In order to figure out how they did these identities as well as make sense to everything that I have in this website, You MUST first be able to get into the mind of your attacker!
In order to get into the mind of your attacker you have to learn your attacker. That means studying your attacker…. AS MUCH AS THEY HAVE STUDIED YOU!!!
In order to learn your attacker YOU MUST FIRST BECOME YOUR ATTACKER!!!!
Even though I have shared and how I came about all this for my You Tube segments “Getting Into The Mind Of Your Atracker” I’ll explain here as well to fill in the gaps between the videos and the pages.
Introduction
I unfortunately had already had to do this before when it comes to getting into the mind of your attackers when it came to my youngest son. I had to sit down with him when he was 11 years old and explained to him about the menendez brothers and how serial killers usually will start with their parents. Needless to say it’s not the easiest thing to ever do to talk to your child like this but it’s something I felt that way with the urgent enough to need to be done as well as at one point I had taken all the knives and any sharp objects out of my apartment. I was THAT afraid. I even had told him at one point that I knew how he was going to kill me that he would take the coward way out and kill me in my sleep. I had already changed my bedroom door to a locking door that twice he went through while the sleeping while it’s a lot. The first time I woke up to him standing staring at me at the foot of my bed when I know I had to lock the door creepily staring at me I’m going to like I could feel him trying to figure it all out, how it was going to be done. The second time, I SHOT UP 3:00 in the morning screaming his name screaming out for where you at. He had crawled out my bedroom window and was sitting on the roof because it was a townhouse apartment I was sitting outside on the roof by himself and he hollers back “I’m in the kitchen mom.” I could hear him, like he was in my ear. I knew he was right out my window. And at that time I was living on $300 a month plus food stamps income AND TRYING TO RAISE HIM. I had just gotten a pair of rabbit ears for the TV in my room. Which I had kept right outside my window to get better reception. That meant that I left the window with a very small crack so that it wouldn’t cut through the cord to the antenna. So, it was easy to open my bedroom window without REALLY being heard at that time.
Two months before he turned 13, I got woke up from a nap RIGHT AFTER school by CPS and the cops telling me they were taking him. Now I’ll never know the truth about how it all went down. It was later on that I started finding all of his stuff packed… Under the couch cushions etc. In little bitty spots that it was like him to stick things in and hide. I can remember sitting on my living room floor finding that stuff in my couch, crying… Wondering why he kept me alive. With a chill down my back I thought to myself, “so he wouldn’t get in trouble and go to jail. He kept me alive to torture me.” It’s the perfect crime. NOW…. whether my son is involved or not, I still cannot tell you. There are several details in this situation that lead me to believe YES. The way some situations have a “childish” tone to it or thought process, rather shows that some of this is NOT well thought out, like as in child’s mentality and also some details and the way of the torment with those specific details also make me wonder quiet a lot. BUT THEN ALSO, you have to take into consideration that my blogs from before have been exploited and played on to great lengths by many others. There are so many involved but to say the least its very possible. Either way IT’S STILL THE PERFECT MURDER whether he is involved or not… It doesn’t matter. For those that are involved, IT TRULY IS THE PERFECT MURDER!!!…..
I have to admit dictating out these details are still very hard for me. Because that’s just about 7 years ago. today he made 20 (November 21, 2021)/. So unfortunately I I’m already aware that in order Tell me to figure out what was going on with me I had to literally one more time in my life become my attacker and keep a steady balance between being the actual victim becoming my attacker and still holding steady with the societies standards very carefully treading not to mention becoming a private eye a cop a DA on the law authorities I had to become better than them because I am a woman on top of that being a sex worker so I had to become better at the investigation part as well So with all this in mind, Let’s go over how this is done and I stumbled upon it all.
Understanding The Predator
If you have read my blog Perp Mentality In the Sex Work World, You will have a small glimpse of how this is done. Basically when it comes to the psychology of the predator each predator maybe different on how they go about dating their prey. Some like the toy with their price some like to you know torment them I mean it’s all a part of the high” Is that a predator gets when stalking his prey and pawning and tormenting playing the cat and mouse game, keeping the prey in PANIC STRICKEN FEAR is exactly the name of the game AND THE EXACT M. O. TO EVERY PREDATOR. So How they go about messing with their prey may be a little bit different but in all actuality every predator still holds the exact same patterns as others.
Because this is psychological you will not be able to see the patterns and the signs and the behaviors up close or with just one or two pages or incidents. It’s really important to take a few steps back and envision you being the attacker and look at the whole picture. Once you do this, as well as knowing what you’re looking for. At that point it actually slaps you in the face! it’s so obvious and so up close and personal, it will literally scare the living shit out of you… ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ARE DOING YOUR OWN “POSSIBLE” HOMICIDE INVESTIGATION!!!!
