When You Realize You’ve Been Victimized

Saturday, August 22, 2020
4:00 PM

You know there’s a reason why robbers, rapists and murders where a mask when they do their dirty deeds. It’s NOT just to hide their identity. It’s much more than that, Way way deeper than just them hiding their identity. For the victim, IF make it out alive after the attack. And that’s a REAL BIG “if”. The live a life that’s haunted. They live in a life of being taunted. A never ending nightmare. It’s the worst Groundhog Day movie ever!! That just never ever ends. You become scared to fall asleep, because you know, the next day you wake, you’re just gonna be in that same exact nightmare…again….and again….and again. So, really and truly the victims actually dies during the attack. It doesn’t matter if their body actually lives or not. They die, they die inside.

Being kept alive, for the masked attacker, it’s their greatest power trip, ego trip…it’s their highest of CONTROL. Because they KNOW that they control the victim and they could be hundreds of miles away, or it can be years, matter of fact, even after they die….THEY KNOW THEY CONTROL YOU AND WILL ALWAYS CONTROL YOU!!!! AND THEY KNOW IT, AND THAT’S EXACTLY WHY THEY DO IT!!!

For the attacker, it varies. It could be the hunt that’s the thrill. Or the surprise attack. It could be the fight the gets them off, or the victim finally submits to the attack, no longer putting up a fight against the attack. It could be the innocence of a girl forcing her into womanhood, or even a bride’s innocence of her white dress pure wedding day of her dream’s. The thrill of the attacker, it all varies depending on the attacker. The ending result that they are going for, the ULTIMATE of their intentions, yes it’s always the same. TO CONTROL. The more they violate the more they control. The dirtier the violation, the more humiliating, the more disgracing…..the more CONTROL.

It’s AUTOMATIC PROGRAMMING!!! AND THAT PROGRAMMING….IT’S LIFE LONG….Even years and years after the attack, they could dead long ago….for the victim, it doesn’t matter. Even if the victim see’s the attacker dead in front their eyes, showing them proof. That they no longer have to worry. IT DOESN’T MATTER. IT DOESN’T CHANGE THINGS, IT DOESN’T MAKE IT BETTER, IT DOESN’T MAKE THE FEAR GO AWAY!!!! ….AND FOR THE ATTACKER, THAT IS THE ULTIMATE OF CONTROL, THE HIGHEST THEY CAN GET TO CONTROLLING THEIR VICTIMS!!!

What is it that does the actual programming for that control…..FEAR!!!

How it get’s started for the attacker, it also varies. It could be for money, desperation….for the rapists and killer….serial killer it seems like most times it begins with their parents, most typically through the puberty years. The different changes in the body that goes on through the adolescent years.

Not understanding what the body is going through, the different ups and downs of the roller of emotions that seem to barrage any growing teen. And no one stopping to take the time to explain what goes on in the body to help with understanding. No one stops to say these are gonna be the hardest years of your life. And the reasons why is because of the hormones the brain sends through out the body. No one sits and thinks to explain to that teen that at about every 5 years or so that they will experience different changes in their body.

Through a state of confusion and the barrage of emotions that Is not yet understood is where the hate begins. They feel hurt from that hurt begins to seed the hate, distrust and any other number of emotions that follow through. There’s so many of us that make it through this time of our lives, and go on and never think once about it. We never stop to think about those years ever again. In these with the world like it is. We are seeing the school shootings more and more….it stems from going through all these changes, never being understood, trying to find identity in those years. With nothing but parents barking at them. The more they are not understood or listened to, the more the hurt….the more the anger. Feeling trapped…in a corner they begin to act…..and how ever that happens….that varies as well. The first making of any attacker…..normally…what age it actually comes out and shows…well, that varies as well.

On average, anger, hate and control are the common denominators of how it all begins. The details of what brings a person that this stage in their life, at one time they did matter. Over time, it begins to blur For example, hatred for women could have started from a mom abandoning them really young, or beating them or anything else. The hurt, over time turns into anger. With that anger they begin to hate all women. When they look at a woman all they see is their mother and the blinded hurt and act on that hurt in anger. The individual they don’t see, all they see is their mother.

The control normally would stem from loss of control of a situation or environment that brings an onset continued of helplessness and despair that is then deep rooted within them.

To understand what being victimized really is for the victim, the trauma, the damage that it causes, the never-ending nightmare for the victim, is to first understand the attacker! Getting inside the attacker’s mind, what brought them there.

The first attack is nerve wrecking to say the least, is fumbled through with mistakes made. IF they don’t get caught after the first attack, the second attack it becomes easier. The more that they find they have gotten away with it, the more the thrill, the easier it becomes with each attack. It gets to the point it’s like the life they had before, it no longer exist. It’s like a million years ago, another life time. They don’t remember it.

For the victim, depending on the attack and how bad it is. The effects can vary. The more that’s violated, the more that’s taken from the victim, the larger the effect has on them. The damage that’s done to a victim it can be a number of things that trigger the victim into that programming. The victim may go into sweats, shivers and shakes, memory loss, hair loss. The victim may stutter because when the victim tries to talk about it, the victim remembers, thinks about it, it’s so terrifying they won’t be able to form the words they are wanting to speak. The victim then finds themselves living, trapped in nothing but panic-stricken fear they can’t ever get out of. There’s no such thing as trust any longer, even the ones the victim knew before the attack that they trusted. They no longer trust. It effects EVERY PART OF THEIR LIVES.

The victims dreams, nightmares, sex lives, feeling safe in their own homes, even their own skin…they no longer feel safe in. The victim is then always on high alert, jumpy, panicky, forever terrified, forever trapped in their minds reliving that attack.

The mask of a predator, sends a message to the victim to make sure to always look over their shoulder, that they are being watched. That no matter where they go, or who they are with it can happen. They will never no when or where or how. They will never know who their attacker is.

So for the victim, meeting new people no longer exist from fear of this “unknown attacker” They will always wonder when they meet someone is they are their attacker, or even if they know their attacker. They will wonder when they notice someone looking at them….if that person is their attacker. They will always, always ….always be thinking “are you my attacker?”

For any one person to say to the victim “you can contact me any time you need to talk” …..that doesn’t exist for the victim. THE VICTIM DOESN’T HAVE A CLUE OF WHO YOU ARE, YOU COULD BE THE ATTACKER!!!!!!!!!!! THE VICTIM DOESN’T KNOW IF THE ATTACKER WAS SOMEBODY THAT THE VICTIM KNEW BEFORE OR IF IT WAS JUST SOME RANDAM PERSON. THAT VICTIM IS NOT GOING TO TALK AT ALL. TO NO ONE, OUT OF FEAR OF CONFINDING INTO HER ATTACKER!!!!!!!!!

THE ISOLATION IS WAY MORE THAN PHYSICAL, IT’S PHYSICAL ISOLATION, MENTAL ISOLATION, EMOTIONAL ISOLATION. ……IT’S A LIFE ISOLATION. CAGED UP, BACKED UP INTO ONE CORNER ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS IN FEAR…. PANICKING.

For the victim, to go through one attack…to live through just one attack….it’s like it’s almost near impossible to try to gain and get your life back to continue on with living. Going through years of counseling and support groups and on and on. But still, for the victim, that victim will never be the same. It still will never go away. The reminder of that mask, is a continual never-ending nightmare that lets that victim know that it can be any time, any one, any where that it can happen to that victim again. For that victim, it never ever stops!

Today’s date Tuesday November 23, 2021 FIFTEEN MONTHS after writing this, I come across this writing again. I can not begin to describe the feelings I have as I read over the words I’ve written last year. There’s so much that’s happened, last year seems like a million years ago and I can’t seem to remember much of it. But I can tell you this,I REMEMBER THE NEVER ENDING FEAR, I remember EVERY violation as I STILL “TRY” to scrub the disgrace, the humiliation, the dirtiness, the horror off of my skin in the shower with wired kitchen scrubbers. IT DOESN’T WORK! I’ve scrubbed my skin until it bled, I CAN’T EVER GET THIS GROSS DIRTIED VIOLATIONS OFF OF ME. Even still FIFTEEN MONTHS LATER.

This writing was brought about when I was cleaning the bathroom that day and I had realized JUST REALLY WHAT HAD BEEN DONE TO ME. Needless to say this is a perfect description of what it does to a victim. My attackers HAVE BEEN MANY OVER A FIVE YEAR PERIOD. More than 200 men…. IN FIVE YEARS. When I think about that part, its just inconceivable to me. All I’ve been doing is nothing but FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE, FIGHTING TO STAY ALIVE, FIGHTING TO EAT, FIGHTING TO SLEEP, FIGHTING FOR CLOTHES, FIGHTING FOR WARMTH, FIGHTING ….. FIGHTING JUST NOT TO BE HURT ANYMORE… JUST SIMPLY FIGHTING EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE… JUST TO NOT BE HURT ANYMORE…NOT TO BE MANIPULATED ANYMORE…. NOT TO BE CONTROLLED OR BRAINWASHED ANYMORE….

Ive been fighting so much… I don’t know what it means to NOT fight just fot the simplest of things THAT ALL OF YOU TAKE FOR GRANTED.

its so amazing to me looking back on this one writing.

take care, Michelle




Adult Law: The Ignorance In Your Choice of Words Can Cost You

Okay so to understand first of all I’ve been an outcast all the life and I’ve been a loner I stay at home I don’t do anything I don’t go anywhere I don’t mess with people in general. I don’t make waves I don’t make problems I keep to myself. there’s definitely more than one or a few reasons for this choice besides me being an outcast.The reason why I bring this up is because all my life I have done nothing but read I’ve read and done a lot of research and a lot of studies on many lots and lots of different subjects. Since working this job and especially since Fosta has taken place is law has became my new research study. More specifically adult law.

The laws and the way they are worded you have to pay attention to you have to be aware of. The way these laws are written and the words that specify these laws seem to be written in two different ways. Words are VERY manipulated. And YOU HAVE TO PAY VERY CLOSE ATTENTION TO WHAT YOUR READING AND I MEAN THAT.

  • they are written very specifically 
  • they are written to leave things open
  • I’ve also just noticed in this anti encryption bill, anything that leaves an opening, “creating a back door”

i think it said or something like that…that’s their way in …you REALLY HAVE TO PAY ATTENTION TO WORDS AND HOW THEY ARE USED..AS WELL AS WHERE THEY ARE IN THE SENTENCE…THEY EVIL WITH THAT SHIT I PROMISE.

And the reasons for doing so is very obvious especially when they leave things open in the wording:

Nothing in this Act or the amendments made by this Act shall be ;construed to limit or pre.empt any civil action or criminal prosecution ;under Federal law or State law (including State statutory law and State ;common law) filed before or after the day before the date of enactment ;of this Act that was not limited or preempted by section 230 of the ;Communications Act of 1934 (47 U.S.C. 230), as such section was in ;effect on the day before the date of enactment of this Act. ;SEC. 8. <<NOTE: Time period. Reports.>> GAO STUDY.

now i will admit im still not sure of exactly this meaning, but like i said, all i needed to see was ONE WORD….CONSTRUED…AND i cant remember at the moment where i read the example about the atm, ill find it i still have it the link just gotta go look for it….

Take for example the way Congress wrote about sex trafficking victims.

It is written in there the word “construed” is used. and honestly speaking when I saw that word in the way it was used in the sentence I didn’t need to go any further personally. It states that anything that can be “construed” into sex trafficking or prostitution soliciting prostitution. I also read that any activities that you do prior to the illegal activity that can be construed and accounted for to the act of illegal prostitution and sex trafficking.

this means anything that you do before you go and commit the act of prostitution or soliciting a prostitute this means the activity of going to the ATM before you see a provider and they can timestamp you to that activity before the activity of See provider anything that can be CONSTRUED TO YOU PAYING FOR HUMAN TRAFFICKING NOT SOLICITING A PROSTITUTE…. HUMAN TRAFFICKING.

whether the conduct alleged occurred, or is alleged to have occurred, ;before, on, or after such date of enactment. ;SEC. 5. ENSURING FEDERAL LIABILITY FOR PUBLISHING INFORMATION ; DESIGNED TO FACILITATE SEX TRAFFICKING OR ; OTHERWISE FACILITATING SEX TRAFFICKING.

https://www.congress.gov/bill/115th-congress/house-bill/1865/text

This turns soliciting a prostitute which is a misdemeanor into a felony that can carry anywhere from 10 to 99 years. this is what you try to argue all the time on the boards. The way the laws are worded this is what makes the difference between the two that you try to argue about.

IN OUR TERMS… Guess what that really means…. That really means that anything that they can come up with okay and twist and turn and flip into whatever they can figure out that can look make it look like anything or sound like you’re doing anything wrong they got the upper hand. this means that they can come up with some kind of fabricated shit just because of the word construed. This means that the HUMAN TRAFFICKING charges can be piled up against you!!!

So that leaves a whole big opening a lot of bullshit to get in trouble for over nothing if you’re really not doing anything. say for example, especially while there’s profiling even though that’s not supposed to be done but because of the word construed if you are profiled and it can be made into you looking into like you’re doing something wrong…. it can be construed twisted turned flipped flopped into whatever story they could come up with and it be legal for them to do so.

Let me give you some examples of what y’all do that can be construed into trouble:

LETS MEET FOR COFFEE:. First of all you have contacted the escort and the very fine line that defines the differences of escorting being legal and it turning into human trafficking/prostitution is almost non-existent anymore.

When you offer to meet for coffee and not screen, THIS CAN BE CONSTRUED “UNDER THE PRETENSES OF“….. DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I JUST STATED????

I’m going to explain to you why I’m doing things the ways the I’m doing them and the reasons why i’m so damn strict:

Reason 1:

this past October I was approached on my personal FetLife account that account I hardly ever go to, I was approached by le. When I started talking with this person this person had went right into the conversation (and I’m talking immediately,) into buying and selling slaves, now under the pretenses of BDSM and things this is something that is talked about and kind of done but not in the human trafficking way ok.

By the mere discussion of him giving money to sell his slave and trying to lure me into this conversation could have been pretenses for me to be arrested for human trafficking charges.


