All these people that I’m about to identify probably has at one point or time or another has exploited me, used me as prey, to bait me and then later say keywords to let me know that they already knew me that they were part of this.

As a whole, like all the kik contacts, you can look at the names, and you can tell who is whose known for what or who identifies with what.

Remember, All this is done in code. For example doc Holiday bought my content $10 with content last year just to because they’re holding my finances they’re controlling everything about my finances, so they know when I don’t have cigarettes or don’t have food, and they know when I’m going to go across the street to the store, so doc holiday went and bought $10 but the content and made it custom content to drive me insane and get me upset and went to the store long enough for somebody who was maintenance to come in and break in my home, and then he wants his money back You see just long enough for me to to get me out of the house. You’re baited. ITS NOTHING BUT TRAPS ALL THE TIME

Another example is when a person will be on that life as a female and turn around to be a male a lot of times you’ll think they’re a female or a male, and they’re not it’s betting and switching and a lot of ghosting and a lot of catfishing and they they’re playgrounds are on mostly on moco space, kik and kik groups telegram our home2 and eccie Tumblr and Twitter don’t forget them either

https://gofund.me/5b1fb30b

I just so happened to check my Twitter yesterday and saw this in my notifications and couldn’t help myself, I had to just tell it like it was to KENS5 News!!

Of course I’m documenting the GoFund Me and just posted it on Twitter

….annnnd the taunting starts again . Remember I HAVE NEVER OWNED AN APPLE, IPHONE OR MAC…THIS IS NOT MY CHARGES THEY ARE FRAUDULENT CHARGERS I CAN NOT STOP BECAUSE I NEED MY CARD AND DONT HAVE AN ADDRESS TO HAVE ANOTHER ONE SENT TO ME

And I think it’s kinda funny as in “fishy” that this “Matthew” sends me money talking sex shit to get ME in trouble with Cash App who I blocked and reported, btw and then “Matthew” who is one that’s on my list that I’m about to put out, three blogs..so far “indentified Perps w aliases 1,2 and 3″…I’ll have at least 10 of those blogs identifying everyone by the time I’m done with those, that contacts me RIGHT AFTER the cash app deal…Chris and I figured out…they are using the cash app thing and hacking into devices to pay for games they play. Interesting shit huh, to pay for the games BY BITCOINS! BELIEVE ME I DO HAVE ALOT TO TELL. Just trying to get it all written down!

Monday March 1, 2021 9:59 pm

….in no specific order,just notes that i know i need to jot down just as they come to me.

… those that are still blinded with the veil will be the first to go.”

Those that still have BLIND FAITH IN “OUR” GOVERNMENT..

Its fact that CDC, WHO, FAUCCUI, Abortion clinics, the masons, are all apart of this.

The covid testing is a ploy get everyone’s DNA.

The covid vaccines. . people just standing in line, can’t wait to go kill themselves and offer themselves up to the devil on a silver platter.

On the news twice…”moving on with the MASTER PLAN'”…amd faucci is pushing vaccines with lesser amumity.

The abortion clinics have been used for sacrifices of children to the devil.

Here it is, just as planned because humans are so predictable they rolled out the vaccines with higher immunity. And because of this “mad rush” to go save our lives, we begin to tune out WHAT’S BEING SAID….IN BETWEEN THE LINES.

FAUCCI Saying. Go get it “some immunity is better than none” ok then

But i warn you. .here is what has been done to me. .

“Rise and Grind”

Yes everyone will say they are Christian and that they believe in God ..umm but which God/god do YOU REALLY THINK THEY ARE SAYING THEY BELIEVE IN. BETTER BE CAREFUL. ITS NOT GOING TO BE THE SAME GOD.

Ive personally noticed with talking to others as well as my friends that are “Gifted from God Above”…all of us seem to be being targeted, constantly attacked, losing our lives, hearing noises and voices, fighting hunger and homelessness.

And “this” it hasn’t even begun yet, like talking about. The devil will go to ANY AND ALL means to silence those of us that are doing God Above’s Job. TO SILENCE WHAT WE KNOW.

The book Diary of Anne Frank is coming to my mind again. Ive mentioned this book once before in my writings.. even stated this “remember where 2 or more are gathered you are in chuch. In the Temple of Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour!!!

There is no freedom of religion. You will have to just as crafty, actually even more craftier than the evil ones to be in worship in Jesus Christ. Don’t speak… DON’T SPEAK… DON’T SPEAK OUT LOUD, DON’T EVEN SPEAK SILENTLY MOVING YOUR LIPS. THEY WILL BE HEARD AND READ. EVEN YOUR THOUGHTS ARE NOT SAFE.

BE CAREFUL…DO NOT AND I REPEAT DO NOT LET YOUR FAITH ANF CONVICTIONS IN JESUS CHRIST OUR SAVIOUR BE ROCKED, SHAKEN NOR SHATTERED…NO MATTER WHAT, and i feel i need to repeat that…NO MATTER WHAT…HORRIRENDOUS, HORRIFIC THINGS THAT MAY BE DONE TO US. . KEEP IN THE LIGHT AND YOUR FAITH…NO MATTER WHAT.

also literally everything has hidden messages and meanings and agendas. Nothing…. absolutely nothing is as it seems or is made out to be.