…Going back to my blog “Perp Mentality In the Sex Work World” the main characteristics of “Perps” taking on identities of who they identify with the most became very obvious to me while doing screenings. I had noticed there were quite a few that I had screened that had taken the Identities of football players. So they already have this fascination to their “super stars/super heros” and try to duplicate who they look up to, as if being a “Copy Cat” and will MIMIC them. You can find the perfect example of “Copy Cat Mimicking” below
Putting Together The Identities Through Various Sources & At Different Time Frames
Copy Cat: MK Ultra Survivor Cathy O’Brien “You Can Run But You Can’t Hide”
On May 29th 2020 I received this text on my real phone number “you can but you can’t hide. We will find ‘a’ destroy you. 7880 Fredericksburg rd apt 2109. Sleep tight dumb fuck. We will be knocking soon. Ready or not here we come. ”
Breaking This Down
Let’s break this down, shall we??!!! First of all “find ‘a’ destroy you” SHOULD’VE BEEN “AND” and secondly this person MUST be dyslexic! Because my apartment number was “1029”. Most people that are Dyslexic ARE ALSO ADHD! At least from what I’ve seen. My brother is both dyslexic AND ADHD. And I can tell you both of my children ARE ADHD. ….
Let’s recap what we’ve learned from this, so far. 1) DOES NOT PROOFREAD, 2) can’t spell, 3) does NOT capitalize PROPER NOUNS “rd”, 4) is dyslexic 5) MOST PROBABLY ADHD and 6) I pick up on a child’s mentality
THE WAY THIS IS WRITTEN WOULD TELL ME THIS IS A CHILD’S MENTALITY MIMICKING/A COPY CAT FROM THIS VIDEO BELOW.. hold on IM NOT DONE!!!
My Introduction To Cathy O’Brien
at the time that I got this threat above I had no idea about MK ultra nor did I have any clue of Kathy O’Brien’s existence. How this video was introduced to me FIFTEEN MONTHS LATER, IN AUGUST OF THIS YEAR. It wasn’t until I was left on the concrete at Starbucks that this homeless dude Jose Perez and some chick was with introduced me to Cathy O’Brien and this video in full thats below.
So you can imagine of course I tripped hearing THE SAME EXACT SENTENCE THAT WAS SAID TO ME IN A THREAT. WOULDN’T YOU????
Things To Consider & Angles To Look At
In order to grasp exactly what is going on you have to look at all this in several different ways
IN ORDER TO FIND THE PATTERNS and THE BEHAVIORS, ALWAYS REMEMBER: THERE IS ALWAYS ORDER WITHIN ALL THE CHAOS
RULE OF THUMB: IF IT LOOKS LIKE IT DOESN’T MAKE ANY SENSE TO YOU … THEN START DIGGING TO FIND “THE SENSE!!!” BECAUSE I PROMISE YOU IT “IS” THERE!!!!
Spoken From An “Average Person’s” View
Getting into your attacker’s mind is NOT something that we do on a common everyday basis, And by all means if you don’t have to I would keep it at a common everyday basis. But if you were like me, with no one listening no one caring to listen no one paying attention and everybody else saying that I was crazy. Well, I kind of had no choice but to get into the mind of my attackers. Because I knew if I didn’t figire it out and find out what the hell was going on I would never be able to stop this.
So, I KNEW that getting into the mind of my attackers was THE KEY to getting all of this to stop
Needless to say, there’s nothing that I can say or show or do to try to prepare a person for what they will find when they get into the mind of their attacker. The only thing that I can honestly say is:
Be Prepared TO BE UNPREPARED!
I’m sorry, I wish that it’s more I can say to prepare a person, but there’s honestly nothing but I They are due to prepare a person to go down this journey.
… From “The Investigative” Side
Just like “functional drug addicts” we also have “functional predators.” They are able to function in society to society standards even at the most minimal of standards And you never would realize the deep dark demons that are inside someone’s mind. From the investigative side you have to be knowledgeable in many different areas. Which is the reason why I take you all over the place with all these different subjects because I’ve had to go and research all of these different areas and learn all of them on my own. The areas that I personally have had to learn ( Just to name a few):
- Basic psychology
- What stress can do to a body and brain
- How isolation effects the body and brain
- Signs of stalking
- The laws of Stalking
- The Phases of stalking/Gang Stalking
- Signs & Symptoms of Ritual Abuse
- Signs & Symptoms of Emotional & Mental Abuse
- Occult Terms and Definitions and Associations
- psychic Vampires
- Microwaving and directed energy weapons
- Narcissism and narcissistic abuse
- Forensics
- IT and digital forensics…AND LAW
- Networking
- Private investigation and security work, requirements and laws. Along with investigative tools
- Occult investigations
- Hypnosis
- Brain trauma and effects
- Long term effects of trauma and shock to the body and psyche
- Interrogation tactics used
- Hitler and tactics used by Hitler
- Demon oppression
- Demon possession
- Spiritual abuse
Where To Start
Putting a DAILY TIMELINE together is a MUST to be able to see “THE ORGANIZATION WITHIN THE SENSELESS CHAOS!”