.I even warned him that these days the way the laws are written this is not to be discussed do not say anything like that anymore even after I stated that he pressed the issue. That’s when i said you sound like a fucking cop. As I was looking at his profile he told me “I’m not a cop“. (for those of you who think that they have to tell you they…that can lie and will lie!!!) He looked like a cop had nothing on his FetLife profile, it was brand new the whole nine yards

These motherfuckers went and found my personal account, planned and plotted a ploy to luew me into a sex trafficking conversation to try to bust me!!!!

Reason 2

This past week on Twitter..I had someone from Interpol with a brand new account. This may in March of this year DM me and openly told me in his introduction first contact to me that he was an Interpol investigator from New Jersey, could he get to know me better.

Now he openly offered to tell me he was an Interpol investigator from New Jersey.
You have to remember the new Texas state crime laws on Cyber now

Reason 3

,I spent two hours, during that two hours my gut got that familiar sickness that I feel when something ain’t right. which I knew it wasn’t right it was pretty obvious. This person has a p411



When I gave the email stating no thank you I appreciate it. he came back like he was surprised and he was apparently. “Am i misunderstanding you?” he asked “are you saying you don’t want to see me?” like he JUST KNEW HE WAS GOING TO PASS…..
My thoughts were “I didn’t fucking stutter now did I”. Those were just my thoughts. So instead of leaving it be. This morning on a Sunday morning at 6 fucking a.m. I had this person pushing me to meet with him for coffee. Because I had mentioned that I would redo the screening with his ID, which did not make any sense anyways, because the information on his ID would have matched what I found more than likely….. it was all the other information that wasnt matching up. take for example his wife’s name her middle name had a man’s name in it a version of his name. every other name I found like supposedly his child’s name his wife’s name and all these other relatives names they were aliases of his.

Okay so he told me, he doesn’t feel comfortable with sending his ID over the internet and email. okay so I understand that. I get that but guess the fuck what??? P411, Eccie, and all these other profiles that I have I think twenty-something profiles, I have to send my ID. More specifically a picture of me holding two things to my face a piece of paper with my name written on it the date and the website name and my ID I’m supposed to hold these two things up to my face and take a clear picture of me holding these two items under my chin said that my face and my ID that shows my face can match up

I have done this on cityxguide, GFE Dating, all of them….and P411 requires you to hold a newspaper up with the day’s date all of them require these things.

I Verify myself and you require me to verify myself for your comfort levels. you supposed to require me to do this, you should require me to do this. this is part of your screening if you didn’t realize it, …..it is. ……See I do some of you sc,reening of ME…FOR YOU!!!
If I put my ass on The chopping block 20 fucking times and I can’t get something straight on your screening… I’m going to ask for that!!!! yes I am!!!! BUT, I am not going to ask any more of you than what is required and asked of me.

So this man precedes to push me into meeting him for coffee to see his ID and face….ummm at the same time in person. Excuse the fuck out of me if I’m not happy with their screening why would I meet you face to face even after I’ve done your screening and I’m not satisfied with it and I felt funny about it especially that I know what happened to me last October??????

(And yes, just so you know I’ve spent FOUR HOURS DOING ONE SCREENING BEFORE…THAT WAS 4 HRS WITHOUT GETTING UP, 1 SCREENING, because things didnt make sense…acutally why he was blacklisted…i couldnt place why…so i searched it, and i ended up telling him that id whitelist him…well he ended getting blackslisted from me in the end even after i whitelisted him smh)

Reason 4

just a little while ago I looked at a screening phone that was done yesterday he openly admitted he’s from DC which is okay and that he now lives in Florida which is again okay. On this screening form he specified some things. That’s kind of what that comment section is for okay so that it is not discussed.

he never offered to email me and get with me about the booking fee, HE WAITED AND MORE OR LESS PUSHED FOR ME TO EMAIL HIM… so a little while ago when I woke up I had to email him and tell him I’m not going to start your screening until the fee is paid. Two things he did that gave me red flags

1. he says “well how do I give you my credit card number???”

Huh???!!!! Then he just puts numbers down and send it to me!!!!! excuse me I’m thinking what the fuck!!!!

so I told him “why the hell did you do that I don’t want your credit card number don’t do that that’s not safe!!” he comes back and says “will you needed my social security number and the info you wouldnt have been able to use it”

Ummm then why the living fuck did you even send that shit in the first place???? why would you do something like that in the first fucking place idiot is what I’m telling him. THAT DID NOT MAKE ANY DAMN SENSE!!!!

• 2. He mentions to me….HIS EXACT WORDS…COPIED AND PASTED WERE…“BTW, the main number is useless w/o the other accompanying info: date and SSN. Anyway, should we reach an agreement, there has to be some measure of trust : ))”

Guess what the fuck I did???? He was still emailing I did not say fucking word I sent his $25 back to him I did not even start the screening, I was not going to!!! had no intentions to!!!! that was not my money so I sent it back to him. I don’t want his money!!!!
Not all money is good fucking money
Even after he said “please forgive me for my clumsiness.”

I’m sorry but your clumsiness in your ignorance in your choice of words will get you 10 to 99 years plus I don’t think I want to pay that price for your choice of words and your ignorance.

to me that is it kind of a tad bit over statement stating that is too high of a price to fucking pay.

Now y’all think I’m some dumb heaux that I’m just some bitch and I’m being bitch to you and I’m just got a lot of fucking stupid rules for no reason. you bitch, you complain, you tell me I’m batshit crazy, you outkast me and you do all kinds of things when it comes to me that I’m going to tell you what…

First of all I am the most sanest craziest bitch you’ll ever meet in your life

And secondly not only do I arm myself with the power of knowledge and adjust my security around that. Knowledge that knowledge keeps me on my toes for all the different little tricks and ways that they tried to catch on and get people.

Thirdly, if you im a bitch, then ok, ill be that bitch!!! i’m only being a bitch for all our good!!!!

  • Because I have news for you…..p411 was infiltrated okay’s were given when they had just walked in the door and nothing happened okays were given and then they got arrested….FOR THOSE OF YOU MEN WHO USE P411 JUST SO YOU DON’T SCREEN!!!
  • REVIEWS ARE BEING BOUGHT AND SOLD
  • REFERENCES ARE BEING BOUGHT AND SOLD THROUGHOUT THE BOARDS BY PROVIDERS AND CLIENTS BOTH ARE DOING THIS.
  • MEETING FOR FUCKING COFFEE GIRLS ARE GETTING ARRESTED FOR DOING SO
  • THEY ARE SENDING UBERS
  • THEY ARE SENDING DEPOSITS
  • THEY ARE DOING STINGS IN 4 AND 5 STAR HOTELS
  • THEY ARE USING HANDLES FROM THE WEBSITES THAT HAVE TAKEN OVER….
  • .THAT CAN MEAN THAT IF YOU GOT BUSTED TONIGHT, AND YOU WROTE A REVIEW ON SOMEONE TWO DAYS AGO, AND I ONLY GO BY THOSE REVIEWS AS YOUR SCREENING…GUESS WHATS GONNA HAPPEN IF I ALLOW JUST THAT?????

Websites that have been busted or gone down:

  • • ter: i wouldnt be on there….which i’ve never been anyways
  • message republic
  • independent girls
  • eros: and i sure wouldnt be on here
  • ashley madison
  • eccie…gone down twice…and has had le on the boards and as moderators…..i flat refuse fucking eccie!!!
  • tryst….girls got busted from tryst
  • private delights….another one girls got busted from…just trusting reviews….
  • oh and btw….yesterday there was a notice that clients and providers and buying and selling reviews now and that they are investing this and any provider that does not come forth and let them know they took a review for money and they are found to be guilty of this thru the investgation that private delights is doing will be banned from the site
  • ourhome2: buying and selling references ….and also everyone from eccie….has gravitated to oh2
  • escort babylon: that’s a easy target there!!!
  • seeking arrangement

YOU BETTER START THINKING AND UNDERSTANDING THAT ANY LITTLE TRICKS THAT YOU PULL AND TRY TO PULL….. THEY ARE PULLING AND THEN SOME OR A LOT SUM ACTUALLY

YOU MUST UNDERSTAND THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO FUCKING ROOM FOR A DOUBT IN ANY OF MY DECISIONS AND IN MY MIND FOR A FUCKING SLIP-UP!!!!!!! THERE IS NO ROOM FOR YOU NOR I TO BE OR PLAY IGNORANCE OR GAMES

YOU MUST UNDERSTAND I CANNOT ALLOW ANY FUCKING LEEWAY AT ALL, THERE’S ABSOLUTELY NO ROOM FOR ANY FUCKING SLIP-UPS. I CANNOT ALLOW FOR SPECIAL TREATMENTS WHEN IT COMES TO SCREENING….Do you think if you get busted, they are going to give us special treatments and not charge and arrest you???? THEY ARE NOT PLAYING….SO IM NOT PLAYING…AND SCREENING IS ALL OF OUR BEST FRIEND…

Two Golden Rules

This is my Motto: If You Don’t Screen, You Don’t Get Seen!!!!

Think About it: Screen Before…..orrrr You Can Get Screened AFTERWARDS…You ALWAYS Have A choice…but I would honestly think You’d want to screen BEFORE!!

HINT HINT


THIS IS A LONG ENOUGH POST I WON’T EVEN START ON THIS SHIT THAT YOU PULL WHEN IT COMES TO TRYING TO WALK IN MY DOOR TO COME SEE ME WHEN I STAYED DEATH BY BLOWJOB I MEAN JUST FUCKING THAT Y’ALL ARE GOING TO END UP KILLING ME IF I DO ALLOW FOR A SLIP UP AND LET ONE OF YOU IN MY HOME YOU WILL END UP KILLING ME THAT WAY TRYING TO GET IN HERE. THAT’S GOING TO BE FOR ANOTHER FUCKING LONG POST.
I DO THIS AND I’M STRICT AND I HAVE THESE RULES FOR DAMN GOOD REASONS IT’S BECAUSE I KNOW THINGS THAT I CANNOT DISCUSS WITH YOU BECAUSE I HAVE THESE RESOURCES IT’S ALSO BECAUSE OF THE THINGS THAT I HAVE BEEN APPROACHED BY AND HAVE COME INTO THE CIRCUMSTANCES MY OWN SELF PERSONALLY I’M NOT TRYING TO BE A BITCH I’M ACTUALLY TRYING TO CARE FOR YOU I HOPE YOU CAN SEE THAT SOON ENOUGH IT’S BEEN 3 YEARS I’VE BEEN AROUND I’M NOT TRYING TO HURT ANY FUCKING ANYBODY I’M TRYING TO STAY AWAY FROM GETTING MYSELF HURT ALONG WITH ANY OF YOU GETTING HURT


Shown Here:Public Law No: 115-164 (04/11/2018)

Allow States and Victims to Fight Online Sex Trafficking Act of 2017

(Sec. 2) This bill expresses the sense of Congress that section 230 of the Communications Act of 1934 was not intended to provide legal protection to websites that unlawfully promote and facilitate prostitution and websites that facilitate traffickers in advertising the sale of unlawful sex acts with sex trafficking victims. Section 230 limits the legal liability of interactive computer service providers or users for content they publish that was created by others.

(Sec. 3) The bill amends the federal criminal code to add a new section that imposes penalties—a fine, a prison term of up to 10 years, or both—on a person who, using a facility or means of interstate or foreign commerce, owns, manages, or operates an interactive computer service (or attempts or conspires to do so) to promote or facilitate the prostitution of another person.

Additionally, it establishes enhanced penalties—a fine, a prison term of up to 25 years, or both—for a person who commits the offense in one of the following aggravating circumstances: (1) promotes or facilitates the prostitution of five or more persons, or (2) acts with reckless disregard that such conduct contributes to sex trafficking.

A person injured by an aggravated offense may recover damages and attorneys’ fees in a federal civil action.

A court must order mandatory restitution, in addition to other criminal or civil penalties, for an aggravated offense in which a person acts with reckless disregard that such conduct contributes to sex trafficking.

A defendant may assert, as an affirmative defense, that the promotion or facilitation of prostitution is legal in the jurisdiction where it was targeted.

(Sec. 4) The bill amends the Communications Act of 1934 to declare that section 230 does not limit: (1) a federal civil claim for conduct that constitutes sex trafficking, (2) a federal criminal charge for conduct that constitutes sex trafficking, or (3) a state criminal charge for conduct that promotes or facilitates prostitution in violation of this bill.

The amendments apply regardless of whether alleged conduct occurs before, on, or after this bill’s enactment.

(Sec. 5) The bill amends the federal criminal code to define a phrase related to the prohibition on sex trafficking. Currently, it a crime to knowingly benefit from participation in a venture that engages in sex trafficking. This bill defines “participation in a venture” to mean knowingly assisting, supporting, or facilitating a sex trafficking violation.

(Sec. 6) A state may file a federal civil action to enforce federal sex trafficking violations.

(Sec. 7) This section states that this bill does not limit federal or state civil actions or criminal prosecutions that are not preempted by section 230 of the Communications Act of 1934.

(Sec. 8) The Government Accountability Office must report to Congress on information related to damages and mandatory restitution for aggravated offenses under this bill.

https://www.congress.gov/bill/115th-congress/house-bill/1865/all-info#relatedBills-content

I AM NOT PROMOTING PROSTITUTION!!! I AM AGAINST HUMAN TRAFFICKING!!!! I LIKE TO MEET PEOPLE, I STAY TO MYSELF, SIMPLY COMPANIONSHIP!!!! CAUSE I DONT GO ANYWHERE!!!! ANY MONEY IS FOR MY TIME ONLY!!! I DO NOT AGREE TO ANYTHING!!!! MY SERVICES PAGE IS SIMPLY THINGS THAT I LIKE TO DO AND I LET YOU KNOW SO WE CAN BE A MATCH!!!!! I DO NOT AGREE TO ANY SEX FOR ANY MONEY!!! THINGS IS WRITTEN IN THIS WEBSITE, THEY ARE SIMPLY STORIES!!!
I WILL NOT PUT UP WITH ANYTHING ILLEGAL!!!!

Hair loss due to DEWs

I want y’all to see how much hair im losing. Its gross but I went through this in 2019 and I didn’t know what was going on with me. At the time I had been going through someone I had been dating a married man had been thought he had chlamydia or whatever and it is a stressful time with me and which I had gone to three different doctors and was told that I didn’t have anything This messed up work and it messed up a relationship that had been getting more serious matter of fact I’m still seeing that man now. I knew the married man relationship wasn’t going any further and it is to the point of ending anyways.