I also feel the need to note… this isn’t coming from paranoia either…i know “they” watch me so damn closely…the more they realize that i know or the messages that i review from above, the more i “discern”. .the more danger that I’m in. Its gotten to the point that i now fear for my life silently everyday..all the time now. I never know who is who and just what people’s TRUE ulterior motive REALLY IS. THIS IS WHY I STAY TO MYSELF, trying to stay quiet and hidden as much as possible. Though i may be “out of sight”….I KNOW THAT THEY HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN ABOUT ME! I’ve noticed that it “unnerves ‘them’ in my silence” it irks the crap out of them that im in silence. THEY JUST HAVE TO KNOW WHAT IM UP TO.

ohhh. Meaning . Ummm sentences say something else. Logos, anagrams, synonyms, names, languages, trademarks, they all have hidden codes and meaning, numbers, the placing of the numbers, and letters, the spaces, the punctuation, the handles of names that people go by represent themselves…and their demon form. They all say something do different than what you are reading and or thinking.

Its all apart of “programming,”mind control” hypnosis, confusion, also ” mind black outs”

If anyone still thinks tnis is about what’s “going on with me” you aee so damn blinded! Take for example “fake news” thats the whole purpose behind of all that. That is so planned! Its to get “us” to the point that im at. I don’t know who is who anymore. You begin to not know what is real and what is not. . what is truth and what is not.

Instructions and ways to dehumanize a human 11-19-19

Instructions and Ways To Dehumanize A Human
Leave a Comment / Uncategorized / By MsRogueofSA / January 11, 2020

Ok So lets try it this way, since it wont work any other way I’ve tried, over a span of time doing these things on a constant basis, especially when the person that is being dehumanized is dealing with ALOT of people, you will successfully dehumanize them.

keep the person in a “cage” never allowing that person to go anywhere, never offering to take them anywhere. (make sure the cage, is “comfortable” to live in
keeping them all alone,
leave them to their mind only
never touching the person
keep as much stress on them as you can possibly think of putting on them
always think of yourself when it comes to sex,
dont ever think about even “TRYING” to get them to orgasm
make sure to always leave that person your drama and stress
make sure to tell them how to live, how to dress, how to run their business, how to do everything
never thinking of that persons schedule
putting as much work on them so that theres just never any time to sleep, eat or anything
make sure to fuck up EVERYTHING to whrere that person is always cleaning up after others
give that person totally impossible tasks that can not ever be possibly completed
make them work all for nothing just to run in circle doing the impossible task that you gave that person all to tell them “that you lost interest” then laugh at them.
constantly make them beg, grovel and disgrace them in public for basic needs in life, food, housing
forget then need doctor care
steal their dentures from them
tell them they are not worth “$500 dinner date cuz they dont have teeth” after stealing their dentures
make sure to take away all the resources away from them to where they cant get new teeth
go on all their social media and profiles to disgrace them making comments on their profiles
make sure to keep them over stressed, over worked and over depressed
tell them they are crazy all the time and need to go get help, make sure that they don’t have any resources to get that help
always focus on their weaknesses
expect them to do things that’s not natural for them to do
never encouraging their strong suits
telling them that they were ALWAYS that way (depressed etc)
make sure theres nothing positive that they can look forward to
say your sorry but never mean it
telling them that you feel sorry for them
take everything away from them, steal everything they have, even make sure that they lose their “cage” also
always finding some kind of fault in them (“you were probably always that way anyways”)
always giving them false hope ….
then pull out that false hope right from underneath them leaving them with no hope at all
brainwash them into thinking that this is the way they should feel (ie: telling them they are special and beautiful but continuing to dehumaninze them)
invade their personal space and violate them by using astral projection and doing things in their home that makes them go crazy all the time (ie: take their cigerettes and put them back 24 hrs later, move their items, desecrete their belongings, take things out of their safe and put it right at their feet, make them go crazy in their cage)
take away EVERY safe space they have to go to
never be kind or nice to them
twist things to your advantage
stripe away every bit of their dignity and pride
never be pleased no matter what they do (make them spend money on trying to please you, make them foot the bill, and then turn around and want something else after the accomplish it
expect everything to be free, cuz you make the person pay for it
give her attention by laying on the bed and dont move or touch the person and expect your dick to be sucked great and never moan once
have all your fantasies fulfilled, and never once even consider anything to do with that person
never consider anything that person may think want or feel,
then out of the blue, act like you are considering anything to do with that person
always expect them to be happy and upbeat but never give that person something to be happy about
get them to the point of being scared and jumpy all the time and then tell them theres no reason to be scared or jumpy
never acknowledge their feelings or validating them
when that person is in a break down, tell them that they do need to go to the hospital to get help
i guarantee that you get some of your buddies together and make sure that you do all these things each one of you taking turns on doing all these things over a period of a year, even better 2 to 3 year span of time, YOU WILL STRIPE EVERY BIT OF ANYTHING FROM THEM….you will successfully dehumanize that person so much so that they are gonna have nothing to look forward but death!!!
GUARANTEED!!
SEE IVE ALREADY BEEN THRU THE COUNSLER, THESE ARE THE SIGNS OF PREDATORS AND ABUSERS, THESE SIGNS ARE THE BASIC SIGNS OF BEING ABUSED, AND CONSIDERING IVE BEEN ABUSED QUIET OFTEN IN MY LIFE IVE ALWAYS HAD THE COUNSLING, I ALREADY KNOW THE SIGNS,

I’m compelled to dictate to write as hard as it is and as much as it hurts I’m still compelled I have to put this down.

Story after story after story it’s all the same. One after the other after the other after the other trafficking stalking the electronic harassment the videos the cameras the tapings see everybody’s been in everybody’s phone, hacking everybody’s phone in everybody’s privacy. there is no privacy.