Hint Hint: This is EXACTLY how I can show “RICO” with my situation!!!!
- The Individual Days: shows a “TRICKLE EFFECT” and by looking at each day YOU
- WILL BEGIN TO SEE THE CERTAIN PATTERN TO FORM. (on average, for me anyways, it’s on a TWO MONTH Pattern. “Long enough time to forget”) YOU WILL ALSO BEGIN TO NOTICE THE PATTERNS IN THE NAMES. And you will also begin to see THE PATTERNS IN THE NUMBERS….AS WELL AS WORD ASSOCIATIONS (that does the brainwashing and makes the triggers!)
- The WEEKS, The MONTHS and The YEARS: what is leading up to, your environments, the people that have come and gobe within those time frames and the “impression” they have put into your life at that time.
- The common denominators: there is bound to be something that you can find as common denominator and everything that you look for when you look through it what I find to come I promise you you will find it You will find many common denominators and common characteristics between one thing and another
- Look for “The Theme”: predator is usually go by a theme or they have an MO about them right My thing seems to be on the spiritual/satanic level and my son and destroying me bringing me down to homelessness Nana Nana need to have any productive life and not allowing me to be able to succeed in life everything seems to be taken from me in one way or the other every time I try to succeed I cant seem to move forward One man or another is always destroying what I have built up for myself.
The “Cause & Effect”
With all of this, it’s SO vast which of course is done on purpose; CREATING CONFUSION by SUDDENLY BARRAGING you FROM EVERY DIRECTION CONTINUOUSLY. And by doing this, we have “Cause and Effect”
- This causes you to spin out of control
- which causes REACTION instead of RESPONSE
- Which causes agitatetion, aggression, frustration, and then anger ALONG WITH DESPERATION, BEWILDERMENT, LOSS OF CONTROL OF ANY AND EVERYTHING AROUND YOU, FEAR…FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN.. DISTRUST IN THOSE THAT YOU ARE CLOSEST TO…
- which causes feuds and fighting
- which then causes loss of friends and family and loved ones
- Without realizing it, you are being programmed
- This causes Triggers
- It causes your whole body to be in nothing but a ball of tensed up stress….
- which causes PHYSICAL almiments ie: migraines, constant diarrhea, vomiting….
- Which causes your immune system to be at the point of NOT having an immune system
- being put under long-term stress and trauma will lead to memory loss, loss of time “black out” periods
- And may experience difficulty trying to concentrate, not able to finish a task to completion
- There may also be signs of sudden speech impediments. Which is a sign of either complex PTSD or brain trauma TBI from the long term abuse/trauma.
May 29th 2020
August 11th 2021
Example Theme 1: My Son
April 2017 “The Blackmail” …. (This Caused Fear ontop of the fear that I Already had)
Taken from my blog: Cruel Jokes Played On Me: When i was at Woodspring suites in March 2017. It was my fifth day on MocoSpace. I logged in and got a message it said “i know that Facebook face” so I answered who the fuck is this? The answer I got back was “hi Mom”
Looking at the profile it said it was a 47-year-old man and the profile was two years old.
Whoever was acting like my son, we were speaking on my phone by texting only never by speaking on the phone. During these conversations he had informed me he had gotten some pictures of mine. Which apparently i had thought that he had received by either me sending them to him thinking he was an adult man that i was speaking with or had gotten them from them circulating from one person to another from the ones i sent to people i was speaking with.
So this person acting as my son eventually blackmailed me but couldn’t make up his mind what he wanted me to do. There were 3 things that he came up with. Two of them i can remember. I cannot remember the third one.
The first one was sooo freaking humiliating and gross. I was supposed to shit in my own hand and take a picture of me eating my own shit and put it up on my Facebook.
The second one was to sleep with a truck driver for $1000, tape myself sleeping with this truck driver. In other words incriminating myself and then was supposed to give this person the $1000. In other words, pimping me out.
For 5 days i was put under so much stress. Every few minutes getting text from this person taunting me about what decision i was going to make. Even through “supposed” school hours this person would text me, tormenting me about making a decision or he would turn me in.