On top of that I had a this crap with people that I didn’t realize that was gangstalking me When it came down to those about work.

I noticed while I was in the shower that clumps of hair would just come out and I thought it first maybe it was my thyroids or this or that I couldn’t figure out what it was.

And then at the same time I was getting burned by direct energy Weapons or whatever. So I’m not trying to be gross but I’m wanting to show the signs of energy weapon and what it does to you Just so that if you go through it you’ll know that this does happen

So these are the pictures that I took tonight on Halloween night.

Now look at the difference between tonight and October 14th

As you can see this is not any ordinary shedding This is actual hair loss I wash my hair everyday I should not be losing this much hair

October 24th

October 14th

For my real dad on his birthday November 1st

The last couple of Halloween’s i spend my time with my real dad. His birthday is tomorrow All Saints Day.

I write about this because it will always hurt me what happened. These people they have done so many bad things that no ine xan ever imagine.

On June 26th 2019 my dad was found face first on the floor right by the refrigerator. I will always wonder if any of what i went through had anything to do with his death. Even though he was diabetic, he was healthy as a horse. Always took care of himself. And my step mother told me they could find nothing wrong with him to have caused his death. He had just retired from being an electrician all of his life and bought a couple of Harley’s to enjoy retirement. So I’ll always wonder….

During the time that he had died I was in between TRYING to fill out all my forms to corporate my business. And learn all that and so it it all correctly. I kept getting email bombed and bombed in my DMs on Twitter. I could feel something in my gut about my dad and Everytime i tried to call him these predators that had me under surveillance would interrupt my call to him. TAKING AWAY PRECIOUS TIME AWAY FROM ME AND MY DAD.

Then when my little sister told me on Facebook messenger that he had passed i went on Twitter to try to let everyone know abd to try to get enough money for the plane ticket to Washington for his furnal and they had been trying to push me to monopolize my dad’s death by doing a sale. I flat refused to do such a horrible thing. So i never was able to make my dads funeral.

On top of all that when i spoke of the past of my real dad they went onto curious cat on exploited what i talked about. But you know even though i went through what i went through with my real dad no one knows the circumstances that involves tgat situation and because of that he never judged what i had told him throughout the years. He was the ONLY ONE that never judged me.

And yes even though i had gone through what i had with my dad and even though it took me ten years to forgive.. THE POINT IS .. .I FORGAVE. I LET GO.. I DIDN’T HOLD A GRUDGE LIKE MOST PEOPLE DO .. LIKE THE REST OF MY FAMILY HAS!

I WAS THE BETTER PERSON, I FORGAVE, I TEIED NO MATTER WHAT “TO DO THE RIGHT THING,” And because of that i was able to have the last years of his life and learn more about him and to form a bond that never will be broken. So people can make fun of me and poke jokes and all at me BUT I TURNED MY PAIN INTO POWER!

Today is Samhain, today is the day that we are to remember our ancestors. So today… And tomorrow is in remembrance of my real dad along with all of my loved ones and relatives that have passed. Today and tomorrow i spend in quiet time, spending time with my real father. Love you dad!

Sunday October 31st 2021 4:15 pm

Codes & Riddles

Introduction

I first want to share something I found last month in December while I was out of state that I was blown away that I had found this, and I would like to share with you and I’m going to explain to you what all is going on at that time with me.

Taken October 18, 2015

This is just like it says “codes and riddles” that was written in 2015, 6 years ago. The reason why you see it written like that is because I had broken my right wrist. I’ve got a plate in my wrist and six screws so if it’s my right hand I’m right-handed so therefore there you go. At the time I had written this I had started smelling ETHER. This is during one of the times that I had transcended feeling myself floating up which was odd to me and I mean I’m only human right LOL I was going to a Protestant church at the time. The preacher’s sermon happened to be on Ether and God. The universe.

I was completely blown away and to better put it in perspective for y’all to understand. you know, I’m in church and when this stuff hits me it’s like “oh my God I’m like oh my God oh my God I got that last night you know, check this out and I’m sitting here poking the person sitting next to me, ” I got that last night I know what that means, look see i wrote that down last night” … and NOBODY knows what I’m up to or nobody can figure it out but I’m sitting here going WOW! 

Oh I’m definitely sure on the site to see because it’s either somebody’s looking at me going this bitch is crazy or completely laughing at me because you know the reaction when everything pieces together for me it never changes I tripped out every time okay, so this is what was going on with me at this time when I wrote this.

I did not remember it wasn’t in my fore thoughts. I can tell you I found it in December, and it all made sense to me. Especially after both with what I have been going through these last 3 years. Not to mention what we are going through in this world today.

I’m going to make it a point to note here it doesn’t matter whether you believe in all this or not it doesn’t matter what your thoughts are on it this is why I stayed here. Because this is what’s going on and this is what’s going to be used so in order for you to be able to grasp not to mention recognize not to mention handle things these are the ways that they are going to be using these things and dealing with this. I made  all the videos back last Easter in 2020 but I’m expressing myself one more time because I have numerous writings no one’s ever seen explaining all these things. For example, based on fear she doesn’t have this knowledge she is not going to be able to fight against the spiritual warfare that is happening right now plain and simple. Without this knowledge she is not going to be able to know what things mean and the sense of their meaning.

Everything is fear based, everything  you’ve seen me go through it’s fear-based trauma based, same thing with Trump fear-based… dictator.. so I wanted to make that point and also nothing is as it seems, I promise you… NOTHING!!! THERE IS ALWAYS AN UNDERLYING MEANING AND UNDERLYING MESSAGE AND AN UNDERLYING REASON THERE IS NOTHING THAT IS AS IT SEEMS TO THE NAKED EYE ABSOLUTELY NOT A THING!!!!

To understand in the Bible God gave Lucifer a certain amount of time to get as many souls as he can gather up he didn’t specify how he could go about doing it he said this is how long you have, and this is you have this amount of time to do what you need to do. And this is what’s going on. It’s all a rush on time. This is another reason for all the time wasting the little game to waste time to do what you need to do as a child of God. What everybody has seen happen to me is all this stuff that goes on, all this chaos that goes on before something spiritual hits me. That’s a waste of time to push everything back so that I don’t get it done when I’m supposed to get it done. That means more souls are gathered and collected. 

!!!!  So we have codes and riddles…. THIS IS NOTHING BUT A GAME OF NUMBERS AND NAMES AND TIME STRICTLY TIME AND NUMBERS IF YOU DON’T FORGET ANYTHING THIS IS THE MAIN THING YOU CANNOT FORGET IT’S ALL ABOUT THE NUMBER!!!

It’s All About Codes & Riddles

Three most important things that you have to keep in mind:

  • There is ALWAYS “order in Chaos”
  • You won’t be able to see it up front, you have to take a step back and look for the patterns
  • It’s ALL About “Codes & Riddles”
  • Absolutely nothing is ever as it seems!! It will never be up front in your face. It’s ALWAYS an underlining meaning!
  • IT’S NEVER ABOUT WHAT YOU SEE…IT’S ALWAYS ABOUT WHAT YOU DON’T SEE

The Name of the Game

  • “The Number Game”
  • “The Name Game” and
  • “The Time Game”

The Number and Name Game
Example A

First you need to know I don’t have any social media on any of my devices at all the only way I have any association with social media is through notifications in the email so when I clicked on that my first impression the second I saw

Just so that you’re aware this has a very distinct message that was made very fucking clear to me and the message was well received

Someone is letting me know someone is lurking in the shadows

Next message the name I didn’t like it I knew better

Lucy 669

The first thing I saw was the email notifciation. So from that on down, what is it that you see? Yes! It’s definitly ANOTHER clear message to me. Can you see what all of this is telling me????

So let’s go over the number Representations

669
9s -or an upside down sex used to throw off and be under co-op not some noticeable To the ignorant eye


Os -wild card wild number .. thrown anywhere needed to make the numbers match

8s– here lately I had started all of a sudden noticing that I was seeing quite a number of names and associations with the number eight in it so the fun looking it up eighth or considered to be an infinite right side and upside down six going on infinity wise so an eight is thrown into the number game to also throw off the ignorant eye

333 equal out to nine which is an upside down six

Example B

Two and four also thrown in numbers to equal out six like for example I got a screening form the night that you said the word subliminal I had already dealt with getting a screening form in that literally was an a spiritual attack that left me pretty tired and thrown off completely the email for example was

ad5166@gmail.com

Meaning straight up 666 and told you what to do add it together okay I will literally I got hit that day in the head and man I got sick that’s why when you said the words subliminal it actually stuck to me because I was already dealing with subliminal and really didn’t even realize it.

Example C

I caught this the other day. FIRST OF ALL, the handles are ALWAYS a representation of who they are. FIRST AND FOREMOST! And I’ve noticed, some people…(like who I had been seeing) has names THAT ARE NO NAMES. Be careful, make sure you notice these very small details about who you are associating yourself with!

Ok so let’s go over this one.

@3366bb

33 = 3+3 = 6 …. (6)
66 = 66 is NOT adding but (2) 6’s ……(6)
bb = 66…….”b’s” are used as “6’s”……(6)

So this can be read in 2 different ways. Either way this is read It’s STILL equaling out as “666”

Example D

This is Cappy. He is maintenance at Budget suites at least was where I decided for a year. On the day of October 1st after cornering me and stalking me cornered me out of my own residence on October 1st when I was putting my bags had to get a lift to move there was three minutes guys in the parking lot standing there talking the Cappy comes to regular to me well I got stuff in my hands and I’m packing up to go now I’m quite upset of course just to say his fake accent… which like duh right. . Just to say to me ” oh you going to do laundry huh” confirming with me that yes that’s how the used fabric sheets softener sheets from the dryers were being placed in my apartment.

Now let’s take a good look at his profile. He is sending a very clear message to me. Look at it close. This is a subliminal message, targeting me psychologically. Can you see the message?

“Former Psychiatric and Mental Health Nursing at Capio S:t “ I’m going to be put into a psychiatric mental health hospital, and he is telling me his name is Cappy.

“Stockholm, Sweden” is another clear subliminal message. (Tristen/Issac played along with the whole charade, by made the comment to me saying, “He is from Sweden?” knowing full well, that Cappy was in his KIK Group)

The picture of him and his “friends” are another subliminal message of I will not have anyone in my life. “See what I have, and you don’t, nor won’t have” kind of thing.

This is part of the Trauma Based Mind Control Programming. To psychologically break you down. This process you will see through out the Gang/Organized Stalking Phases.

Example E

This one is telling that “yahooooo…I will be alone” because the name that you see when it’s sent is ‘Yahoo” ….”You will be alone”

Example F

This first screenshot was actually MY FIRST CONTENT SALE ON CASH APP!!!
“Teeaye210” = T I = (Targeted Individual)

“AyeTee210” I T = ( Individual Targeted)
You can also spell it by “Tea” and then also “eye”

Example G

“The Left Black Eye” symbolizes initiation into the santanic occult
oddly enough, this person was on my Yahoo messenger, which I haven’t used in forever ….then WHY WOULD HE BE ON MY YAHOO MESSENGER WHEN I HAVEN’T USED IT IN, I DON’T KNOW, 5 FIVE YEARS OR MORE. AND HE IS “SUPPOSED TO BE” IN SAN ANTONIO ? I HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONG

Example H

This here is telling me he has a “project” and I’m under “radar.na”

Two ways what he said can be taken 1) I was the project on the radar or 2) “projected radar” Considering what I went through with the hacking and everything after “he ran into me,” it’s the second one.

right now I’m being hit with another dose of hard electronic harassment so I can’t look much because AGAIN I am experiencing “network changes”

Example I

I noticed that I would get ppl using periods after each word or capital letters then lower case letters. This is part of programming the subconscious mind without you realizing it.

Journal Entry Saturday December 12th, 2020: What Is Choice?

Journal entry what is CHOICE

Saturday, December 12, 2020
9:01 PM

So you, the reader, i have a question for you

What does CHOICE mean to YOU?

IF someone actually cared enough to actually ask me. And mean the actual question and wait to hear my answer ..and CARE ENOUGH TO ACTUALLY. “HEAR” MY FUCKING ANSWER…

I don’t know how to answer

I don’t know what choice is

What is FREEDOM OF WILL

WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO YOU

I think i can answer that one…

Hmm Freedom of Will…to me?? It means i WILLFULLY DO SOMETHING, EVERYTHING THAT I DON’T WANT TO DO, WANT TO HAVE DONE, OR NOT COMFORTABLE AT THE TIME

IT means i WILLFULLY do whatever it may or that I’m not ready for yet

OR

i WILLFULLY fucking pay the price of the wrath of my punishment that is coming to me!

It means whatever weakness known its used as a tool against you.

For me those tools have been cigarettes, food, shelter, internet, Computer…AND SEX

Sex as a weapon a tool to hurt me
Take for example number 1, my youngest son’s father. When he drank, i KNEW i better myself for whatever wrath i would be enduring for whatever reason that he conjured up into Head….just to have a false sense of control in his drunkeess

We would get into it, the next morning, he got his coffee his breakfast, his clothes pulled out for him, his lunch made, his little note or whatever in his lunch for him. And of course his fucking blow job.


And i would get .. my cigarettes taken away from me. And hiden.

Oh and he would make damn sure he would put a password on the computer, to lock me out, so i couldn’t enjoy myself at all with just playing solitaire or black hawk down back then

Another example…we can go all forever when it comes work and choosing one nasty hurtful man after the other tge vile fucked off ways just to make sure you have what needs can be met with what ya have to go through to get it but i won’t go into detail

Third example of FREEDOM OF WILL. WHAT CHOICE MEANS TO ME

I leave san Antonio im told ill be safe, no one is going to come in to hurt me here,

Afyer what i endured 24/7 round the clock for years, a bus trip later, the REST OF MY LIFE JUST UP AND DISAPPEARS FROM OONE TRANSFER TO THE NEXT 2 HRS LATER.

Stressed hungry tired. Just exhausted in every which way body brain every thing. I get to my destination, no 36″ duffle bag. I slept internet sucks in country. So i sleep the next night upon the arrival of the owner of the house.