As much as it hurts when I open up about being trafficked I’m hearing, people begging begging to tell me their truth. I got people pleading with me to listen to their story about their wife their girlfriend their kids.

How one girl got picked up in a van drugged and kept for 2 weeks and how she escaped. How one husband is looking for his wife hoe his wife got beat raped by the cops no less No doubt.

I know I’m not supposed to speak this I know that if I do by contract they can kick me out but you know what I don’t care this needs to get out and be known. This fucking shit is shady as fuck making money profiting off homeless profiting off of trafficked victims profiting off of our hurt and our pain profiting off of our trauma, not just mine every one of these people that I’m in this shelter with.

Haven for Hope when you walk in there you got all these hopes up of getting your dreams back of getting your life back but you know what they do? what they call Life blocking you. Yes you’ve heard me right it ain’t cock blocking this shit is LIFE BLOCKING,! You quickly learn this shit is Haven for death. Not Haven for hope. Old people young people, all alike volunteering ourselves to a prison like hotel California when you check in you can leave but you can’t ever check out. They put you in that system and they got you by the balls they make money off of you. Everybody and I mean everybody first week …second week no more all your shit stolen, gone. Programming you and don’t even realize dehumanizing you not even realizing desensitizing you not even realizing. This shit ain’t even three hots in a fucking cot this is three hots and a fucking piece of concrete on a hot Summer’s Day. Controlling… programming. .. controlling your intake of water our basic human need, WATER!

One person two person three, to keep counting you’ll be there forever and a day. same story one after the other. No ID, no birth certificate no social security card no phone. Why you ask or how???? Well they got this sign on these walls that say if you leave your shit they will take it from you. to keep your stuff on you at all times but you know when you carrying around three and four bags of heavy stuff especially an old person you don’t go just take this shit that a person has tried to gain and throw it away. Just to keep somebody down you know it’s bad enough you got thieves around you and you sleeping in a thieves den. But you know it’s another thing with the staff has an excuse keep holding you down. I mean you know technically it’s not stealing because of their quote unquote tons of use hanging up on the walls with this sign but still like it is steaming stealing your your clothes your life stealing it’s stealing, its thieves in a thieves den.

Water fountains all taped up shut down get water with your meals oh and at 3:00 maybe. Hey you might get a treat like yesterday Chick-fil-A. Thank you Chick-fil-A for that meal you sent us. It was a great break in the monotony in the system at that meal we all appreciate it and wanted to say thank you. Especially because the day before I felt like I was in dirt which concrete actually I felt like I was becoming a part of that concrete and then at lunch they served culach or would be called slop, ground up taco shells and some fucking I don’t know what you would call it. it made me sick because it’s triggering me.

Let’s talk mind warping and triggering while we’re at it. Been on the concrete from 5:00 a.m. to 8:00 p.m. everyday. We only get two sheets one for the bed and one from top of us we can’t even get a blanket because why it’s summertime. Dude I met in there that I started dating he’s got a twin brother that died all he had left was his memories. You know playing batman and Superman and you know all that good stuff the kids do when their kids playing with sheets. He told me yesterday they’re gone now all he has left in memory is sheets and concrete.

Told you I didn’t care whether I got kicked out of that program or not. good go right ahead kick me out of the system I want you to please do cuz I don’t want to be stuck in this fucking chainless slave programming shit you done put me in. I speak the truth! truth needs to be known and I don’t care what I have to do to get it out there. I got videos and I got pictures and I got plenty of stories i just never have enough time.

See I get paid on the 30th this month there is no excuse no reason why I should not have a roof over my head or an apartment a home I don’t care what just not a motel. I am not in this program for any other reason for the home and out of trafficking. But I feel like I done traded one trafficking for the other.

My empath self hurts so fucking bad. As I hear one by one two by two three by three story after story

Hey man did you know they’re putting cameras in light bulbs in the lamps in the hotels now with chips. Yeah don’t forget to look at those coat hangers that’s hanging up in the motels too. That kind of surprised me when I heard that today but anyway it didn’t but yeah they’re getting craftier. We already know about the two-way mirrors and the TVs and you know need to check yourself and make sure check any and everywhere you fucking go because it’s all around, Big brother. Got to watch that one fucking fake eye on you.

You know this gang stalking it ain’t just dance citizen my fellow fucking people who have the same human rights I’m supposed to or that we all are supposed to a privacy right you know, because it goes so much further up or actually down I think I want to say cuz shit goes downhill in politics that’s all this shit is, is politics. Politics sold us to fuck out no doubt they starting this fucking homeless program about you can’t be outside in the tent and shit like that no motherfucker you are forcing this fucking programming while lying to the saying you going to help us numb motherfuckers nah you got the wrong bitch man you got the one bitch. It aint nuttin but Got damn fucking programming that’s all you doing.

You know right now I don’t know if I’m spitting as far as fucking freestyling or spitting as far as dictating to write but I’m going to tell you what it’s fucking real. This shit ain’t no joking it ain’t just about me open your eyes wide motherfuckers look around and see.

Another example for you somebody in this fucking shelter it’s got a Brian’s Berry or a blackberry some military grade hacking shit. I mean what the fuck are you going to do there’s nothing to stop the fools. Not a goddamn thing that me or you can do leave your fucking guns and your ammo at home there ain’t no reason to carry dead weight that’s false fucking sense of security when it’s at the air and the airwaves.

Truth is ugly truth hurts truth is raw there’s no Mask no cover up, that’s not me I’m not about it.

