doubt in your head about your own sanity.
Personally speaking it made me relate to Eminem, Munchausen syndrome. Everybody telling you you’re sick when the only thing you’re fucking sick of and from….if people that don’t have the degrees to tell you you’re sick going around trying to tell you you’re fucking sick and to try and make it their damn hardest to get you to believe that you’re sick when you fucking know you’re not sick. something going to be wrong with you if they can’t understand what the fuck is going on with you when they’re not living in your fucking shoes is the only thing you’re damn well sick of. And yes this is my damn own words all right. being that my mother just always had to tell me that I had a demon in me or I had this or something wrong with me or my child had fucking autism when he was just ADHD the whole nine yards people want to go around telling you you fucking sick when you fucking not and they don’t live in your shoes that was what pisses me off and this is what happens to you you start relating shit to Eminem I swear to God you do.
For anybody that may be going through this that ran across this article, if there was nothing wrong with you beforehand there ain’t nothing wrong with you now nothing wrong but people fucking with you!!! THAT I CAN GUARANTEE YOU!!!!
The use of invalidation
You know it’s the same thing if you call somebody stupid constantly they’re going to start believing it what it does it breaks down the psyche it breaks down the confidence level the self-esteem and it makes the person believe they’re not worthy they’re not worthy to have anybody they’re not worthy to eat they’re not worthy to be alive essentially. This is what you’ve constantly seen happen with me.
To constantly have to beg gravel plead for just food and roof over my head and validates me that tells us to tell me that I am not worthy of having human rights like everybody else is. To tell me I’m psycho or crazy constantly by each person doing so continually everyday everyday all the time by 50 different people whenever one person says I didn’t do that but don’t understand the multitude of times that’s being told to me it wears you down it’s a process of wearing down each and every part of your self mentally physically and emotionally.
Just for those who are actually finding this article that actually may be going through this…. THE ONLY FUCKING THING WRONG WITH YOU IS PEOPLE FUCKING WITH YOU CONSTANTLY AND THAT IS FUCKING IT I GUARANTEE IT!!
In this screenshot here you will notice if you take a really close look at what’s going on this is the beginning of questioning my mental stabilities. Asking if I’ve been institutionalized is the beginning stages of discrediting me in the community the city within my peers my work peers my friends boyfriends. This is part of the beginning of the breakdown that you don’t even realize that’s happening
Also in the screenshot you also see where I’m being invalidated about getting a nose job, what that does that’s part of the beginning of breaking down my worth my self-worth.
The invalidation of boundaries
To continually cross my boundaries is to enforce that I am not worthy of any boundaries it’s also a form of instilling a feeling of sense of loss of control as well as boundaries can be used as a part of noise irritation, as well as creating triggers.
Creating triggers
Understanding once the triggers are made into the victim it starts a snowballing effect it creates panic fear distortion it sends the victim into a spinning downward spiral it creates sweat shakes shivers the person cannot think it’s it starts a whole big snowballing effect that just sends the victim into not being able to function whatsoever.Once the triggers are made basically all they have to do is just keep reinforcing it and eventually no matter what the triggers will be there potentially lifelong so then it doesn’t even matter they can sit back and relax and let the triggers take its course and do its own job that they have intended on these certain triggers to do to the victim.
Also to understand this is a form of brainwashing and is also hypnotic as well. So for the intended victim without realizing it they go into a hypnosis.
This triggers can be made in the form of being bombarded. What’s been used on me is form bombing email bombing kik bombing telegram bombing screening form bombing comment bombing from the website itself. not knowing my work phone but my real phone numbers being text called and all I was of the night the day constantly continually not knowing who it is this creates the panic and then of course you don’t know who it is that’s doing this that is instilling the fear of course.
How easily these triggers can be made is unbelievable when you realize just how easily it can be done. The brainwashing and along with the hypnotic tendencies part of this it is phenomenal in my eyes.
It can be as simple as someone in a generalized conversation you don’t even know or maybe somebody that you know says to you, “we need some rain” “it needs to rain” ” “we haven’t had rain in about a month” or take for example when it was raining thunderstorming in July right when it was starting to rain I would give a text, ” it’s thunderstorming” ” is it raining over there yet”, ” it’s raining”
I had realized that this person was putting triggers into me I had been hoping it was a positive trigger but nonetheless it was a trigger and it was brainwashing and it was also hypnotic as well.