He proceeds to make sure he exerts his 6 foot 5 dominance over a 4 foot 10 woman, THIS IS HIS DOMAIN, im told.

His Dominance … after all the trauma for years…i pissed my pants tge only clothes i own on my body.


Two day’s ago i get punished the internet is turned off at night upon going to be bed, ive gone by rules of making sure tge house was done .. EVERYTHING…BUT SEX

He wants to know. Says he wants to understand.. NOTHING I SAY REGISTERS… NOT A THANG.

Tge only thing that registered was

Okay so we can do that, my worship sessions were 125 a half hour, once a week…4 weeks equak8 to be 500 paying rent for tve month. .

It registered so fucking well. It pissed him the fuck off bad. So i got punished no internet.

Him understanding.. was forcing me to talk about things i wasn’t ready to talk about . Why do i want to a man about things that men have done to me???????

Its not going to be understood that I’ve already been through passing out from so much pain in my back that the sane pain that knocked ne out woke me up to being VIOLATED…why would tgat register..

I wrote a letter begging for him stoo6 thus means i tried to express everything and explain it in writing cuz i can’t “talk” to explain it all. Tge TRIGGERS

THAT NIGHT I GOT TRIGGERD.. RAISED MY VOICE SOME to him i was being ungrateful and disrespectful and i was dominating his domain.

When i sent the letter the next morning knowing full well how it was going to be taken…

And guess what just as predicted ..

“Thus bitch is crazy, she needs to go, WITH WHAT SHE CAME WITH”

THAT night after all day of hell after being made to go back into my corner,

“Fine whatever I’ll freaking comply”

I asked if i could just rest after alm tge turmoil

MY FREEDOM OF WILL..

“I guess you just need to make yourself do it”

After the humiliation of having to comply after asking before for patience sex has been a weapon used on me. . after what i did end up telling him to make sure i did because that’s tge way it is was….guess what

NON OF IT MATTERED, IT WAZ SHRUGGED OFF ALL HE COULD WORRY WAS 125 and getting head .

“Come here and sjow me”

PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE FORCED RAPE
THE MOST DEGRADING AND HUMILIATING WAY TO PUT THE TOPPER OFF AFTER ALL THAT DAY.

MY FREEDOM OF WILL HAD TO BE KNEELING DOWN AND GETTING HIM OFF,

PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE FORCEFULLY WILLINGLY

RAPING MY OWN FUCKING SELF

i can’t even look at him. .i got up grabbed my bag asked to go to my room, i didn’t even wait ..i washed my mouth and laid there curled up sickened humiliated felt gross. .and tgen he comes to ask me if i wanted to eat

All the while i was trying to keep from throwing up while he was around. So he wouldn’t know

He didn’t see it being a big deal to him

But for me

ITS GID DAM SUPPOSED TO BE MY FUCKING BODY ..OH BUT YET AGAIN I GOT IT WRONG

ITS MY NAME THAT’S ATTACHED TO TJIS BODY, TO THE CREDIT… OR NON CREDIT ..BUT THAT’S ALL THAT’S ATTACHED THATS MINE
ALL THROUGH WORK

MY BOUNDARIES…IT WAS MADE SURE THAT I KNEW I WASN’T ALLOWED ANY PERSONAL SPACE, TIME PEACE RELATIONSHIP. FINANCES, FOOD SHELTER OR ANYTHING

I DIDN’T HAVE CHOICE I HAD TO PUT UP WITB THE VILE DISGUSTING THINGS THAT MEN DO TO WHORES OF WHAT MEN CONSIDER THE LOWEST OF THE CLASS OF WHORES. CUZ THEY MAKE SURE TO MAKE IT KNOWN

WOMEN ARE NOTHING .BUT WHORES…

ITS THE CLASS OF WHORE THAT MAKES TGE DIFFERENCE IN JUST HOW VILE THEY WILL TREAT YOU AND DON’T MAKE TGE SANE FUCK UP AND FORGET IT KIKE I HAVE

SO HE GOT HS NUTS DRAINED, I GOT A BED THAT I DON’T SLEEP OR FEEL COMFORTABLE TO PASS OUT EXHAUSTED

HE SAYS IM SAFE I WON’T BE HURT HERE…BUT EXACTLY WHO AM I SAFE FROM. .MY SAFETY…WAZ TAKEN TAKEN TGE SECOND DAY I WAS HERE… when j pissed my pants scared over his Dominance and the Dominance of what ive been getting…


So again… another serpent .. another monster…so many monsters

• All the monsters green eyes, blye eyed, tall … short…is tgat supposed to the monsters not be monsters anymore. Cause i personally i can’t tell tge difference.

ALL FUCKING MONSTERS SCARE TGE SHIT OUTTA ME…AND WHAT MAKES …YOU …YES YOU …NOT A MONSTER ..JUST CUZ YOU SAY. YOUR NOT LIKE THEM…THE SECOND YOU OPEN TO SAY THAT EXACT SENTENCE…AS PREDICTED AS SUCH ..YOU BECAME THE WORST MONSTER OF ALL.TO MONSTERS LYING TO ME
AND TAKES MY SAFETY…AND CHOICE AND FREEDOM OF WILL

STRAIGHT AWAY FROM ME

MY PERSONAL SPACE . ANYTHING ABOUT ME TGAT IDENTIFES ME AS AN INDIVIDUAL WITH WANST LIKES AND ENJOYEMENT AND NOT LIJES ..

ALL TGESE LITTLE SMALL THINGS TGAT TURN A PERSON INTO A INDIVIDUAL HAS BEEN STRIPPED AWAY FROM ME, DESECRATED, USED AGAINST ME .. ANYTHING IVE ENJOYED HAS BEEN DIRTIED AND MADE ME SCARED OF.



This is my ENDING fucking statement on freedom of will

Those same exact tools you use as a means of CONTROL to passive AGGRESSIVE force COMPLIANCE

FORCEFULLY MAKING ONE TO HAVE SUBMISSION TO BOW DOWN AND KNEEL IN FRONT OF YOU BE TGE MEANS IF PUNISHMENT AND PAYING WHATEVER PRICE YOU FEEL IS NOT HIGH ENOUGH TO MAJE THE WHORE PAY… MAKING TGE WHORE HIGHER THE PRICE JUST YOU SEE IT AS PAYING FOR SEX WHEN THAT REALLY NIT THE CASE


DOING THE MOST DISGUSTING HUMILIATION AND DISGRACE AS PAYMENT IN EXCHANGE FOR YOUR PAYMENT IF CASH…..


IS THE SAME FUCKING EXACT TOOL USED AGAINST YOU TO DO THE DIRTY NASTY HORRIBLE GROSS THINGS
FOR SATAN HIMSELF

SATANS HANDS…THE PRINCE OF DARKNESS…DO YOU REALLY A PRINCE WOULD ALLOW HIS HANDS TO HE DIRTY…

MUCH LESS BE DRIPPING IN BLOOD!

TGE TRUE SLAVES OF THE GRIND.. THE TRUE PAWNS USED TO COLLECT TGE NUMBERS…YOU GOT A VERY SPECIAL WITH YOUR NUMBERS INTO THAT GRIND ..YES YOU ARE A SPECIAL SLAVE A PAWN TO DO SATANS DIRTY BLOODY DEEDS


DON’T CARE HOW IF YOU LIKE WHAT YOU READ WHY WOULD I

THE TRUTH IS TRUTH…AS I TOLD TO MAKE MYSELF LIKE IT OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN

STEALING EVERY FUCKING LIVING THING . AND NON LIVING..AND JUST WHATEVER ELSE YOY COULD INFILTRATE TO STEAL FROM ME.


SERPANTS…. HISSING IN HIS OWN FUCKING WHINES

I FIND THAT TO BE PARADOX…
10:25 PM


A Real Eye Opener: The Truth about The Underground

A Real Eye Opener: The Truth about The Underground

Friday, March 12, 2021
8:39 AM

I know now that I’m ready to write these words down. The words I find come flooding in my head with all the realizations yet again hitting me dropping me to my knees. Seems like that’s all I do these days is dropped my knees and either dry heave or vomit from the the real realizations of everything that’s going on. so before I lose these thoughts in my head because I know how I deal with memory loss they got to be put down to be shared one day for some unknown, another unsuspecting soul to heed this warnning as I tell my story just because I need to put it on paper because that’s all I have left of my life, is the words I put down on paper…so to speak.b


And each time I try to write all this or actually dictate it really cuz I can’t type anymore it gets too much for me to handle I have to stop gather myself that I try to busy my mind where I don’t think about it so I never finish it any of this it’s too much for me to bear. Which is the reason why I don’t go back and read anything to edit anything to proofread it. So then I get laughed at and joked about about the way I can’t write well I used to write now I just dictate my thoughts just for me really keep a journal for myself maybe one day my writings will be shared so they can help others that find themselves in this situation. Because I know there’s many others I know there is I know it for a fact I know there is.

As I’m sitting here putting my thoughts together I feel like I’ve been through another deja vu all of a sudden. As I was thinking about where I was last year what I was going through at what point in the stage of this so called evil most horrific game these people play. You truly find yourselves in the palm of the devil’s hoof. NOT HAND! Then my thoughts led me to other people that are going through this kind of stalking. That don’t work in the sex world. So I started crying I said well I’ll go take a shower and that’s when it all flooded me.

When you sit back and think about it it’s very well orchestrated, olanned, it’s perfect. I’ve written before about the perfect murder, very much here so… honestly. You don’t even realize it’s going what’s going on and what the intentions of the actions are really going on. 2 years ago it hit me that every time I tried to run from what I was trying to run from I found myself running right back into it. that’s a scary situation. More than you ever want to know I promise. But it just hit me I was prepped from the very get-go. Of course that’s when my knees buckled again and when I hit the bottom of the tub with a big loud thud, it rocked the the tub I hit so hard.


I mean this leads me to wonder, was I targeted a victim or individual or whatever you want to call it in Pennsylvania. I mean this shit makes you wonder about your whole fucking life a question makes you question everything. But here’s what I’m looking at. So I break my arm right. My right wrist, that night I went to the hospital I came back to my apartment to find my apartment robbed two different times. I walked in my back door, and I went to leave to let the neighbor know that I came back and as I was about to grab my back door knob it was being open for me to rob me a third time. The girl I came down here with from Pennsylvania she was an ex bandidio ole lady, who had two girlfriends in particular that were directly cartel… Or supposedly. She that came up North with me but the situation, I had lost my son so I was in the right frame of mind and had asked her to leave right after she got up there I really didn’t know what I was doing at that point in time I was so out of it about my son. So she wanted to come back home she’s from San Antonio so after my disability went through and everything, we made the trip down here four years ago. And very literally from the very second that I put my foot onto the Texas soil it’s been nothing but hell in the very literal seanse of the word.

2 weeks weeks later I find everything I came here with, just out of blue gone. My top dentures gone. The same girl I came down here with extorted me.. well she got $700 out of me but she was extorting me for $900. For some gun that she swore her dad bought her. . but her dad can’t buy guns. From that point on it’s been nothing but a roller coaster it’s not even about 50 roller coasters going all at one time probably since it’s probably more than that actually.

So that leads me to this question. Was I forced? Well it wouldn’t look to be so. Now would it? Enough for the most part when you hear about this on the news. In your mind’s eye you think about crossing the border or being stuck in trucks or like the other day somebody was called through a water tanker truck or something saying they were had no air. When you hear about it these are the kind of thoughts that are very misleading. Because the truth of the matter is, that’s not how it always always happens. The typical everyday situation would be more like mine. Making your situation into forcing you into the underground.

By willfully complying by force.

Yep you heard me right! I had nothing. what was I going to do? There was nothing else I could do but start doing what I started doing. As I said it’s a very well orchestrated plan it’s very very articulated very precise and you never fucking know it.

The fear that comes is it being illegal. Everybody says to legalize like marijuana and NO! NO!: not the case at all!
That would do nothing but bring more fear. Knowing the difference between decriminalization and criminalization is the fact that on this side of the game, even with the laws that have been in place with the Fosta bill. I mean like really how many girls are going to come up and say hey I need help not one of us. and if there happens to be one or a couple or a handful, that would be a miracle or not or that and they would be quite ballsy and I have to say I’m a pretty ballsy person to say the least.

The the desperate need for decriminalization is imperative that we can get this situation decriminalized it’s so freaking imperative. The amount of lives that are lost and one way or the other and I can promise you even being alive still my whole life is gone just gone by other people’s hands. And I know since I’ve been able to identify a lot of them I know these are repeat offenders constantly hurting other people and yet I can’t do nothing about it or can I.?

But just like the rest of us girls out here too scared.

Going back to my thoughts about your mind’s eye when you hear about this kind of thing on the news. You know I’ve been hollering it for at least 2 years now out in the public. Free slave labor not even not even I mean I was just to be like that I was people’s joke my life my whole life they made out and exploited and fucked up and laughed at me laughed at the pain in my face last Easter laughed from being cooked inside out. I WAS LAUGHED AT, I WAS MOCKED, HUMILIATING OUT IN PUBLIC, DESTRUCTIVE EVERYTHING AND WHILE I WAS BEING COOKED ON EASTER LAST YEAR WHEN THERE WAS NOBODY IN THE STREET BECAUSE OF THE QUARANTINE MY WHOLE FACE WAS ON FREAKING FIRE AGAIN FELT LIKE I WAS ON I WAS BURNING IN HELL……YET AGAIN I WAS JUST LAUGHED AT.

Someone I’m reality I was just made to be the butt end of everybody’s joke. Nothing more. And definitely a whole lot less. You know when you come to these kinds of realizations talk about making you feel worthless more than worthless it’s lower than lower than low than low than low and I can’t even begin to describe it.

when my knees buckled in the tub, in my head all I did was scream up for my mom. I wanted her to hold me. I wanted to feel safe again for once. When the realization hits you that you’ve really been trafficking in the real sense but maybe to look like it was all of you I can’t begin to explain this it’s a nightmare that you don’t ever wake up from because you never go to sleep.

You it was so bad to reach out for help but even as I’m dictating this my tablet has been fucking with me you’re always watched I found two more secret recordings on my tablet this morning.