I think I’m going to be about it about it though, cuz I’m about the people I’m about me I’m about you im about real. From the very get-go i made it known

You follow society you fall with society

Open Your Eyes WIDE, put toothpicks in your motherfucking eyelids and keep them motherfucking bitches open because you need to. Because of big brother there’s not a one mother fucking person I can go to to help the situation not at all not one of us not up to the president man family got the mayor I mean it’s just like the fuck you go to we stuck we caged this world during covid became a dungeon one huge ball of a dungeon concrete and dirt ground and getting fed with slop. If you still middle class you won’t be long you’ll be down here with the rest of us it’s only a matter of time prepare yourself that’s why I’m speaking this truth. To bring you awareness to bring you some kind of time for you to get your shit ready because it’s coming for you it’s like it came for the rest of us.

I got so much more to say, but yet again when am I going to say that I haven’t already said….

One by one two by two even three by three I hear story after story it’s all the same each person has a little tweak in their story to make it their story but it’s all the same government is doing the trafficking the government is fucking doing this fucking bullshit ass programming and dehumanizing and desensitizing and fucking heads to God damn government man is fucking sickening.

Its like Disturbed down with The sickness yeah buddy that’s all I’m going to say hell that’s all I can say yeah buddy down with the sickness that ain’t no lie too. Lol smh daymn it man

With all the love of my heart try your best to take care of you and your loved ones even your neighbors and stop hating stop fucking judging stop this bullshit because you know what we’re going to have to turn to each other and we’re going to have to fucking put ourselves together to win this to fight this to fucking trying to survive this stop your fucking hating and stop talking can’t judge when we all the way down on the ground on concrete bitches. And that’s fucking real talk there.

Peace out

MsRogueSA

5:46 p.m. July 21st

I think I’d rather go back to being trafficked, haven for hope is a lie, it’s haven for death…. the programing there’s a great older man in his 80s …man the first week…2nd week you are here they steal everything you have , your clothes that are memories of your life out there…it happens to everyone in here, everyone new that comes in…this old man, man he was a character, a joker, full of life…they took his clothes and money and Cigarettes now…you can see just lifeless programmed like the rest of us here…thirsting and hot, lifeless because of the heat

Concrete from 5 am to 8 pm everyday separating the girls from the boys, NO PUBLIC DISPLAY OF ANY KIND OF AFFECTION OR PUNISHED. NONE NOT EVEN TO HELP ME WHEN MY BACK IS BAD, punished…put outside in the heat for 2 hrs..or like when I was holding my loves hand..told 4 hrs..after the first heat stroke…YOU FUCKING COMPLY …FORCED WILLFULL COMPLIANCE..NO TOUCH TORTURE TECHNIQUES…NO SHOW OF THE TORTURE NO BRUISES NO VOICE NO NOTHING BREAKING YOU BREAING YOUR SPIRIT DEHUMANIZING AND DESENSITIZING YOU

TALK ABOUT PROGRAMMING CHAINLESS SLAVES

I wake up today in the dirt with the bugs, being dirt being the bug the insect, in the heat guarding what little bit I have gain again with my life…

The orideance Texas just put into mandate can’t be homeless outside….

Just forcing more people with human life to be chainless slaves

Controlling intake of liquids my mouth is tore up from being so dry it’s swollen my tongue the taste buds are swollen they keep us in the heat, control the water intake, all the water fountains taped up not working at all

I can’t get perioxode or warm saltwater to heal my mouth, I’m woke but dead at the same time cameras everywhere guards with guns ITS A PRISON…..THAT YOU VOLUNTEERED YOURSELF TO BE IN

I was a fool to think…I was getting help…THATS WHY TRISTEN WOULD ENCOURAGE

THEY WANTED ME IN THE SYSTEM… BECAUSE THE SYSTEM YOUR STILL TRAPPED

TRADING ONE TRAFFICKING FOR THE OTHER…ITS LINE YEAAA I QUIT THE HEROIN, BUT HAND ME THAT CRACK PIPE, AND ILL BE JUST FINE…IM CLEAN FROM THAT “BROWN” SHIT…

Anytime you try to buck the system, a woman screaming the other night in the dorm….ALL I WANT IS FUCKING WATER, I JUST WANT SOME FUCKING WATER” the cops come in and she gets thrown out JUST BECAUSE SHE WANTED WATER PASSED MIDNIGHT AND IF SHE DID GET ANY… WANTING MORE THAN ONE CUP…will get you kicked out too ….IF YOU BUCK THE SYSTEM…

how with some many crazy people around do guards walk around WITH LOADED GUNS….WHY DO THEY NOT FEAR THE CRAZY MOTHERFUCKERS AROUND HERE

ILL TELL YOU WHY ..THE PROGRAMMING…THEY DO NOT FEAR THE CHAIN LESS SLAVES …

WHOA!!! THINK ABOUT IT ..JUST BY THE GUN…THEY KEEP US IN FEAR

POWERFUL FUCKING SHIT YOU SEE..KEEPING US IN CHECK…

THIS IS WORLDWIDE

AS I AM WOKE BUT YET DEAD AT THE SAME TIME

I find myself one more time in my head as if I got an early onset of demitia HELP ME HELP ME GOD PLEASE HELP ME

That’s all you have left is God when the government is Satanw…i knew 9n that first day here when I said oh my god what have I done ? I have fought so more much spiritual warfare and I came in and just handed Satan my soul

I scream out in my head I’m sorry Jesus I’m sorry I didn’t forsake you I never denounced you. Please forgive this trap I didn’t know that I fell in

That’s why these trafficking mfers and cartel don’t fear the evidence anyone has…when you bring the evidence even to the president…it goes all the way up the food chain