Now understand that this if you will notice the patterns they’re like I said they’re very synchronized and it all comes in spurts of In Waves you’ll notice that people passing you by will say yes don’t you think we need some rain it’s been dry lately just things like that that are so general so not even able to pick up but when it continually is happening and people are passing you by or you’re talking on the phone with people to get this every time that you’re speaking with someone it does become then become trigger hypnotic and brainwashing
This screenshot tells me that my boundaries what I say it can be bought. As part of the triggering process that’s already been instilled in me this got me upset because of triggers that have been made. And you must understand again this came in a way of spurts like recently back in August someone had came to me filled out the contact form said that I had screened him back in December I said he needed to be rescreened again. And when I did his screening I required him to send me his ID cuz it wasn’t matching up. So I had passed him in December, I explained that I was letting a lot of people go because of their emails not matching up or something not matching up and that I wasn’t doing that anymore. Upon me requiring his ID the next morning I woke up to $205 put into my cash app. Which of course given enough time I’m kind of forgot about the situation right until the other night when he reminded me I think I paid for an hour then I went and found on him because I am not going to handle that kind of manipulation and I know with the underlining statements that are being made throughout all this.
Of course then the other night cuz he wanted to meet up Friday and I didn’t answer back so this Friday night Saturday morning I got threatening emails stating that he was going to put reviews out on me all over the place.
In these two screenshots here you can see where he is already calling me delusional and I like her which is putting my mental stability he’s already invalidating me and then also he’s already he’s threatening me it’s threatening my honor my integrity and that instills fear which instills the fight or flight mode as well. This is manipulation and the brainwashing is included
Disclaimer: when I stated that I was going to protect you before doing and after your visits does not mean that I’m going to continue to enable you to hurt me threaten me manipulate me or anything else to me therefore putting my life into shambles alike has been done. Standing up for myself is not a crime and I will not have this shit any longer you are my attackers one by one as a whole collectively it has done more damage than you would ever can imagine for the normal person reading this.
I am not the bad person here, and to tell me that I am by doing this and showing exactly what’s been done to explain to those that may be going through Gangstalking themselves and showing exactly what to look for it’s not the crime. I refuse to pay for these crimes that you commit on me I am not the center here I am not the one committing these crimes I will not pay for these crimes committed I do not own them they are not mine to own.
In this screenshot see how each word has period after it this is also a very subtle form of brainwashing that is used manipulating words numbers names variations of different things that equal out to be mean underlining means which is subliminal actually and I’ll be going even further and showing that here even more so soon later on throughout the blogs.
The use of exploitation
I didn’t realize this for a very long time it took a while. To understand that there is nothing sacred to these people that they will exploit every living part of you is to go without saying. I’ve had spiritual exploitation, the situation with my son has been exploited my feelings have been exploited my pictures have been exploited and used for fake ads and spam to mess all my advertising accounts up. De an Publix chaining and disgracing has been a part of being exploited. Team effects of this is tremendous compounded on top of each other when it’s done all the time by everybody you are coming in contact with. on top of the fact that you don’t know where it’s coming from you don’t know who is doing it everything is convertingly done under the radar.
I’d like to add in here that being exploited spiritually the way I have been the last couple of years that induced fear as well as never feeling safe in my home so that it took away every bit of safety I’ve had with my own homes. And to be able to describe what that feels like to never feel safe in your home I can’t it’s a feeling that’s undescribable it’s horrifying actually.
And also compounded on the abandonment issue with the isolation the fear is more than panic stricken…way more
If you’ve had not been able to pick up on it already each one of these tactics are for multiple different reasoning and provide multiple different feelings and emotions and stuff within the targeted victim. So there’s not just going to be one use by one thing there’s several different meanings behind each method used.
The take the most recent example which was last night. I got an email saying they wanted to see me and wanted to know how to go about it so I sent the screening form in okay to him. Well I got the spring form he put his name with just his first and the last name as an initial. That right there tells me he completely ignored everything I was saying .. invalidation. The phone number was a business phone number how much is his only he said it’s only line. Email was the email that I could not bring up even though it had associations to do with the business. He sent the deposit e vanilla gift card. But I never received it and he sent screenshots showing that he’s been the money and he sent another screenshot showing that his email needed to be validated and that it could take up to 24 hours for me to receive it so far I still haven’t received it and he wanted to know if I would see him I said well I kind of don’t feel right about it I’m a little unsure about it considering the situation he said okay and he would see what he could do.
