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As An Empath

To help you understand about the spiritual Messages, visions and experiences that I share that I’ve had, I happen to be ALL SIX TYPES OF EMPATHS!!! One time I was asked how these “messages” come to me, I didn’t know how to answer, all I could say, is “I just know, I hear them”… As an empath I am VERY GIFTED,. A Visionary of the past and “possible” future, I also experience premonitions, a Messenger, a Mentor/Teacher as well as a Healer. I am VERY MUCH IN TUNE WITH MYSELF, HAVE ALWAYS BEEN VERY SPIRITUAL WITHIN MYSELF.

As a healer, I have helped dieing friends pass to the other side. aking their pain from them. I EXPERIENCED HIS BONE MARROW CANCER, THE RADIATION HE WENT THROUGH, IT WAS HIS LEFT LEG THAT WAS IN TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE PAIN. Getting so sick from feeling the radiation he was going through that I would get sick, throwing up with only being able to eat crackers or even nothing at all. I was the last person he talked to as he passed, being able to literally feel life, the soul rise from the body and his last breath taken as he told me in a whisper “Thank you my friend” as his soul rose from his physical body. It hurt so bad and took so much from me, but sacrificed and gave of myself and WAS COMPLETELY SATISFIED THAT I WAS ABLE TO HELP MY FRIEND TO OTHER SIDE IN A LITTLE LESS PAIN. This… To ME… IS A BLESSING.. THAT I CAN PASS ON TO BLESS OTHERS WITH!

I’m passionate with everything I do. Love hard, care hard as well as HURT REALLY HARD. I stay compassionate with TRUE HUMILITY because I LITERALLY “FEEL” the WORLD’S PAIN….. VERY LITERALLY! The descriptions in my writings, are VERY DETAILED being that I describe exactly what it is I’m FEELING. For example I’ve written about “feeling the lashes from being tied to the whipping post” … YES THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I WAS LITERALLY FEELING.

I find that I have to “shield” myself away from “people in general” very often. Because I am such a sensitive empath when my body becomes overwhelmed with what I call others “STUFF,” The only way I can describe it I start “vibrating” with like electricity shocks going through me, I get to “vibrating” so much so at times, I feel like I’m vibrating off the ground. I can’t handle loud sounds, like people talking at one time, you’ll see me wince, on TV if someone is getting hurt, I can’t handle it, you’ll also see me wince. Because I can literally feel it! It’s like I get a sensory overload. When my body can’t take anymore of other people’s “Stuff” it feels like a volcano about to erupt at the pit of my tummy, and all of a sudden I just explode, thats when others think I’m mad, when I’m not even that way. My body just can’t handle anymore of “your stuff.” Its NOT MINE TO KEEP… It can take up to 12 hrs for my body to get back to “normal” to stop vibrating. During those times, I’ve learned NOT to make decis.ions being that I’m NOT basing those decisions on MY TRUE FEELINGS, NEEDS, etc. (This is where my writing comes into play.) The majority of the time, I live VERY QUIETLY with either the TV really low and even though i love all kinds of music im either disassociating woth spiritual music or the blues.

I’ve NEVER known any of my gifts to be thought of or felt to be a curse…. UNTIL I MOVED TO SAN ANTONIO!!!!

I’m either hated or loved, NO IN BETWEEN! Those that instantly hate me IS STRAIGHT UP BECAUSE THEY ARE HATING THEMSELVES THAT THEY HIDE WITH FACADES AND MASK!!! It’s called the “mirror effect” What I find to VERY Amusing is THOSE THAT MEAN HARM TO ME, PUTTING ALL THIS “BLACK MAGIC” ON ME… SIMPLY BOUNCES OFF OF ME BECAUSE I REFLECT OFF OF OTHERS, SO THEY ARE JUST CURSING THEMSELVES … TIMES THREE … THEN TIMES TEN! Hey it’s NOT my Karma!

Its been mentioned before to me that I was radiating such negative energy from me…I DO NOT CARRY ANY NEGATIVE ENERGY ON ME BECAUSE I FEEL IT AT ALL TIMES. And if you get THIS kind of feeling from me, its those that are around me, because Im SP STRONG SPIRITUALLY, THE DEMONS ALWAYS ALWAYS ARE TRYING TO “SMOTHER”  ME OUT IN A CONSTANT DARK CLOUD… AND THEY CAN NOT ACCOMPLISH WHAT THEY SET OUT TO DO, NOT when I’M THE VERY MIRROR REFLECTION OF THEM!!! And I seem to irritate the living fuck out of demons by JUST THE THOUGHT OF MY PRESENCE! … Not my problem lol

Psychic Vampires

You had to know about me to get how those that “feed off of others” … “Psychic Vampires have manipulated the situations, exploiting everything they learned about me, THROUGH ALL SOCIAL MEDIA AS WELL AS MY BLOGS.