THIS SHIT IS SO FUCKING MASSIVE AND I SEE IT BUT REALLY WHAT’S THE USEIN BEING WOKE WHEN YOU CANT DO NOTHING ABOUT IT..SO THERFORE YOU JUST CLOSE YOUR EYES AGAIN

The devil has your soul no matter what… AND I FUCKING UNKNOWINGLY VOLUNTEER MY SOUL AS A NUMBER…PLEASE FOR THOSE OUTSIDE THIS IS YOUR WARNING ….DONT COME IN …HOTEL CALIFORNIA

They let you leave for a little while. BUT ……

“Be still and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10

Psalm 46:10, is a popular verse for comforting ourselves and others—many people tend to think this verse means to rest or relax in who God is. This verse does encourage believers to reflect on who God is, but there is more to this psalm than one verse—and verse 10 is actually more of a wake-up call to be in awe than a gentle call to rest. Taking time out of our day to meditate on Scripture and be silent with listening ears toward God is mentioned in ß,⁰ⁿ mind. Resource: https://crosswalk.com

Knowing that you are a chosen one, you come across many things at the right time. You come across many words spoken by others. Words that confirmed what you already know. We ARE gathering, we ARE crossing paths and we know without question what we are there for, in that moment as fleeting as it is. Tonight was one of those nights.

Here lately I’ve been having this uncontrollable urge of making sure my feet and my hands have been I want to say splashed with water. This is not the coronavirus wash your hands sanitize your hands take away all the good bacteria ritual that is an occult ritual. I’m talking about the days of Jesus. Basically just taking bottled water and splashing my feet and my hands tonight I had to splash my face as well. It’s more to cleanse and purify.

So it’s 2:32 a.m. on July 18th 2021, I’m sitting at a park in black darkness next to Haven for Hope shelter for the homeless. I’ve had two wonderful days with someone I’ve met in the shelter that I quickly grown to love. I’ve been writing so many different blogs there’s so much to tell and I did not ever have the time. I never had about 70 blogs in drafts between this site and my main site. There’s such urgency in the information, but yet it’s not time. So as I’m called to each one of those drafts, little by little I’m finishing them.

So to explain the screenshots. Two nights I rented a room. I find myself having to try to get a room at least once a week to try to keep myself grounded and not conditioned. The homeless shelter you get up at 5:00 a.m. and from 5:00 a.m. to 8:00 p.m. you’re on the concrete in the heat outside. So I invited this person to come with me and we had two wonderful great days together even though on the second day we were tested and tried with the bus system and taking all over the place to waste time so that things didn’t get done like me going to the storage building and getting all that taken care of. We would find ourselves on the middle of the interstate somewhere trying to get 2 days available and not in the right direction and in the heat. Even throughout frustrations it was okay because we still got there I still went to the storage and did but I needed to do and lives out of there by the time 10:30 came the past curfew time in the shelter. City from this little spot in the middle of everywhere but quiet and peaceful in between some trees, and it is all of them great peaceful loving fun adventurous and exciting. We go to the shelter today and it’s like everybody’s going edge and you know after all the walking and stuff I’ve done with carrying so many bags and I just been tested with my back these last few days I know it’s going to happen, my back went out. And I mean it just seems like everybody’s working against us. I go to ask for ice to put on my bag to come the swelling so that I don’t get any worse the workers tell me we don’t have ice and then tell me to go to the doctor everything could have been prevented and I would have been fine within 15 to 30 minutes had I simply just had ice… frozen water… THAT’S IT JUST FROZEN WATER. But here at the shelter water is controlled. The water fountains are all taped up and blocked off. We are served water at breakfast lunch and supper and also about 3:00 in the afternoon or we may get Gatorade at that time. During Texas Summer heat.

This leaves hold on with and I to become stressed let’s just say I gave him the heads up even though my suffering and my pain in my back you cannot just give a heads up and it be easy to swallow when you see me in pain. It’s not easy to watch me go through what I go through. So it’s not going to be something that you get a heads up and you can handle it it’s not anything near what can be possibly imagined I guess from massive amounts of pain and suffering in my lower back I don’t take medicine and I manage it very well. His conditions have been living in are not at all the right conditions for my disabilities. And then when someone is not listening that’s supposed to be helping a homeless person that is also disabled even though I’m not in a wheelchair as of yet. That worker should listen and not just passed off what that person is saying. So anyways I come out the gate I can’t handle no more I feel like I’m being smothered I finally before I walked out I finally get a ziplock bag of ice it is enough for me to be able to wobble out with my bags. And he put it in my records that if I asked for ice to please give it to me so I can help my back in the swelling to go down. That was blessing number one.

So I can’t handle the negativity I can’t handle the smothering can’t breathe in there it’s that bad I know the full moon is coming up and it has to do something with it and I know it I just knew it. So as I’m sitting outside of girls and stuff that’s in the shelter with me she tells her story it matches what I have put together by listening to many others. In this man just slightly just quietly marked up on the side of us like he sat down very confidently between us to girls and he decided to tell his story.

You’ll find us chosen ones mostly homeless and wondering , most likely trying to get to a place wherever we belong, gypsies. I find more and more we are having to go underground. And Anne Frank has come to mind for many years now, her book…her story. This is coming to pass it is now.

“For where two or three are gather together in MY name, there am I with them” Matthew 18:20

There were three together tonight, three chosen ones. I’m making sure to make this known, as it seems to be really important to remind all. So in the other words it will be small groups of church from now on. It will be small it will be quick it will be quiet. People will just sit by you. You’re always on guard because you never know, friend or foe. But you will know in your heart. And small gestures like the one I’m about to describe is how you will know.