With all this in mind I’ve done a screening that I’ve had to pay for that I cannot afford the fact that he did not leave his full name was a sign right off the bat to me. This was not good and I knew something was up.
Again things are very subtle and whether it isn’t and that way or not it ended up being that way.
Here’s another example I found to be very interesting once I realized it. The married man at one point here recently before I had to leave the other place contacted me and said that he had gotten to mask from Italy that he wanted to bring it by. I said okay. Neither one of them I liked at all. And when I was packing to leave over there I realized the messaging behind the two mask. One was the 😦 from the theater mask that I don’t collect I don’t collect this kind of mask I collect Mardi gras mask with this the other one was like a Mardi gras mask but it was a square. Would it look like was a mask that would be used in the Renaissance days as a shield it was square I did not like the associations to do with either one of them.
The exploitation is massive I can be here forever on this one
The use of taunting and torment
Again I can be on this one forever as well. Everything and anything is torment and taunting. Everything from whatever you say or put out there online it has been used in in the form of santanic associations whether it’s names emails or adding up numbers in an email like say for example phone numbers and birthdays will equal out to 666. This one like I said it’s massive. And I’ll go over each one and explain them
The use of instilling fear
As I have reflected back on things I realize there’s three incidents where the torment and the taunting and the stalking was done to instill fear of the law.
Example number one: last September when I was right before I moved off of bandera someone filled out a screening form put in the sheriff’s name number and email and said they wanted to see me at 1:00 in the morning needless to say I was on Twitter and was scared to death. And of course I shut down everything that weekend which did not allow me to work and make money. And then of course I go in talk to the girls about this as well.
Example number two: on my FetLife I’m trying to do videos and everything one night I have someone who automatically gets on my bed life looks like a cop and starts talking about buying slaves actual trafficking and this is what you’ve seen in the screenshots before course I did not know this you know I’m freaking out right so this is again instilling fear into me thinking that the law is after me and make me Fair deal so that I don’t go to them.
Example number three: on Twitter I have someone following me that DM’s name and says he’s an Interpol investigator from New Jersey and would like to ask if I would allow him to get to know me better. Again instilling even more fear into me that the law is after me and so that I don’t go to them.
And just took up there and show you the amount of torn oil that is given to you I’m going to put it all into one weekend of what happened during the time I got this screening form that was a Friday night with the sheriff’s name and number on it and then I’m going to show you exactly what took place during all of this time frame.
To explain this set of screenshots this is a provider that lived above me on the third floor on bandera we met through a mutual friend personal friend who I met upload Moco matter of fact.
I have company over that has nothing to do with nobody as soon I mean as soon as he close the door to leave, my real phone number starts ringing my room phone number start swinging my work number start swinging she starts texting my work number she’s texting my real number and then she comes and bangs on my door yes all of the above. She starts accusing me of having our mutual friend in my room which is none of her concern who gives a fuck if I did supposedly something about she he hasn’t answered her calls well I don’t know anything about it and that’s not my business and yes of course I’m getting very pissed and this is what you see is me being pissed because of what she did she’s a provider only advertises on adult look and she’s on Kik go figure another common denominator in all this and here she is trying to beat my door down with all this accusations yes you see my temper raised you sure fucking do.
Now all this turmiol and drama is just flat out coming out of the blue okay left field out of nowhere just to cause turmoil and my home this is what I mean about people bringing their shit to me.
To explain this screenshot, this person did not leave a booking fee deposit. And upon me reading this it is like something came over me I got a headache I got dizzy I got weed I got started sweating and I got a tired tired tired, it drained everything out of me and kind of going to sleep I had to, couldn’t help it maybe very sick to my stomach.
So the phone number itself adds up to 666 as well as the email if you look at it it tells you to add up the numbers which also ends up coming up to be 666. All of this is considered to be torment and taunting in the satanic way and of course this is also still reiterating The Fear factor there
Targeted: The New Modern Day Slavery 