I’m sure I’m going to regret saying this, but haha they may be still getting my sound but I’ll be damned they didn’t get my fucking cameras I got tape on all my cameras now. And I mean like I’m stuck because I dictate because I can’t type anymore my hands shake too much from the trauma I’ve endured. Yet again I’m not too swallow the fact that I REALLY been trafficked. Meaning prophecy has really come true. I wonder it makes any girl Wonder or any guy or anybody that’s putting this situation. Is this really hell? But I know there’s worse just always worse.

What did I mean about my face being cooked you ask? By EMFs. I can tell you by going through it myself I really thought I was in hell.

I WAS PUT ON PUBLIC DISPLAY, AS SOMEBODY WAS COOKING ME FROM INSIDE OUT MICROWAVING ME.

WHAT A FUCKING NIGHTMARE TO GO THROUGH. I WAS PUBLICLY DISPLAYED AND LAUGHED AT, MADE FUN OF TOLD I WAS CRAZY WELL THEY WERE COOKING ME AT THE SAME TIME FROM INSIDE OUT.

HOW DOES SOMEONE DEAL WITH THIS REALIZATION? WITH THIS HORRIFYING TRUTH OF WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON?

I nobody heard me from the very beginning I’m discredited so bad and I mean it’s so far fetched out there that it’s not believable.

ITS A REAL FUCKED UP EYE OPENER I DAMN WELL ASURE YOU!

I’M DEFINITELY NOT MAKING NONE OF THIS STUFF I HAVE WAY MORE THAN 60 GB APPROVED TO PROVE IT THAT EVEN STILL


THE FEAR.

So yet it seems like there’s no way out but a slow cooked death that’s most horrifying beyond anybody’s comprehension. Just an experiment…that’s all nothing more. A guinea pig.

So these are my thoughts that I have had to come to terms with or trying or I don’t know the realizations are hitting me so I’m jotting it all down journaling. Maybe one day somebody will see this that I won’t have to pay for.

This is why I don’t sell my content no more. I’ve already got enough to deal with they used it as a way to get me out of the house to buy cigarettes or food so they can break into the house some more fuck with my stuff. They used it as a controlling weapon. I paid with my life my skin everything I’m just de-skinned really in the real sense. I won’t sell it because of all this. Hell I can’t even get through editing this stuff because it’s too painful to get through. So anyways time to suck it up buttercup get back home with my day whatever that is.

Happy st patrick’s day btw

Wednesday March 17th 2021 11:47 a.m.



Journal Entry Friday February 12th, 2021: Cruel Jokes Played On Me

Cruel “jokes” played on me

Friday, February 12, 2021
5:26 PM

The Blackmail

When i was at woodspring suites in march 2017. It was my fifth day on MocoSpace. I logged in and got a message it said “i know that Facebook face” so I answered who the fuck is this? The answer I got back was “hi Mom”

Looking at the profile it said it was a 47 year old man and the profile was two years old.

Whoever was acting like my son, we were speaking on my phone by texting only never by speaking on the phone. During these conversations he had informed me he had gotten some pictures of mine. Which apparently i had thought that he had received by either me sending them to him thinking he was an adult man that i was speaking with or had gotten them from them circulating from one person to another from the ones i sent to people i was speaking with.

So this person acting as my son eventually blackmailed me but couldn’t make up his mind what he wanted me to do. There were 3 things that he came up with. Two of them i can remember. I cannot remember the third one.

The first one was sooo freaking humiliating and gross. I was supposed to shit in my own hand and take a picture of me eating my own shit and put it up on my Facebook.

The second one was to sleep with a truck driver for $1000, tape myself sleeping with this truck driver. In other words incriminating myself and then was supposed to give this person the $1000. In other words, pimping me out.

For 5 days i was put under so much stress. Every few minutes getting text from this person taunting me about what decision i was going to make. Even through “supposed” school hours this person would text me, tormenting me about making a decision or he would turn me in.

At the same time i was dealing with this, people from moco Space had found out my room number and were calling my room phone, that i had never given out and were making crank calls and taunting me as well.

I was supposed to meet this person at a set time to give then these so called pictures. I had made a note by this person’s name who i had thought was my son. Of which that day came and went, never hearing from this person again.

A couple of years ago on curious cat someone anonymously had asked if i was into scat play. Needless to say cold chills went down my spine. I had blocked that messenger. But then again, i waz asked about scat play with direct correlation of the blackmail incident that took place


A couple of weeks ago i was looking at a copy of my contacts list. I saw the notation on the side of a name. But didn’t make correlation at first about the blackmail. It was the next day when i was looking at my contacts list again that it hit me. When it did, there was a total shock wave that came over me, like it has before when realizing the horrible nasty things that’s been done to me. I instantly fell to my knees, instantly throwing up. If course with no food in my belly. This hit me so hard in my gut, that my gut hurt me for two days after this realization. It had sickened me so badly.

Working For My Friend “Bluesman” Larry Garner

When i left Woodspring suites, I moved to Floresville to a friend’s for a month. During which time someone had hit me up on my Facebook messenger saying that he was my personal friend Larry Garner. Who is a blues musician. Even though i know Larry personally from when i had hung out at the Blues Clubs in Baton Rouge. Namely Phil Brady’s. We had never spoken on a one on one basis. Especially so personally.

I was also friend’s with Larry’s brother, Mike. We had gone out and dated some as well.

Well this person acting like Larry had said he wanted me to work for him. Doing some clerical work and be in charge with important stuff having to do with the tours. I know at the time Larry was about to leave for Sweden.

For about 3 weeks this person kept this prank up. Had given me a gmail account email though I can’t get it at the moment. As im trying to get back into that account now. But at the end of this so called prank, right about the time when i was supposed to be getting my disability check. Finally revealed to me that i was going to have to send them almost all of my check to receive this “case” of paper work and documents.

It was then that i actually went to Larry Garner himself and talked with him about all of this. He had said no it was an imposter. That he didn’t even know that i had gone out with his brother Mike.

This person was on my Facebook and had gotten the very intimate details from my personal Facebook profile.

I still don’t know who this person was. But still is on my messenger. The name Larry Garner still shows up even though the profile has of course since been deleted.

Five Dollar Tricks

After i left Floresville, i was at The Delta Inn in Northeast on I35. Next door to the Megaplex. I was still dealing with all the jokers on MocoSpace. I needed $45 that day for rent. I was upset of course and in a panic about not being able to pay rent.

Through out that day i got nothing but games from everyone. And they kept bringing me down on money. Just further humilating me over and over again. All the way down to humilating me to $2 and $3 tricks. Coming over, fucking hurting me while they fucked me. Leaving me with this chomp change. Making me work more and harder.

People made appointments then never showed. By the time i had gotten enough money to pay for my rent that day. I was hurting so bad in my back i couldn’t hardly go anymore. I had actually needed to go to the hospital but i knew that i couldn’t. So i had asked this dude to bring my rent to the front desk because there was no way that i was able to walk up there. I couldn’t walk at all matter of fact.

Well needless to say, after being humilated so fucking bad for a couple of dollars each call i did. That bkack dude never went to the front desk. He stole that $45 that i made. By that time it was in the evening. And i was freaking out totally…and hurting so fucking bad. The bulges in my back was swollen up against the damaged nerves causing me temporary paralysis.

It was not long after that i realized that rent didn’t get paid tgat someone called and actually came through.

Rent got paid at 9:15pm that night. For one more night. And i really can’t tell you how i made it through that last call that night. I had pushed myself through the temporary paralysis just like i have many times without anyone knowing exactly what I was going through. Trying my best to hide it from everyone.

That night i was very suicidal. It was my best friend and my Former Master that had talked me out of committing suicide.

On Twitter i had anonymously asked about suicide. When i look back over those screen shots. Some of the same people that answered have since had belittled me and stuff. Even now, im crying about this as im typing this out. This was so freaking humilating and all for me. No one can ever imagine how these people made me feel. I wish i can remember the name he went by. But i can remember his picture was always of the joker in make up. It had to do something hamburglar or something like that. That’s one of them that i remember.

Address collectors

I had no idea of all these “jokes”. I was so freaking innocent, so green. I had no idea… someone was supposed to be coming by ..had even told me he was there, at the motel. I was still at Delta Inn. Even had me going through the whole parking lot looking for him. Even though he wasn’t there and he knew it.

Foxboy210

Had called me drunk in the middle of the night wanted to see me. He too, had me looking all through the parking lot for him then cussed me the fuck out. It was later, this last year in 2020 that i realized that he was on my work Kik when he should not have been.which only meant he went under a different name that showed up and i didn’t realize it.

Four hours for $43

Still at the Delta Inn, this guy was a bigger guy. Would not cum, held it on purpose. Made me WORK and i mean really hurting myself…my back and everything for a total of 4 long fucking hours. When i finally said something about it. It took him another 45 mins to finish. After which he shortchanged me leaving me only $43.


3 hours going in circles all for nothing

I was finally advertising on backpage. Of course that meant that at least 50 phone calls a day. Going night and day. NEVER ENDING jokes, jokers, games, humilaton…you name it. As long as it was so very downgrading. That’s what ya dealt with. Every now and then, you’d come across someone serious. It was more often not so serious that you dealt with.

I can remember this one person had me on the phone going through my outfits getting into them and taking pictures. “To see which one he liked” it was SUPPOSED to be a for sure thing right. Well during the 3 hours there were numerous other calls that came through that i could’ve taken of which i didn’t.

Going in circles for 3 hrs, trashing my room pulling outfits and stuff out.. ALL FOR NOTHING. Never showed up. That’s the first of the MANY MANY TIMES that i felt like i was worse than free slave labor. All just for jokes.

The FIRST STD Scare

I was staying at Inn Town Suites at this point. I got a text one night. The guy FLAT REFUSED to tell me who he was. Told ne that ge gotten something from me. Of which i could NOT for the life of me how. I had just gotten tested not long before that. And i was always very careful.

He swore up and down that i was the only one besides his wife he had been with. He had just gotten out of the hospital because of it. Had back pains he said. But couldn’t tell me what he had. Needless to say i was totally freaked out.

The next morning i immediately went to the clinic…all to find out…THAT I HAD NOTHING!

I had wasted money on a lyft to go there and back to my room. Aa well as i had cancel an appointment that i had that morning. Making me spend money and lose money. ALL FOR NOTHING…NOT TO MENTION THE AMOUNT OF STRESS THAT I WENT THROUGH!

Timeline Starting January 2020

January 2020

On the 1st when I got paid I decided I was gonna do “for me” I had just moved to Budget Suites in September of the previous year after being scared and pushed out of In Town Suites along with alot of drama from a “provider” Jennifer/Pebbles had caused that had been my home for more than a year. I had gained A LOT of household while living at In Town. But for Christmas in my new place at Budget Suites, I didn’t have a utensil one and had gone THREE DAYS HUNGRY for Christmas. Christmas Day was my second day hungry in 2019. With everyone and their still expecting from me and taking what I didn’t have to give, I said “fuck it” when I got paid on the first and went to buy plates, pits and utensils and household stuff for myself. I was tired of doing without. I was proud of that decision.

January 2nd

Well I had FINALLY had enough of all the “Takers” taking from me after what all I had lost and been through the previous year, going hungry FOR and ON Christmas, I went the fuck off… FINALLY. Through my blogs AND on Twitter. This day EVERYONE was hitting me up with “I want, I want, I want” I GOT PISSED!

When I say I was being hit up FROM EVERYWHERE with NOTHING but EXPECTATIONS AND “I WANTS” … I MEAN JUST THAT!

TEN of them in my email, MORE on FACEBOOK MESSENGER, I can’t tell ya how many “TIME WASTERS on Twitter ALL UP IN MY DM’S WASTING MY TIME!

Paul Cantu/ SpaceMonkey hits me up when I’m in my parking lot walking across the street to the store wanting to come over I’m trying to get my clothes clean and he puts me in the spot says I’ll be there in 11 minutes. THEN 4 HOURS AT MY HOME WHILE I AM HURTING TRYING TO GET MY CLOTHES DONE AND WON’T FUCKING LEAVE! Now of course I’ve got everybody else and their brother going off on me about not getting shit done also. So that’s when I fall in blew up and went off.

This right here is prime example of what our call PSYCHIC VAMPIRES SUCKING THE LIVING LIFE OUT OF ME. Also this is what’s know as “mobbing” in Gangstalking terms. Where they hit up FROM EVERY DIRECTION ALL AT ONCE

January 4th

“Kelly Hollingshead/ Wooleymammoth” pays for his Lifetime Membership that was $200 with A Google “PLAY” NOT Google “PAY” CARD,

Rent is $275 a WEEK, I couldn’t do a damn thing with Google PLAY, SO THERE WENT MY RENT AND STARTING OFF A CHAIN REACTION FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR for me when it came to rent.

Breaking The Whole “Case” 10-22-21

Okay I have to go ahead and put this out even though there is some things that are not put in here that I want to put in here but here it is and the last month I’m going to go over the account study they have been messing with

  • Facebook was locked out October 21st due to activity not recognized
  • roguescorner49@gmail.com
  • Rights4sexworkers@gmail.com
  • LilMoonflame118@.com
  • Another gmail account
  • slut2use210@gmail.com
  • msroguesa@gmail.com
  • They spammed my msroguesa@gmail.com account
  • Constant failed login attempts to admin on msrogueofsa.net
  • I made a Google Voice for rogue.warrior50@gmail.com I have never used that email account but yet somehow I’ve been getting constant calls on that google voice that I can show
  • All these accounts have been logged in through Microsoft IPs that are showing Washington and Oklahoma locations
  • My roommate stated today that last night when she was out walking the dog she saw a person sitting there honking the horn while I was in the apartment alone and she recognized that person as a gang member That’s all she told me
  • There have been horns honking All the time
  • They are doing so much that I cannot finish this blog right here to put everything together that needs to be put together from July through August and that is being left out on at Starbucks on the concrete and putting that timeline together to when they started back in August 3rd of doing location lookups but so far here’s what I’ve got and I’ve got all the proof so I’m just trying to get it together but I’m fixing to put all these other screenshots out like immediately because I’ve just taken within the last ummm hr and half I’ve taken over a hundred screenshots

User search locations with Blis App By downloading my data I found 149 different location lookups within the time period of November 14th through December 3rd. And picking up again on August 2nd through August 11th with 150 lookups a total of 361 lookups all using the same device ID showing the coordinates too 11591 North interstate 35 those coordinates to Red Roof Inn San Antonio

Notice: Microsoft is a common denominator

Microsoft Cloud App Security Audit Logs “Get Entities” Showing Ireland. These are audit logs in my Microsoft business “E5 Mobility PLUS Security” in the cloud app security.