THIS IS EXACTLY WHY MEN TREAT ME DIRTY AND LEAVE ME WITH NOTHING, STEALING EVERYTHING FROM ME LEAVING ME LITERALLY SLEEPING ON THE CONCRETE AT STARBUCKS WITH NOTHING .. THEY LITERALLY PREY ON ME TO “FEED” FROM ME!!!!

Human AND Labor Trafficking / Sex Work

Electronic Harassment

Already isolated and in my own prison, that wasn’t even a comfortable prison anymore I found myself to be invisibly bound and chained through electronic harassment. I was already weak from going hungry up to 6 days at a time, tired from being up for as long as I could stand it, stressed with no way to release all the stress. Not realizing at the time I had been under 24/7 surveillance for years. This April, I found myself being terrorized, taunted and tormented through all my electronic devices.

Not able to do anything..I couldn’t call out for help, Everytime I tried “somehow the phone quit working, wouldn’t dial out, wouldn’t charge, couldn’t get work on the computer done, getting insecure certificate notifications, always finding weird things I didn’t understand on my computer. It wasn’t even one thing after the other. It was SO MANY AFTER THE OTHER, SNOWBALLING IN A DOMINO EFFECT. Identity Theft, not able to log into my accounts, JUST EVERYTHING.

Scared, NOT TRUSTING A SOUL, I’ll NEVER EVER FORGET how I could do NOTHING but lay in the bed alone in a motel room at Studio 6 tears flowing down my face, my arms and hands straight down my sides like in a straight jacket so damn scared thinking I was going to die

(you have to remember “a sex worker that’s close to the Mexican border” i could disappear WITHOUT A TRACE, AND I’D BE NOTHING BUT ANOTHER STATISTIC, NOT EVEN A NAME…JUST ANOTHER STATISTIC)

and no one would know what happened or where I was, that THIS WAS THE MOST HORRIFIC, SLOWEST DEATH TO EVER SUCCUMB TO.

I KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO FEEL LIKE AND TO BE A “TRAUMA BASED PROGRAMMED CHAINLESS SLAVE!!!!”

I’d like to add that this is way more than “just frustrating,” or a nuisance, I STAY IN FEAR OF MY LIFE ROUND THE CLOCK 24/7, ALL THE TIME EVERYDAY, I NEVER KNOW WHO I MEET IF THEY ARE APART OF THIS, I TRUST NOTHING OR NO ONE, IM COMPLETELY TOTALLY SCARED OF EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE… ALL THE TIME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!

ALL THIS HAS CAUSED ME TO HAVE BRAIN DAMAGE, MEMORY LOSS AND A NUMBER OF OTHER PROBLEMS THAT I DIDN’T HAVE BEFORE THAT I HAVE TO DEAL WITH FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, THIS IS WAY MORE THAN COMPLEX PTSD

I HAVE BEEN TORMENTED, TORTURED AND TERRORIZED FOR FIVE YEAR NOW!!!!.

Gangstalking

Cease & Desist / Sworn Statements

Reaching Out To Governmental Officials & Authoritive Figures

Google Photos Sharing Links

My Personal Writings / Poems

Data Breach September 2020

October 2021: Electronic Bondage

This is documentation of exactly how Electronic Bondage works. This is how it happened in April of this year that I spoke of on the beginning of this page. They start off slowly and gradually getting worse throughout the month. This weekend October 22nd- 23rd I’m getting hit from EVERYWHERE, hitting EVERY ACCOUNT OVER AND OVER AGAIN. Going from one thing waiting 30 mins or so then hitting in another area. It gets to the point your stomach is in total knots because you don’t know when the next hit is going to happen and FROM WHAT DIRECTION.

The worst part of it all is…

NO MATTER WHAT YOU TRY TO DO TO KEEP YOUR LIFE… YOU CAN NOT DO A DAMN THING BUT FIGHT LIKE HELL TRYING TO SAVE YOUR ACCOUNTS AND YOUR IDENTITY. ALL OF YOUR ARE FUCKING FUTILE AND WORTHLESS!!!