Proactive: On The Healing Road

I am actively rebuilding my life, a new life….for the rest of my life!

Working with Human Trafficking Agencies

My case manager and I have been working really close together in several areas. After going through every department imaginable to try to find out exactly where we needed to go with all of this, my case manager along with her supervisors started talking with the human trafficking agencies. After she explained what my situation was. It was at that point confirmed that what she described was in fact human trafficking.

I have been in touch with the head of one of those agencies who has a personal story of being kidnapped at the age of 7, held captive in a room and drugged and used for child porn both pictures and videos until the age of 12. She has written a book and travels to speak of her experience around the country. We spoke for more than a hr and half on the phone. (EVERYBODY KNOWS I do NOT like talking on the phone, so that should tell you something. Lol) Both my case manager and I will be having a meeting with her along with her 8 colleagues to discuss the many issues at hand. 

Just the other day, my case manager had a meeting with ALL the human trafficking agencies that lasted ALL day long, I was told. Together as a team, my case manager and I are actively working on the goals that have been set and will continue to do so to get through the trauma, etc. that’s needed to rebuild my life after dealing with such horrible experiences

Support

Going to support groups, attending classes which includes cooking classes to self-defense classes with everything in between.

Learning how to interact again. Long-term forced isolation has really done a number on me. I do not know what’s going on in the world today. Not only that, but I can’t interact with anyone that hasn’t dealt with similar situations. Normal average everyday people have no clue and all I know is trauma. So, there’s no common ground.  This is where the support groups will help, I’ll be able to interact with others that have gone through similar situations and ACTUALLY GET IT.

Relearning how to live…YET AGAIN. I had already gone through this when it came to my son. I had to relearn how to speak again, interact with others again, I had put in A LOT of hard work on myself after THAT trauma. The move to San Antonio was supposed to be a fresh start. Only, I was NOT aware that the plan was to actually hand-deliver me into slavery. Was dropped off and was left. STRAIGHT UP HAND DELIVERED INTO SLAVERY!!! So, once more, I have to learn how to live a regular life again.

Medical Care & Mental Health

After 5 years and not being able to have anything identifying to me, I was just approved for my Medicaid that I RIGHTFULLY get from my SSI. Honestly I’m still kind of in shock, I keep looking at my Medicaid card and thinking to myself I cannot believe it the government stamped me WORTHY of being able to have medical Care. There’s a lot to be accomplished here as well.

I have not seen a doctor besides emergency rooms for fears of being given STDs or being told as a joke that somebody had an STD and I need to go get checked, which had been done on a couple of occasions. So, for starters, a full checkup, a mammogram that I’ve gone without. Dental considering that it looks like I have gingivitis now, that’s due from the lack of ability to have medical care. Bone Density loss needs to be checked considering the excessive amount of times of going hungry AND the length of times of going hungry (6 days at a time). My hearing needs to be checked to find out how much hearing loss I have from the false tinnitus from the radiation/microwaving/Havana Syndrome or whatever it’s labeled. Easier way to say that “the EXTREME HIGH EMF LEVELS CONSISTENTLY ENDURED SINCE 2019 (Need I remind everyone of the “Experiencing Hell on Earth” Blog)

The most important issue that has to be dealt with is the brain damage that has been done. THAT has to accessed ASAP. After enduring more than 2 years of radiation directed at my skill through microwaving, “Havana Syndrome” (I have pictures showing my brain swollen, puffy protruding out of my forehead), the excessive amount of times that I had been put through complete shell shock from trauma and complete Terror and Fear. As well as all the mind warping and memory eraser that was being done. The massive amounts of stress, the long term sleep deprivation (14 days) the deprivation of air/oxygen to my brain (chocking me out)

With all that I have endured, there are considerable amounts of brain damage, THE DAMAGE IS THERE, JUST DON’t KNOW HOW MUCH…YET. X-rays, MRIs and whatever else they are going to do. THE STUTTER…(yea, remember how all of you fucked with me

I’ve been through counseling since the end of October. Deprogramming all the programming that has been done. I’ve been put through MASSIVE, MASSIVE freaking amounts of brainwashing…that actually is STILL happening on a daily basis IN ATTEMPT TO KEEP ME BRAINWASHED, in many different ways, that’s being untangled.

OH BELIEVE YOU ME, THERE’S NOT A FUCKING QUESTION ABOUT IT!!! I HAVE FULLY CLARTY ON EXACTLY EVERYTHING THAT HAS BEEN GOING ON, THAT HAS BEEN DONE TO ME…WHO…WHEN.. HOW…FUCKING ALL OF IT!