This shows numerous logs from unknown IPs and areas several of these areas and that you will see common denominator too: Dublin Ireland Washington Virginia Arizona Kansas and Illinois all show in Microsoft IPs as a CDN. And all of them trying to do the activity of “Get Entities” All of them failed attempts

Chris Guerrero activity logs on September 18th 2020 Chris contacted about buying some content and showing false compassion toward what I was going through in other words he was lying trying to gain my trust when buying content you were only supposed to download the link and not do anything else. I found 149 different activity events.

I had considered this a breach because at that time I was going through a lot of electronic harassment as well as hacking going on but I could not figure out at that time. Chris has been on many of my accounts and he has a common denominator with people involved

You can find his Page on the Perps Identified List Here

September 19-20, 2020 Audit Logs Sharing Sets shared with :

  • kawirider83@gmail.com is “Johnny Dumn”
  • g.alba1982@gmail.com
  • guerrerca93@my.com

https://1drv.ms/x/s!AhF6yEuhRuCCh8szzXqiHHubIrJTCg

Someone from san Antonio with the ip address that using the app blis.com to locate me THROUGH MY OWN MICROSOFT HOME ACCOUNT

The ip shows the coordinates of 11591 N interstate 35 which points to  Red roof inn. I downloaded my Microsoft home data and found a 214 different lookups from November 14th to December 3rd again picking up August 3rd to August 11th with the same machine device ID number.

To put the timing together. I made my first please report June 21st as being stalked and being human and labor trafficked. On June 22nd I went into Haven for Hope shelter where the police there and the security there knew that I was a trafficked victim and kept me under watch. And even ask me how I wanted to proceed with the situation and I told Martinez which is Sergeant at Haven for   Hope,  I told her I wanted to go through the program regularly just like everybody else has because it would look very suspicious otherwise. I also knew that eyes would be on me.

I immediately knew when I walked into the court yard after a little bit of watching everybody, that there were three people specifically there to watch me.

There are others like Nate who On July 4th, proceeds to tell me aa there were 4 of us walking together that night, as he came up walking to me telling me that he would walk on the side of the road so i wouldn’t get kidnapped. that yes July 4th is a big recruiting weekend for everything for gangs for trafficking for everything.

Well i kinda figured as much being that friday on the 2nd they were two guys trying to recruit me wanting to pay me 50 dollars for a blowjob out on the streets. And i had already heard how a few girls had been kidnapped and gangraped that way. Besides, THATS NOT MY STYLE ANYWAYS. I was staying put at Haven, EVEN HAVING TO SLEEP ON THE CONCRETE OUTSIDE IN TEXAS HEAT.

That he’s one of the people that are part of all this right.

Now to understand better when they want to make sure to get a message across to you they do it and go about it in a third person story okay to where it’s not direct but you can tell it’s very direct.

Tonight proceeds to tell me that yeah he gets fussed at because he they tell him the people tell him that he talks too much instead of you know never talking I’m thinking to myself why is this son of a bitch really going into so much detail I mean that was off anyways, I mean the cartel in the mob you do not talk about there inner workings and I know that already you know. So he tells me that yes they do have people that make other people look like they’re crazy stuff In other words the gang stalking.

One key thing he told me was “THE CLOUD TELLS ALL”

Another key thing he told me was that it’s not a lot of people that own a person as for his trafficking is concerned, IT’S ONE FAMILY THAT OWNS ONE PERSON AND THEY OWN THAT PERSON FOR  A TOTAL OF 7 YEARS.

And yeah he did mention that yes it’s very traumatizing to the person being trafficked and such

Another time he came up to me and the courtyard and he sat down by me and And again he was talking in third person stories telling me on that his baby Mama was trying to get it 17 and you know how she looks right and they were doping her up and you know she was always looking really tired and that she’s about to have her time up and they’re going to ask her if she wants to stay in or what she wants to leave and this is the point about this story was is to let me know I’ve had you know 5 years here so I’ve got two more years left of being watched and under surveillance or whatever

It was at this point that I immediately got up and talked to Ms Deborah who is head of Haven for Hope courtyard about keeping him away from me I did not want to be near him at all after that I knew it was going on

Also July 22nd or so that’s when i went to St Pedro Park and found all those voodoo dolls and satanic stuff all over all the trees and stuff around San Pedro Park which I have documented already.

Now to make this timeline more complete about the location lookups through my Microsoft home account I left Haven for I hope because I was having death rates along with everything else that was going on that really nobody could really notice or make sense of but me that was July 31st that was on a Friday.

The location lookups go from December 3rd and start all over again on August 3rd.

This person works for Microsoft is a developer and has been using Microsoft CDNs to cover their IP addresses showing Microsoft IPs for the last couple of years stalking the  other website.

Stay ahead keep going into my own Microsoft business cloud security app and trying to get entities In other words they’re trying to find out who’s who I have all I’m not organization or a business and in those accounts in Microsoft.

Not only that because they are a developer they are also using Google development and Android development as well and using Google APIs Now here’s what else I’m going to explain

Because they are using Google development they are using firebase firebase is a developmental tool that allows developers to tweak their apps without you knowing it It gives a backdoor to your Androids to all your phones so that they can update it so they can test it and so forth This has allowed the back door to all of my devices

I found a secure folders within the last couple of days and I have been sick my stomach with what I found because it was hidden I didn’t know about it and everything everything is given permissions I mean just like someone went in there and just hit on for everything and I mean I’m talking there’s two locations there’s two of every app and there’s all kinds of apps that I can’t even make sense of that starts coming up in tonight Android all of a sudden and I have no idea

now

There’s something else I had been you know suspicious of and couldn’t figure out the last four years actually

They have been in my main Google account and showing locations because I have my location on showing locations of Colorado springs and going there are 149 times

In one year 4 years ago,

Now here’s another thing I’m going to explain

When I got trace my IP.org for the other website I was collecting machine IDs okay because of all of this I was collecting all the information that I could

And maybe in a website owner and operator Looking into the laws that gave me full permissions but then the GDPR laws that if my life or if someone’s life was in jeopardy or danger that I could collect all information that I could okay so to break that down one more time

In March gamer dude I know you know that name Jamie Escobar He filled out a screening form and I was able to match his IP with the Microsoft IPs that was showing up in the other website and what was funny is he wasn’t logging out so in other words he was it was showing how many times he was going to the website but it wasn’t showing how many pages In other words he was in there okay So when he filled out the screen form he did not follow directions and that’s off you know

But what he’s stupidly did is he gave me instead of his picture him holding up his ID by his face he gave me his ID and his social security card and took pictures of that a picture of those two and put it on the screening form now I was able to match everything up and I wouldn’t answer him,

So this is when I was terrorized out of InTown Suites on culebra okay in March So all of a sudden of course he is contacting me when I’m one more time needing rent and ask me what how am I doing and why I haven’t contacted him back about visiting well of course I’m in a desperate state so I say come on in and I’m crying and everything I don’t want to talk but he gives me $90 and $5 bills now this motherfucker has one time before last year I didn’t know what he was giving me but he ended up giving me a signal jammer,

I did the pretenses that it would help with the internet situation Now he tells me he’s a teacher It brings me food because of course I’m going hungry at that time over there at Budget Suites and he says that I can use this He never tells me that a signal jammer is e fucking legal

So he hands me an illegal device It puts it into my hands therefore like setting me up in a way

Not only that but for Valentine’s Day last year he gives me kind of celebrating gifts me a 360 degree webcam as well as an iPad and when I don’t even use Apple or Macintosh products

Now here’s the other click here because I’ve been finding everything I’ve been finding as far as a little bitty files and a little bit of remnants that your computer or your phone leaves like in forensics in other words I’m digging forensics here it’s showing all Apple products alll Linux and all Macintosh products

So when he brings me the $90 that day in March the end of March actually that’s when they started trying to mine warp my my childhood memories okay was in March and that’s when I actually was shown on my desktop that by somebody moving my mouse around that that was actually remote desktop hooked to my computer Of course I’d been finding the RDP as well in my documents the EXE file

So I can front him about it right I mean literally I don’t like asking so you’re stalking my website what’s up

Oh I’m doing I’m just jerking off I said dude like that’s a whole lot more than jerking off That’s a scary motherfucking jerking off right there if you got to jerk off that damn much you really need to get help and get seen at the doctor because you’re jacking off your weiner too much. I mean I mean I know I get it but damn you know and I wouldn’t even come clear up close to him I would not hug him I would not get near him at all well he wouldn’t stop coming to the website like that under Microsoft IPs Now I’ve been able to match these IPs with Ireland with Arizona with Washington every IP that was showing in my cloud security app has been shown in seeing in my other website therefore being able to match those up so I had been I started blocking these IPs on the other website and I have all the audit logs to shove all this by the way and I’m about to put it all together and I’m about to hand it all to the cops because I’ve got machine IDs and I got everything and I’m fucking tired of it because I just had another motherfucker going into another and one of my Google accounts showing Washington listen here we are Washington IP area address with a new user agent browser new IP and of course new location of course all this goes back to Microsoft everything points to Microsoft now

Here’s the other thing when I’ve looked up his IP and I got the coordinates and I got his house because of those coordinates I was able to do a background check on who was listed as that house owner when I background checks him his name is Ivan Duran and he’s Microsoft certified in everything,

It points to Jamie Escobar but here it is we’ve got two other less say for the right way to say it person’s of interest okay that had been involved in this situation for 5 years now

Oh yeah being a developer that’s the reason why they they develop botnets to go through my devices they developed a but that look like that made it look like my Netherlands server okay with the same fucking IP address but that the server had in Netherlands but it was used to do DDOS ATTACKS, I had was collecting analytics and traffic from these googlebots and recently on the trace my IP.org subscription I had and I was catching other IPs that they were coming from So that’s how I caught up and caught on to the development part of it because they were I mean I couldn’t figure it out first I was like what the hell man but that’s how they’ve been doing getting into my phone they’re creating buttons and spreading throughout using Amazon Google and Microsoft IP addresses through UPnPs

Quick log 742 a.m. 10-21-21

Haha holy shit I didn’t know I posted it lol

As if y’all can’t tell these are definitely my quick notes because I’m trying to look it through more stuff and add some more stuff in here this is massive shit that I’ve been finding and I’m trying to get some notes down to go over security issues with everybody anyways this was supposed to be posted right now but it is oh well lol fuck it unfuck it im tired lol. Oh yes and just FYI I am updating the fuck out of this cuz I have a lot to go over that I keep forgetting about security issues and what they’re doing. Don’t judge I’m totally dictating all this as I’m looking through all the logs lol

  • Going through my cloud app security for Microsoft activity log noticed a get entity activity some user 509 e 4652-ca8d – 478 d – 873-0 9 d for a 1996 CA 4 whom I don’t know who that is located in Ireland the group application is internal when connected instance is Azure. From IP address 20.93.89.138 get into teeth Microsoft management resource providers it failed login the IPS Microsoft corporation
  • there are quite a number of get entity search inquiries from Dublin Ireland
  • Going back to the logs on August 11th if it’s same user but IP address was 52.151.204.40 United States and Virginia then it switched over to Dublin Ireland on August 12th.
  • Whoever is logging into my Microsoft account started looking me up in location lookups on August 3rd just to be aware
  • Also it’s been somebody who’s using Microsoft corporation IPS that has been hacking into the WordPress account for MS rogavusa.net
  • On August 8th which is 2 days after Chris left me on the concrete at Starbucks on thousand oaks drive it shows that I’m writing policy assignments and not a succeeded
  • This is when I noticed get entities from 52.151.2 04.40 was getting entities and was failing and that was through cloud
  • . Classified IP address tags is Microsoft azure Virginia United States I see ISP azure
  • August 5th IP address 20.72.133.98 cloud provider app address Microsoft corporation Virginia again get entities is failed
  • Just to speed up the process here July 23rd from IP address 52.151.240.127 again I get into cheese failed this one is at 1:58 p.m. it’s IPS is showing up as category risky
  • The risky category begins July 17th through July 23rd
  • Dating back July 16th IP address is 20.42.34.249
  • I’m thinking I may have found a who’s been trying to log in and hacking a WordPress and doing search inquiries as well as everything else up I’ve been having to deal with
  • 10:59 a.m. description is registered Microsoft guest configuration resource subscriptions at connector United States Azar from IP address 13.78.1 77.160
  • I’m just going to try to make Christmas short and sweet here the logs are all get entities for Microsoft and those are ISP I have a lot of risky IP address logs I’m dating back right now May 4th
  • June 22nd I went into Haven for Hope shelter
  • said through June I was actually going hungry and also having a lot of electronic harassment so I cannot get into my cloud app security
  • and by the way I have not had this subscription in the last 3 months since June I believe when I canceled the business account totally
  • this cloud up security goes with E5 mobility Plus security
  • Also
  • October 16th of 2020 there was a hack and that’s when I had the lifetime members and fall I’ve got those lungs and found those logs here recently showing that
  • While I’m thinking about it I need to go over with everyone what is Google firebase API for developers that allows the drivers to get messaging back and forth from your phone and not give any updates this is how things are being exploited in my device I’m finding a lot of firebase API apks with token permissions with dangerous permissions in my phones
  • Certificates are not good past due of 2018 even though the certificates are showing that they’re good
  • I found a default remote set up in the business account with the wild card astric no name I didn’t set this up
  • I do know I found remote desktop and my computer last year and have screenshots of it
  • I also was had found a video a screenshot video of someone else’s phone in my content folder in my Dropbox put in my folder last year so they were doing that remotely and it looks like the screenshot video is taken by TeamViewer
  • Tonight I noticed well I’ve been noticing but my IP address is showing up with the IPv6 when it should be showing up just a regular I peeing with charter or spectrum Home security IP
  • 12:01 a.m. almost like clockwork which isn’t surprising Tony Roma with the email address t r o m o 77@gmail email me to find out how I was and just wondering if I was still available he does this every time I disappear it’s like clockwork with this dude with them all actually
  • Awesome tonight I log into my secure folder I have screenshots of everything in the secure folder I have two of everything locations with two of everything one secure folder one not
  • I’ve got 3 login alerts from my rights for sex workers@gmail showing Washington State IP so I had to change my password again and again
  • That’s awesome IP address 52.96.178.61 which I already know is Microsoft
  • Just add note I found it kind of funny when I was looking at my show name that under a brand new browser duck duck go on I installed it has my letter to the FBI that I posted yesterday which is hot cuz I didn’t have it under my show name and also has CIA and FBI attached to my show name under search
  • As well as if you search my surname “msrogueofsa” a you’ll see in videos a lot of gross nasty evil looking videos posted under my show name

My Letter To The FBI August 2021

Hello I am a victim of human trafficking and labor tracking and also organized gang stalking, it has progressed over the last four and a half years I have gotten out of the human and labor trafficking I’m a 49 year old woman that is on SSI disabled.
I have made a website to show all the proof of the cyberstalking in cyber harassment I have also gone through satanic ritual abuse which is part of the organized gang stalking. Today I have made my third police report to no avail I need to speak with someone in person to show and to explain all of what has happened to me but you can start by the website that I have made personally myself

https://mylifeasati.code.blog..