,At the same time i was dealing with this, people from Moco Space had found out my room number and were calling my room phone, that i had never given out and were making crank calls and taunting me as well.
I was supposed to meet this person at a set time to give then these so-called pictures. I had made a note by this person’s name who i had thought was my son. Of which that day came and went, never hearing from this person again.
A couple of years ago on curious cat someone anonymously had asked if i was into scat play. Needless to say cold chills went down my spine. I had blocked that messenger.
But then again, i was asked about scat play with direct correlation of the blackmail incident that took place.
A couple of weeks ago (January 2021), i was looking at a copy of my contacts list. I saw the notation on the side of a name. But didn’t make correlation at first about the blackmail. It was the next day when i was looking at my contacts list again that it hit me.
When it did, there was a total shock wave that came over me, like it has before when realizing the horrible nasty things that’s been done to me. I instantly fell to my knees, instantly throwing up. If course with no food in my belly. This hit me so hard in my gut, that my gut hurt me for two days after this realization. It had sickened me so badly.
October 2019 “The Suggestion” (By suggesting made me REALLY think on it, AND BELIEVE IT!)
By stealing my pictures and EXPLOITING ME and using the key words “mom & pop”
Discussion about my son (an important factor)
“RAE” …. Was “Rogue Adult Entertainment’
“Ra Ra” was Ashton’s pet cat we had
This IS RaRa
Theme Example 2: Death Threats, Programming, Break Down of life, the Pysche & Body Conditions…Down To “Concrete Homelessness”
April 2021 “The kidnapping” Threat and Finding My Door Open…. INSTILLED THE MESSAGE ” I’LL NEVER KNOW “WHO, WHEN OR WHERE”
June 22 RAN to Haven For Hope “Shelter” more like a voluntary concentration camp I walked into where I was being FURTHER PROGRAMMED… AND TRAINED on how to endure sleeping on concrete AND TEXAS SUMMER HEAT from 5 am to 8 pm EVERYDAY!
Meet Chris Jerome Seel…. And his MANY faces & Names
For THE SOLE PURPOSE OF THE INVESTIGATIVE SIDE, . Going by “the people that are you in your timelines and the impression that was left you need to become acquainted with Chris Seel.
I first saw him in “The Courtyard” at the shelter, which is the pics above five days after I got there. As I was smoking a cigarette, looked clean cut, wore steel toe boots giving the impression of a “working man” (which I like, btw) looking at his hands, he had working man’s hands, was cute..and younger… And I just help myself lol smh
We got to talking and RIGHT AWAY, I was laughing, cutting up and FEELING LIKE A PART OF MY FREE SPIRITED SELF WAS BACK AROUND AGAIN. We seemed to get along great and He made laugh constantly AND WAS VERY GENTLEAN LIKE… VERY RESPECTFUL. Welp that kinda “sold me”.
It was coming at the end of the month, for me it was “business as usual” when it came to the website and just simply taking care of business, which happens to also include the NEVER-ENDING INTERRUPTIONS by EVERYBODY… ANNND THEIR BROTHER.. AND THEIR BROTHERS UNCLE to “buy a cigarette” or the famous “i can have a cigarette” … (With one person even going as far as asking me “why do i NOT having any for sale” *ROLLING MY EYES AND SMFH! LOL) So when it came down to me trying to sit down PRIVATELY and TRY TO ADD UP MY EXPENSES FOR THE MONTH…. it utterly IMPOSSIBLE!!! With that said, I decided to get a room on the first of July but didn’t really want to stay in a room alone. I knew that make me ” feel like work again” and I didn’t want that feeling back so soon.
Sleeping on concrete forced me to surpassed and endure way past my physical ability to handle. When asked for a simple ziplock bag of ice from the kitchen, the answer I got was “we don’t have ice” therefore getting worse and laying on concrete Temporarily paralyzed
Where water was REGULATED & Controlled, Showing DEHYDRATION & was KICKED OUTSIDE OF THE Gate IN THE DIRECT SUN for .making a fuss over NOT BEING ABLE TO GET WATER for SUPPOSEDLY A 2 HR “COOL DOWN COOKING IN HEAT ” TORTURE” that actually lasted 3 HOURS & 45 MINUTES that made me miss supper time
July 2021 Satanic/Voodo Dolls
August 7th 2021, Called Me Out By Full Name
To understand THIS PSYCHOLOGICAL TORMENT, “Michael is “Michelle” in French. And my last name spelled exactly. Therefore, calling my name OUTRIGHT… THROUGH MY FRIENDS SUGGESTIONS on Facebook.
Targeted: The New Modern Day Slavery 