Remember: KINDNESS IS FREE! And the world of so much confusion, so much hate, so much distrust ALWAYS BE KIND. AS EVERYONE IS DISGUISED NOW. This man that set upon us tonight, the physical marks of his spiritual warfare, another form of torture from the evil one. As he lifted his shirt, he had shown us two girls how he was being deskinned. So then he picked up the Bible and he read a verse he had started scratching his stomach and his back. All through out his trunk his skin was peeling off of him. I looked at him kindly, and asked if zinc oxide would help. So much my bag and I got the tube and I got the roll of toilet paper for him. And as he went back to reading the verse that he opened this Bible up to. I just happened to make the comment that I was in need of a Bible. As quickly as he came is as quickly as he left. Before I knew it I was watching him going down the sidewalk, disappearing into the night. I looked down at my bags. It was there that he had placed the Bible he had onto of my bags. I turned to look where he had been laying kind of getting trying to get some shut eye for 2 seconds or less. There he had left a half eaten Apple a bag of apples and a pair of shoes he had taking off his feet. I hollered out thank you for the Bible and the blessing. I know whether he heard or not, that he knew I was thankful for the gift he bless with.

Is seemed important to tell of this story. Because there’s some things that all need to know. Believe me when I say and I quote

Our Father, Who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy Will be done,
on earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Heed this when I say, the trespassers are doing very dirty deeds and are trespassing. We must forgive our trespassers as God forgives our own trespasses. Even in the shelter, these deeds are very dirty and wrong. Housing is given to select few, and it be made to look like those that are The Chosen Ones have “messed up” being out in the streets, even though the real stories are of identity theft, trafficking, stalking and so forth. Anytime The Chosen Ones would be making a break for our relief. We are fighting blocks, gate, walls…are being stopped at every turn. For whatever reason it is and however it can be done, IT IS BLOCKED AND STOPPED AT ALL COST. And yes, I am choosing my words very wisely.

So you will never know if you come across somebody that’s hungry you might be coming across one of us Chosen Ones that are fighting very exhausting never-ending spiritual wars. If he/she ask with humility for a bite to eat, it most probably is simply for strength to continue to fight this spiritual warfare we are having to fight. I hope this has enlightened those that have read this. As the ONLY way to survive these times is by having blind Faith in God above.

I’ve been wanting to write this one for a long time now. And now that I have finally been able to get a master boot to recover my computer and it’s recovering right now and going to take several hours to do I can finally hopefully at the time to put in to write this information down.

What I have gone through is so very extensive to the point to where it’s unbelievable. I have not even began to try to swallow and stomach what I have gone through to try to make sense of it all. And in all actuality there’s no sense to be made out of it. When my writings are very rushed and you can’t make sense of it it’s because that’s what’s going on with me all the swirling hurricanes tornadoes tsunamis that are going on at one time it’s quite unbearable and that’s the way they plal¹ulun for it to be.

My attackers my predators or the predators rather they try to get me to believe this has to do with just me I know it’s nothing personal cuz it’s not. These people literally have no souls because I don’t see or not feel, being that I’m an empath, anyone that has a soul can actually do things like this. When I came across last year, last March it seemed like I ran across him 43 state scheme. And It all started from one person and a name. Their main focus is to cause so much confusion that you don’t know which way is up and you don’t know your ass from a hole in the ground and confusion brings upon a blackness the cloud and it smothers you.

Spiritually speaking and I’ll go back this far…in this post. In 2019 when I was on bandera road at InTown suites my spiritual space is what I like to call it because I really don’t do need to. my gifts have always been in the healing sense. Ever since I was a little girl actually.

February of 2019 when a friend noticed the x or the cross that was marked on top of my laptop that’s when was nervous about all my alter special stuff or whatever you want to call it stones and everything that was on the dresser have been desecrated moved and broken. When I went to clean everything up and cleanse all the stones and crystals I had a black lace covering over the dresser. When I went to take a shower I decided to bring the lace into the shower with me to clean it by hand in the process. God these things to speak about these things a really difficult for me. When I picked the lights up all this in the shower and as soon as the water hit the lace that was oh goodness… There was something black horribly thick cloud that started missing from it and it scared me so damn bad that I freaking ran out the shower but ass naked fell, I left the shower going and the lights in there and I wouldn’t even touch the lace I had a a hospital where you call it a hospital bucket or whatever that I had with me I went I picked that lace up later on and I threw it in salt water with from a broom handle I wouldn’t even touch it. And I let this lace soak for a couple of days.

It was during this time for whoever that knows me from Twitter and everything that I was cleaning all the walls by hand. Well I’m thinking about it that I need to mention as well. I the objects that were placed under my bed last September that Budget suites that was the third time that I’ve come across this happened to me. Around the time that the stuff with the lace happened and InTown suites I had a bag of ketchups and stuff from ordering you know out parks and knives you know all the stuff that I get and I don’t use it to in the bag. So with me being OCD I happened to weirdly come across under the couch one day a knife under the couch, a plastic knife. And that’s how it happens it’s weird stuff that you go what the hell is going on why and you just look and you’re like what the fuck. But then again you pass it off because well it’s just so weird and you know you don’t think about it after that but those are the things that you need to pick up on and you need to make notice of and make sure to TAKE notice of.