In the blog section is nothing but evidence and proof of what I’ve been going through.

I have been able to identify with 200 different men who have been involved with this with all of their aliases that they have gone under. Most of these people are on Kik with the kick groups also they’re on MocoSpace and telegram

I have been studying the way these people are on Kik and I have noticed that about every 6 months it’s like a kind of like a bar crowd situation they change identities every 6 months so they won’t get caught.

I have contacted the mayor three times I have contacted the police I have contacted out of women’s shelter I have contacted and been in Haven for Hope shelter they have sent me death threats every time I turn around they had this has left me homeless I don’t know what to do anymore I need to sit down with someone and speak with y’all personally so that we can go through everything I’ve got.

I have also been under surveillance since looks like back in 2018 I have secret recordings of my phone that I have found in My cloud that I had no idea about until I started finding them.

I am in desperately seeking help I am terrorized tormented and taunted everywhere I go and stalked I have an attorney that’s looking at my case Texas legal services as well. Please contact me

Over the past four and a half years I’ve been able to identify with about 200 different individuals that have been involved in organized gang stalking, their main way to stalk me is cyber stalking and cyber harassment they had done fraudulent charges tonight debit cards, they have broken and entered into my house to destroy my items, I’m underground electronic harassment with science and symptoms of directed energy weapons which is all on the website that I have provided showing proof of everything that I’ve gone not everything cuz I haven’t put it all on there yet but giving you a good idea of what I have undergone and the extensive trauma I am now facing for the rest of my life.

My next step is Homeland security because this is domestic terrorism so if I can’t get any help here I’m going there too cuz I can’t seem to get any help anywhere else and I’m just tired of being stalked I have the right to live in peace and I want to live in peace.

You can contact me either one or the other email

tiredofterrorizedntx@gmail.com

msroguesa@gmail.com

Please do not call my phone because of the harassment I get on the phone you can text my phone though and let me know that this is FBI contacting me there’s too much to get involved in as far as the information I really do have to sit down with someone face to face thank you very much for reading this

Michelle T.

What Turns Sex Work Into Modern Day Slavery

As a victim of human and labor trafficking who has been in the sex work world I want to break down how the misinformation and the misconceptions and the stigma between sex work, the classification of ” whore’s” and the laws going into trafficking come into play all together and what makes it to be considered a part of THE NEW MODERN DAY SLAVERY.

Classifications of Clientele and Sex Workers

Two different kinds of clientele in sex work explained

I was told one time that there were two different kinds of clients when it comes to sex work. You have those that are innocently needing companionship For example one person told me one time that he hadn’t had a hug from anybody but his daughter in six months. And we you know as humans we do need companionship and I honestly feel for these people because I have been one of those people being isolated as much as I was for 4 and 1/2 years, IMPRISONED actually.

Then you have the second kind of clients that take out companionship from sex workers and that’s the predators. Men who have mummy is she with men who are looking to take their anger in their frustrations and their whatever’s out on sex workers.

The classification of “whore’s” explained

So this is what I’ve been taught while doing sex work. Here’s the brass tax of the way men look at women and shooting it straight out bluntly, speaking like a man actually. Hehe

Here it is, ALL women are whore’s in a man’s eyes. Just straight up. What makes the difference is the classification of the “whore” that the individual man sees a woman to be classified as.

The level of respect a man has towards a woman depends on the classification of whore He classifies her as.

For example, My cousin-in-law Made just comment to me one more time many years ago. That she was the highest paid whore around town being that My cousin brought in a bonus of a million dollars that year and his bonus was CAPPED at a million dollars that year.

To go over the The classifications of a whore and the levels of respect a man will give each woman:

  1. The wife is highest classification of whore. And she gets the highest of respect. All men go around on their women. You cannot tell me otherwise, because I know better. I’ve been in sex work I know. But the man knows where his bread is buttered and will come home every time no matter where or who he seeks out.
  2. Then there is the man’s girlfriend, Now this is different from the man’s side bitch. Even if he’s married in the man has the girlfriend This is a different classification then the side bitch. The girlfriend still is respected, UNDER THE UNDERSTANDING THE WIFE COMES FIRST, NO MATTER WHAT.
  3. Next comes the side bitch.
  4. Then you have THE LOWEST OF LOW in a man’s eyes. A sex worker/prostitute/whore

Now even though technically ALL THREE OF THOSE WORDS ARE ACTUALLY THREE DIFFERENT CLASSIFICATIONS. To all men, they are ONE IN THE SAME CLASSIFICATION!

Understanding the classification of “sex workers”

I’ve tried to explain this several times in my blogs on my other website, but of course nothing goes through their heads the people that focus to that website. Think of it like Walmart, ok. Walmart has their shoe department, pharmacy department, auto department, and so forth. It’s different departments but it’s still all under Walmart, right? Ok, so, it’s the same thing when it comes to the classifications of sec workers.

The classifications of the sex workers IS HIGHLY REGULATED AND IS SEPARATED BY THE LAWS!!!! And this is where men get their asses in trouble every time!!!! Each “branch” or “department” of sex work has a different set of laws and regulations.

  • An escort IS A COMPANION STRICTLY FOR COMPANIONSHIP, HUMAN CONNECTION, DATES! And IS LEGAL, UNDER THE GOLDEN RULE THAT MONEY IS NOT TRADED FOR SEX!!! AND THERE HAS BEEN NO AGREEMENT MADE TO PAY FOR ANY SERVICES SEXUALLY. (And yes I have written a blog on the differences on legal dating and illegal prostitution I’ll put that out later)

so that everybody understands what the donation is used for, ITS FOR THE BILLS, NOT SEX!!!! Its strictly FOR THE BILLS THAT COME WITH EVERYTHING! All the programs, advertising, website, security and etc, etc, etc. THAT LIST OF BILLS EASILY CAN GO INTO 3 TO 4 THOUSAND A MONTH AND OVER!!

This is when you were getting into a business formation. Every step of this is legally done just like any other business. You have your logo, your trademark, your copyrights, your advertising is done just like any other business your taxes are done just like any other business and to shoot down any and all on miss about any of any escort that has her brand. YOUR BRAND IS LITERALLY ALL YOU HAVE AND TO TORNISH YOUR BRAND IS ANY BUSINESSES DEATH SENTENCE. There’s not one person that I know her or her would ever guess to put their brand on the line of just to blackmail $50 $100 $200 it’s not even worth the brand The brand in the the work that goes into making that brand into making your name is a lot of work and they would not take their brand and just flush it down the toilet for pennies. In $50 $25 for a deposit may be a lot of money to somebody but to us into our brand it’s nothing compared to what our brand really cost.

Just to throw a lot of these misconceptions out of the window, for real. Also you will never see anyone of this caliber having a pimp because of the business side of things AND THEIR BRAND.

  • A cam girl: is a different branch all together with its different set of laws and regulations as well as ways to do things. This is STRICTLY ONLINE SEX WORK WITH NO FACE TO FACE IN PERSON MEETINGS.

Doing cam work You have to worry about lighting positioning of the cameras You also have to safeguard all of your online work with watermarks. Because all of this is copyrighted and guarded against the DMCA PIRACY LAWS!!!

  • Phone and texting sex worker is a whole other different branch of sex work with a whole different set of laws AND regulations that strictly does the phone. AND ITS NOT AS EASY AS ONE MAY THINK!

For example, I CANNOT TALK THAT WAY! I FREEZE EVERY TIME I TRY TO. I I’ve done a little bit of research on this and there are certain meanings to certain things and certain ways to go and say things and the whole nine yards that’s involved. That I really don’t know too too much about. But IT IS A DIFFERENT CLASSIFICATION.

  • Doing porn movies Again it’s a whole another class of sex work with major major laws and regulations programming the porn industry.

For example, The only two states that there is legal to actually make movies and be paid for the movies itself is California and New Hampshire. In any other state it’s considered to be classified as still having sex for money which is illegal. Complained definition between producer, director, who is the actual creator of the work because it is copyrighted, then you have all these model release forms and you got to worry about posters and workman’s comp insurance as well. And A WHOLE LOT OF DIFFERENT OTHER LAWS. Of course the most important That’s regulated and this part is STD test and condoms.. safety!

Oh and JUST TO BUST EVERYONE’S BUBBLE, HEHE….Them cum shots are NOT cum shots!!! That is more than likely the face wash Cetaphil!!!

Also you have what’s called being 2257 age verification laws. This is highly regulated and it’s history dates back to when Traci Lords was was doing porn and wind she was found out that she was 15 doing filming. So the 2257 law came into affect. You have to show two different identifications and sign a release form in the producer has to keep copies of this matter of fact copies separated from every other copy of every other form the address of where these copies of these documents are kept has to be placed on the websites as well as on the containers of the films are sold in. And at any given time the attorney general can walk in to that address and ask to see those copies of every age verification forms. Or you can go to jail for a long number of years and fined a large amount of money.

Here’s what EVERYONE needs to understand

  • PORN IS SIMPLY HOLLYWOOD NAKED
  • PORN STARS ARE ACTORS and ACTRESSES!!!!!
  • PORN SHOULD NEVER BE BROUGHT INTO REALITY AND CAN BE VERY DANGEROUS IF IT’S DONE SO.

Just like you would not reenact any stuntman work in a regular Hollywood film it’s the same that applies in this situation. THERE IS STUNT WORK DONE IN PORN AND SHOULD NOT TRY TO BE REPLICATED!!!! Bringing any porn into making it into reality could be a matter of life and death if you don’t know what you’re doing!!!

  • Subscriptions/Memberships again it’s a whole other different set of law and regulations

Which I’ve been looking into as well because I’ve been looking into doing this This goes into a whole different other issue that I’m not ready to start explaining yet. So we’ll go on

This is where you’ll see pimps being involved and this is for the Sake of safety. But in reality this is where trafficking com

  • A streetwalker/prostitute This classification of a sex worker is first of all the most dangerous of all. With the least amount of security involved. And it’s also very illegal because this is where they are actually taking money for a trade of sex.

This is where you’ll normally not all the time but most of the time we’ll see a street walker having a pimp for the sake if safety. BUT IN REALITY IN CONSIDERED TO BE TRAFFICKING”

How Fosta/Sesta Laws Turned Sex Workers Into Slaves With No Roghts

On the homepage The very first thing you see is about FOSTA/SESTA and HUMAN and Labor Trafficking. I know I’ve written on this before but it hasn’t been republished and noticed quite yet so I’m going to go ahead and go over this in this blog And I’m going to break this portion down as well. B

The War on Sex Work and Sex Workers

When Trump decided to sign the FOSTA and SESTA Bills into law there were quite a number of people that had impacted this law into play that actually gave a lot of misconceptions and misinformation out there to drive the “War on Sex Work and Sex Workers” into play.

Instead of helping those that are in Sex Work and those LIKE ME THAT ACTUALLY FOUND THEMSELVES TO BE TRAFFICKED IN THE REAL SENSE. These laws caused so much damage. SO MUCH SO THAT IT’S BEYOND WHAT WORDS THAT I CAN FIND TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH DAMAGE IS DONE TO JUST ME ALONE.

Breaking Down The Way Laws Are Written

Over the last four years I have studied quite a bit of law. Everything from adult law, obscenity laws, privacy policies, data website law, domestic violence laws, stalking laws, the laws of RICO, human and civil rights. And the list continues of what I’ve researched. I noticed something about the way the laws were written

There are two different ways that all laws are written

  • They are either VERY vaguely written, so that situations can be “construed” And that is a very important word to understand construed it’s not misconstrued. This allows for loopholes and profiling and such. In the subject matter of FOSTA/SESTA, The Cloud Act, the new laws on financial institutions and sex workers That is bunched up with human trafficking.
  • Secondly you have the laws that are written very detailed out. Take for example the trip house laws and I know I have the link somewhere but my computer is down so it’d be a mess to try to find these links right now, but I will get to them soon and update these for you. But for example on the Texas trap House laws that were passed in 2019. It goes into explicit detail that anybody caught housing any sex workers could lose all their assets and be held liable for human trafficking. And it went into full detail of what “housing” was considered to be. An apartment, a home, a tent, a trailer, a boat, a car.

This “War on Sex Work amd Sex Workers” INSTANTANEOUSLY brought us back to the when Martin Luther King Jr was fighting for civil rights. Instantly exchanging when minority group for another and classifying them as slaves with no rights.

The instant hatred that was/ is seen as a sex worker from those that are not in this world is more than incredible. ITS AWFUL, to say the least. Instantly you had a store owners and workers reserving their right to not sell food, to not sell clothes to anyone they knew that was in sex work. This instantly took away the right to shelter for anyone that was in sex work. These laws instantly took away any rights and/or privileges to having any money with any financial institutions.

During first of the relief funds of COVID-19 For small business owners, sex workers or specifically called out and left out. United States was not the only ones that had specified against does not work considered as sex workers left out of the small business loans of Covid-19 relief.

