For my real dad on his birthday November 1st

The last couple of Halloween’s i spend my time with my real dad. His birthday is tomorrow All Saints Day.

I write about this because it will always hurt me what happened. These people they have done so many bad things that no ine xan ever imagine.

On June 26th 2019 my dad was found face first on the floor right by the refrigerator. I will always wonder if any of what i went through had anything to do with his death. Even though he was diabetic, he was healthy as a horse. Always took care of himself. And my step mother told me they could find nothing wrong with him to have caused his death. He had just retired from being an electrician all of his life and bought a couple of Harley’s to enjoy retirement. So I’ll always wonder….

During the time that he had died I was in between TRYING to fill out all my forms to corporate my business. And learn all that and so it it all correctly. I kept getting email bombed and bombed in my DMs on Twitter. I could feel something in my gut about my dad and Everytime i tried to call him these predators that had me under surveillance would interrupt my call to him. TAKING AWAY PRECIOUS TIME AWAY FROM ME AND MY DAD.

Then when my little sister told me on Facebook messenger that he had passed i went on Twitter to try to let everyone know abd to try to get enough money for the plane ticket to Washington for his furnal and they had been trying to push me to monopolize my dad’s death by doing a sale. I flat refused to do such a horrible thing. So i never was able to make my dads funeral.

On top of all that when i spoke of the past of my real dad they went onto curious cat on exploited what i talked about. But you know even though i went through what i went through with my real dad no one knows the circumstances that involves tgat situation and because of that he never judged what i had told him throughout the years. He was the ONLY ONE that never judged me.

And yes even though i had gone through what i had with my dad and even though it took me ten years to forgive.. THE POINT IS .. .I FORGAVE. I LET GO.. I DIDN’T HOLD A GRUDGE LIKE MOST PEOPLE DO .. LIKE THE REST OF MY FAMILY HAS!

I WAS THE BETTER PERSON, I FORGAVE, I TEIED NO MATTER WHAT “TO DO THE RIGHT THING,” And because of that i was able to have the last years of his life and learn more about him and to form a bond that never will be broken. So people can make fun of me and poke jokes and all at me BUT I TURNED MY PAIN INTO POWER!

Today is Samhain, today is the day that we are to remember our ancestors. So today… And tomorrow is in remembrance of my real dad along with all of my loved ones and relatives that have passed. Today and tomorrow i spend in quiet time, spending time with my real father. Love you dad!

Sunday October 31st 2021 4:15 pm