I had no idea what that knife was for or how it even got there. Now during this time I was writing about the psychic vampire deal. Because that’s the only thing that I knew as far as my ears crickets and met you matter of fact not that I’m writing about talking about it because I dictate, I can’t type anymore. The crickets are the squeaking wheel that I hear in my left ear that started before March 2019. It is all around this time that I started getting strong sensations of being horny uncontrollable sensations of being horny and I mean I admit I’ve been a sex addict all my life but damn. This is like a very unusual kind of horniness that comes on suddenly and it’s not it’s an uncontrollable desire. It’s hard to explain. For those that’s hard me on Twitter I mentioned several times “line them up” and it still wouldn’t have been enough. That’s the only way I can explain it. Come to realize recently that had to do with directed energy weapons on me. When I read that the violation that I felt was very down to the core I will admit.

Also during that time I was getting bombed which I didn’t even know what that meant I had no clue about any of this on the innocent and all of it. I mean it’s just constant swirling all around of just nothing but hurricanes tornadoes tsunamis just anything you can think of is just slamming you all at one time and you don’t notice or you’re you’re so busy with all the other crap going around that that night under the couch, it kind of gets forgotten about.

Well that knife meant something, it was very important. And you know those that down magic or anything wicked or pagan or anything like that like my mother she’s so afraid of it that she doesn’t have knowledge of it. And that’s the key, as I preached before and I will continue to preach it. KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.

It doesn’t matter if you believe in it or not it doesn’t matter if that’s your belief or not what matters is that you had the knowledge of it. Because honestly in a such a diverse world with so many beliefs so many practices both good and bad when you are facing the opposite of an opponent though this was coming to mind and word opponent you have to have knowledge of what they are doing especially if it’s against you. So of course at this time I’m on Twitter I’m on everywhere going what the hell is going on with me.

That’s about the time I said on Twitter that I felt like I was being discredited. Looking back well here I am discredited like a son of a bitch you know. That character my honor my integrity it’s all going to shit because of this. There’s one thing I’ve always lived by is the code of honor.

But anyway with the altar and everything salt when you’re dealing with actual the spiritual world salt is normally used in place around the doors and windows for the purpose of keeping negative energy out. Also vinegar is a very good source for keeping negative energy out as much as it stinks it also is a very good cleansing product as well very cheap when you are broke. Lol sage being used as well to disperse negative vibes energy and negative residue that is left in your home from others walking in and out. Being that our aura, our energy field, we leave residue of our energy wherever we are we go we touch we set whatever. Sage is a good is always been used to disperse the negative energy that’s from the residue Left behind from others.

I go into these details for very good reason.

So I knew this about the fault I went to cleanse my room and I throw salt everywhere all over the floor and I’m not talking just the doorways I’m talking EVERYWHERE. How can I explain this look here’s just the pictures. Which by the way is when I started documenting everything. Being that this was so freaking out the box I could not even believe it myself much less me trying to tell somebody about it I said to hell with it I started taking pictures.

A little footnote before I go any further. All my life I have dealt with spiritual warfare or spiritual in both ways good and bad as far as experiencing a good spirits as well as bad. I’m looking back on everything I’ve gone through here in San Antonio. Had any of this been just in a spiritual sense in the real form of spirits on this would have been a cakewalk for me more or less. The knowledge I have to deal with these experiences it would have taken its course and been done with. When I cannot get the situation under control like I had always been able to do I knew there was more to the situation then just in a spiritual sense and that’s kind of where the confusion was coming in and. Because it went it was and that’s the way they were doing this to me on purpose they led me to believe that it was a spiritual sense but it was humans behind it the whole time these people. And that’s why I could not I didn’t have knowledge of this part of the human part like I had the knowledge of the spiritual parts to handle all this.

I’m always under watch no matter where I go even in here. I’ve identified with 2 ppl already. One who called me out on Tuesday. He called out, “rogue” and I’m like RESPECT” right. Ya know like respect that I AM MICHELLE out here. He gonna tell me respect you respect I’m the big dog around here. Trying to throw his “big dog homeless” ass weight around me. when I KNOW he is involved.

Back when it snowed I was at home suites and he came in the office needing a room. Well home suites gouged their prices up so I offered to share a room with a “stranger” right.thats how they always come across to me “as stranger” well to make the long story short….I had figured out tihe satanic number codes and he “non chalantely” helped me with showing me the word codings that is used. I even still have the paper that he wrote the coded words on so that I can remember how he wrote them

I’ve already done one post on “codes and riddles” on my other website. https://msrogueofsa.net/codes-and-riddles/

Well they are AGAIN fucking with me through my cash app card and phone numbers ..for example

Last night I kept dreaming of the word “subliminal” as well as these damn phone numbers that Are spam calls right….like a voice to skull shit ..it’s like the amount of times they call these numbers may activate the secret hidden codes to your phone. Because like I found a lot of *86 and other codes used and called on my phone recently when I downloaded an app called call log analyzer on my phone.like before …here recently “they” would call from these spam numbers THREE TIMES BACK TO BACK TO BACK…AGAIN equaling 9…upside 6 but also this might be activating the hidden phone codes which is why i can’t ever seem to really HIDE from these fuckers.

I need to test this theory out. But I can be almost 100% sure from putting all these pieces together.

Oh about that second person…yep it’s 6 in the morning and I’m staring right at the second person that is on KIK.

I’ve studied Kik for almost 2 years now. These fuckers hide on these low lined platforms. Kik being the main one!!!

Ok so there ya have it. The codes and riddles lesson for the day.

I just found an article on in Scribd that I thought to be interesting, and I’m going to apply this to the sex work world as it seems to fit perfectly. 