During a pandemic quarantine, where social distancing with mandated into law, by the way the laws are written, left human beings that do a job that is not seen as legal… Homeless, hungry, with no money nor any rights in danger…. Around the world!!!!!

And here’s the kicker all of this, during quarantine there was such an influx and rise of women who were asking questions about only fans and about selling content and about what to do and how to go about it from single mothers and from even married women who had felt the hardship of the quarantine. Many were turning to a sex work as their last option during this time who were desperately seeking a way to keep their homes and food on the tables and so forth.

And in reality without realizing what they were turning to, we’re voluntarily going from having human and civil rights and privileges to instant slavery

What Is Human and Labor Trafficking & What Makes It “Trafficking”

On the homepage I quoted on what is legally considered to be human trafficking. Again I will the law here:

“Human Trafficking is a crime that involves exploiting a person for labor, services, or commercial sex.

a) Sex trafficking in which a commercial sex act is induced by force, fraud, or coercion, or in which the person induced to perform such act has not attained 18 years of age; or

The Trafficking Victims Protection Act of 2000 and its subsequent reauthorizations define human trafficking as:

b) The recruitment, harboring, transportation, provision, or obtaining of a person for labor or services, through the use of force, fraud, or coercion for the purpose of subjection to involuntary servitude, peonage, debt bondage, or slavery. (22 U.S.C. § 7102(9)). Source: justice.gov/humantrafficking”

But What Does All This REALLY Mean?

Yes I know you’ve read it but what does it mean in layman’s terms to where you can understand it? So let’s break this down:

What is coercion really?

Oh I can give many examples on this one. Smoke a joint, smoke a bolo, do a line, “chill and Netflix”, by a drink, go on a date which doesn’t exist anymore….And I’m just going to put this out of here…. Do anything and EXPECT pussy in return. THAT’S CONSIDERED TO BE COERCION.

And bluntly speaking, from my own experience, getting a girl high is the very first step of trafficking and being trafficked. I’m going to give you an example cuz it happened just recently. This kind of goes in with what I wanted to talk about anyways

This perception that men have towards swx workers. This has happened to me twice, trying to get out of sex work and being traffic… I WAS WORSE TRYING TO GET OUT BEING TRAFFICKED THAN I WAS TRAFFICKED!!!

This instantaneous hate that men have towards women once they learn a she is a sex worker that I talk about “In Retrospect: Through A Whore’s Eyes” trying to get out of sex work because men knew that I had been a sex worker had treated me worse trying to get out of it because they did not get what they were expecting me to give, i was raped abd violated The first time in December. And just 3 weeks ago somebody had met from the shelter when I was there had made plans for another person to traffic me to give me to smoking crack And then to have me fuck the same person that was supposed to get me to smoke crack with him to fuck him in the 7-Eleven parking lot and be passed along with all the homeless guys in the neighborhood. Of which, a vulnerable woman homeless like me any girl would have probably taken a hit I didn’t because I don’t want to be around that shit And I’m refused to have sex just because I was being nice to that person and helping him with his car broke down.

For me it has been the worst experiences ever trying to communicate with any man just to be nice and kind to any man because men take that as a sign of her saying YES…. When I have said nothing of that nature and have actually stated many many times and put it straight up out there nobody is getting any pussy from me at all. But still that’s not heard.

The stigma of once a whore always a whore, and then treating a woman worse than ever before. And I’m talking respectful up until men don’t get what they want. That’s exactly when that becomes coercion.

In short, one word…CONSENT!!!!

free will and choice without drugs, alcohol, fear of any kind, manipulation, confusion, and to directly specify… anything that is “mind-altering” that would change a person’s free will and choice!

What does fraud really mean in human trafficking?

Here’s another I can go on forever and a day about. FRAUD… WHAT IS FRAUD?

Well, that that list of 14, 18 and 20 different aliases that I’ve busted many going by. That would posing as a woman Providers trying to ‘wiggle” their way into a hold of the blacklist to see who is blacklisted.

That would mean anything like what i have experienced many times….being baited. So all “bait and switches” or acting like your just meeting and then later saying clue key words to let the person know that you knew them. Yes THAT’S BOTH COERCION AND FRAUD!

Anything that is of the intent of not being truthful that is in the intent to mislead, to give misinformation to is considered to be FRAUD

What Does The Average Everyday Traffiicker Look Like???

Ya know, in MY mind’s eye when I hear of “Trafficking” I instantly envision lots of people in truck or something being brought across the border. But that’s NOT the average everyday trafficker. I hate to break it to everyone, but the average everyday trafficker is YOUR HUSBAND’S, YOUR BOYFRIENDS YOUR NEXT DOOR NEIGHBORS, Just your normal average everyday person.

Who aids in Making Modern Day Slavery

YOU!!! THE PERSON PASSING JUDGEMENT, THE PERSON WHO REFUSES SERVICE IS BUYING BRAS AND PANTIES, CLOTHES, FOOD, The person passing judgement, the person who refuses service in buying bras and panties ( YES it REALLY HAPPENED), clothes, food and shelter.

The person that believes a whore doesn’t deserve to be treated as an equal. I’ve seen and been a victim of BLACKS WHO SCREAM OUT ABOUT GEORGE FLOYD AND HUMAN RIGHTS TURN RUGHT AROUND AND DO THE VILE HORRIFYING THINGS TO ME AS THEY WERE SCREAMING OUT AND PROTESTING AGAINST GEORGE FLOYD!!!!

The Desperate Need For “Decriminalization” NOT “Legalization”

The way these laws are written as I’ve shown instantly turned those considered to be in sex work as instant slaves with no rights.

There was NO reform, NO exit strategy, there was NO support of any kind to help those in sex work to be able to get out BY SAFELY DOING SO! THE LAWS NEED TO BE CHANGED TO ALLOW IN TRANSITION OUT OF SEX WORK AS WELL AS HELPING TO AID IN THIS TRANSITION!!!

Also, the porn/sex industry IS THE MOST REGULATED INDUSTRY THERE IS! ….. But has absolutely NO regulations of safety and protection to those in this industry!!!

And it’s because of these “LOOPHOLES” in the laws and regulations THAT ALLOW PREDATORS TO COME INTO THIS COMMUNITY AND FIND THEIR PREY TO ABUSE,

THESE LOOPHOLES ALLOW FOR THR MASSIVE EXPLOITATION THAT I MYSELF HAVE EXPERIENCED

THESE LOOPHOLES ALLOW (and more or less CONTRIBUTE as well as GIVE THE PREDATORS A FULL GREEN LIGHT PERMISSION, TO HUMAN TRAFFICK

Innocent women who like me, have no idea what’s going on. AND LIKE ME, HAD NO SAFETY ZONE, BEING EXPLOITED, FORCED INTO ISOLATION, TERRORIZED, TAUNTED, PUT UNDER 24/7 SURVEILLANCE FOR YEARS AND PUT INTO MASSIVE FEAR OF ANY AUTHORITVE FIGURE AND BE KEPT IN FEAR TO NOT SPEAK UP AND TURN THEM IN!!!

I WILL BE PUSHING TO CHANGE THESE LAWS OUT OF MY STORY, JUST FYI!!!!

Just As An End Note….

Those I have listed as “Perp’s Identified” ARE VERY DANGEROUS PREDATORS!!! MOST Are blacklisted for rape, stalking, using chloroform, beating, blackmail and many other different horrendous acts! That continually get away with these acts. They need to be stopped. They met their match AND THEN SOME, when they took my life away from me.

In Retrospect: Through A Whore’s Eyes

Monday, December 14, 2020
2:39 PM

For any woman who is going through tough times,

With being in covid-19 times now

Having the thoughts of “I’ll do it for a little while”

DON’T DO IT

You learn quick a man’s transformation. Its instantaneous, the change in eyes…not even known to them.,

In the World, The Stigma Once A Whore sticks…

Programs like Swop fight for a whores rights but here’s what I have learned

To be a whore, you can’t call to any Christian Spiritually, I personally had been mocked as Mary Magdalene…Jesus’ whore wife, being crowned like Jesus as King of Nazareth. The crowned of the best and legendary. Just like Jesus I was made an example out of in front of God and all.

Looking back the significance of the events I’ve gone through. The mocking, the ridicule after years of trying to fight it. I can tell you, the hard headedness of the hard of the headedness I have been…you can fight that fight like I have…

THIS I WILL TELL YOU, YOU ARE FORCED TO SUCCUMB TO THE PITS OF THE HELL YOU WALKED INTO

The transformation in a man, its unknown change. The primal in the male species. Their eyes change, the pupils get smaller as their eyes narrow down.

For a woman we instantly learn to value and worth in our bodies. Your whole life changes, even afterwards.

The man transforms from respect of a woman to instant hatred.

In a man’s eye, paying with money…he then owns you. He becomes rough and fucks you so hard that leaves you doubled over in pain. The feelings of disgrace and the humiliation behind the acts taken place.

A woman learns quick to value her body and to keep her worth. Its turns into being the most sacred of everything with all being stripped away. The only thing your left is grasping tight and fighting for your self-worth. And you’ll fight to the death to keep your self-worth.

Thinking you’re going to get out, think again. By the instant change in male species, they’ll keep in the hell, stealing from you, not paying you, keeping you down …just to call you a whore… keeping you a whore to call you a whore.

Having an exit strategy. If you can…but that to…it seems nonexistent.

Whatever that is gained while in this life, cause you out, you end up letting a go just to get out.

If you find you come to being a whore with only the clothes on your back, you’ll leave with less!

The support from friends and/or family who supported you throughout…you’ll find that they to without ever realizing the change that happen within you inside ..nor do they realize nor can comprehend the transformation that happened upon hearing you become a whore
You may walk into this world as a proud slut ..you will leave as a disgrace worthless whore.

Believe me when I say you can fight the hardest fight to grasp everything you find yourself losing. You WILL be stripped of everything …. DESENSITIZED AND DEHUMANIZED.

The changes, you don’t realize what’s going on, why it’s happening, why such vile mannerisms you face.

Your pride, your grace you had before, respect, your memories of life before becoming a whore…no longer exist, your stripped of all identity of ever having any life before, before being a whore.

All every aspect of mind body and soul…emotions, memories you try to hold on to, slip away suddenly feeling as if you have an early set of dementia

Your whole self is stripped and taken away from you and your life.

And even the last thing you to hold to of your is your own self-worth and value…and choosing the lesser of a the viles..

That too is stripped from you…stuck wearing that scarlet letter of “W” the rest of your life.
So for any woman who thinks like i did, just a few mths to get on my feet…three almost four years at that whipping pole later…out of the regrets in my life…this message i have for a women

If you want any and all that is sacred to you and choice this world I warn you. I wish I had to God I had known what I know now.

This world the most respectable of men you may know…once the foot is entered into this world…they change they don’t even know the change that took place, and you can’t ever explain, it will never be understood or grasped.

Out of all my hardest lessons.in my life ..it’s too late for me. I now wear the scarlet letter. With the only choice left is forcing myself to pretend to be a proud whore for the rest of my life.

I was the innocent of innocence coming into this i was i had an experienced whore to write these words i write now to make sure you are aware of the choices you are making before you make it.

Written by …i don’t know ..i don’t have an identity…i don’t want to claim my whore name anymore…and my identity has been stolen so much…so i don’t even know how to sign this as

Ps. maybe I’m just the example made out of it And it might not be so bad for you

But know this…..
I wasn’t the first and i won’t be the last



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Sending out a PSA

Just because I know that a lot of these haven’t gotten out of what I’m publishing because I’m putting a lot of this as pages instead of blogs. I have made a page that is the blog table of contents I’m also working on a second blog table of contents by the time I’m done there probably be about 4 or 5 table of contents pages or more because I have so many writings and so much that is not known.

I’m doing it like this because in order to get the feel of everything that needs the way it needs to be put off and put out for the person in the reader to understand exactly what I’ve going through and what does happen and what can happen and to be aware of it needs to be all put on one page or all and you know so you can see it all at one time doing it blog by blog you’re not going to see it like it needs to be seen. And it’s really important that it’s seen like it needs to be because the way they do things is it hits you all at one time to where you don’t notice what’s all going on it’s causing a mass confusion which is the evil that they do and keeps you in a fit of massive stress which is the breakdown of the body and mind. I said it’s really important that I try to get it across as that’s if I can to the way they really do things.

So I was wanting to let everybody know that I am putting all this out in a lot of it in pages instead of blogs. So those that are subscribed to my blog don’t know that im putting All of these things out in pages on you’re not getting the notifications and I know it.

I also put up another page PDF resource links I’m not done with that either I’m trying to get that page kind of right I’m not liking it right now how it’s doing but I have a lot of PDFs that I’ve grabbed over time and kept that are really really really good things to go read and look over there’s a lot of truth in what I have kept in and putting out there. FBI, CIA , about satanic ritual abuse, I have found some classified manuals along the ways as well did that going to be putting out there.

I’ve also got another two pages worth of resource links I’ve had Eric Kalstrom Email me twice with resources that respectfully needs to go up. So I’m gathering alot of things up that I’ll be putting up there for everybody there is a lot of information that I’m going to be throwing out there I’m just trying to get it all together so that it can be understood lol it’s hard to do so just please bear with me but I wanted to put this mass PSA out for everyone.

Please stay safe everyone and be blessed. Much love

Michelle

PS I know that this is not punctuated etc I’m dictating this lol so this is just a quick note for everyone.

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Talking to a friend about the truth

Since I can’t talk about it often I show it and screenshots because I can’t what I’m going through is been so nightmarish that well the screenshots explain it all because i still cant talk about it all what ive gone through. So here it is explained in these

The kidnapping threat, Been under surveillance watched 24/7 for 3 years, death threats waking up to my door opened at 4:00 in the morning and don’t know how, Be made to rape my own mouth, stripped clothes off my back all of them, Sent to a trap house with no water and five rats one of them is big as a cat all the windows broken psychologically telling me I was a whore that don’t deserve a whore bath, The 214 different location lookups using my own Microsoft home account from November 14th to December 3rd when I was in Natchez Mississippi December 2nd, That person started using and looking me up again on August 3rd, Been left on the concrete at Starbucks all along after training me to be homeless on the streets, All of it is right here well not all of it but a good portion of it

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