First, there are two types of clients. The first kind is the predator. The most dangerous of all is the entitled predator clients. And you can tell this right off, especially if you look into their eyes. For any man who hears of a woman being into sex work without them realizing it and their eyes turn black as coal, and its instant hatred. Instant entitlement. This kind of client, their attitude is that the sex worker owes them. 

You can tell this kind right off the bat, as they don’t understand what they are paying for, which is the programs for editing and just everything that’s involved. It is their full belief that they are paying for a sex itself. Again, this is not the case. But because of this belief, they had an instant hatred for a woman that’s in sexual, and it doesn’t matter what branch of sex work. The characteristics would be haggling prices, time-wasting, feeling too deserving to screen, lying during their screening, they bait, and switch names and handles etc. Anybody that is not forthright in their screenings, as well as anyone that is negative and downplays sex work or sex workers. 

As I was told before these kinds of people have hate issues mommy issues, abusive issues towards women. Something happened in their past to have this kind of derogatory mentality towards women, and especially in the sex work world. I want to stop right here and make an important note. This kind of person, this kind of client, this kind of mentality right here is going to be your real life, average everyday trafficker. And without them realizing exactly what they are really doing. 

The next kind of client you have is the innocent kind, really. Especially with COVID-19 quarantine, there are many that are starving for human connection. Just somebody to talk to, to be able to relate to someone, and it’s not even on a sexual level. Somebody to communicate and just talk about problems in the relationships with their wives. I had someone tell me one time they had not had a hug in the 6-month period, except for their children. And I mean, I can relate to that because I’ve been isolated for four and a half years. This being my only human connection at all. They may not understand what they’re paying for because nine times out of 10 this is the first time; they are seeking out a relationship of this kind. I see that the need for this kind of companionship, especially during COVID-19, is on the rise. As there are many out there that are like me, for example, who are very introverted do not have any friends or family and really don’t have anywhere else to turn to. Dating sites are getting scarier in these times, and it’s just hard to go out there and try to meet new people on dating sites. 

Here’s what I found to be interesting as I have seen it so much so in the sex work world, and it applies and all avenue of between the sex work world, trafficking as well as gang stalking. And I couldn’t help myself but to chuckle a little because this is so true, but I was reading because I’ve seen it so much. Its typical behavior and characteristics 

Taken from the article: Gang stalking: PERP Mentality and the Reptilian Brain by Anthony Wood

Three signs that identify what PERP mentality 
1. Takes pleasure in another’s misfortune

 
2. Is unable to logically explain his or her beliefs 

3. Resorts to the intimidation to physical violence to resolve issues 

and goes on to State a 4th 

4. Needing to belong to a group 

Examples of that would be a wannabe biker…. And this is where I had to laugh…. 

Need to surround themselves with the groups they are wanting to be in or try to identify with, example given was marvel characters 

Of Course, this was shortened up, but I wanted to bring this to light because these characteristics are most seen in the sex work world, are at least. From what I’ve come across, anyway. As you can see, these are very noticeable characteristics between what was explained to me in the beginning about the two different kinds of clients as well as the gang stalking that I have endured for the last four and a half years. Which turned everything into me being trafficked in the real sense. Therefore, it’s so interchangeable in throughout all of this between the stalking, the trafficking and everything. 

Quite honest with you, that was the first four paragraphs I think that I had gotten through when I stopped to write this article up quick. Because I felt it important to make note of these characteristics and how they interchange with everything and how you can pick up on what would be the typical trafficker/PERP Gang stalker. 

The article goes on to talk about indigo children, which I identify with as I am one. And that targeted individuals on more than likely going to be indigo children. I have not finished reading that part yet, so I don’t want to quote anything. But again, I also found this to be right on the money from what I have been seeing of other targeted individuals. So, I am going to stop right here on this right now, and I will write more on this later. From just one article. 

… To all government officials to all law enforcement to the FBI to the CIA to Homeland security…

And believe me when I say I choose my words wisely….

Do you want to end modern day slavery and trafficking??? And I want you to think before you answer me…

Or do you want to continue to be the cause of it and then lie to yourselves while you go home from work at night so you can feel better and go to sleep at night???

Because here’s the way I look at it, after four and a half years of being caught up in something I never in my life would have dreamed of, trying to get out of it, not one of you heard me when I emailed you not one of you!!! I emailed the mayor twice in one week, I emailed the attorney general this Monday morning. I have called out to the president, the vice president, to the mayor and to the governor on Twitter.

See here it is, I’m going to be the woman that tells you,… you’re lying to yourself, all of you!!! And before I talk to any one of you I want to have porn law attorney, specifically Michael from adultbizlaw.com, an attorney that specializes in human trafficking, and also an attorney that specializes in organized gang crime. Because I’m here to tell ya, the laws of FOSTA/SESTA do NOT protect me. The trap house laws of human trafficking does not protect me. Matter of fact YOU CAUSING HOMELESSNESS WITH THOSE LAWS. Any of the financial institution laws in Texas does not freaking protect me. THESES LAWS ARE CAUSING THE POVERTY!!!

By the way with what I’ve gone through I do not trust anybody, because of what you specifically I’ve gone through a matter of fact I don’t trust FBI CIA and Homeland at all much less any government officials or any human body on this planet anymore because of the sneaky little shit that’s been done to me. This includes poisoning my food and everything.

So for me to sit here and speak to anyone, I want these three attorneys present. And I will tell you where you were going wrong in these laws… BE FARWARNED THOUGH, THIS LIL RED HEASED CAJUN WILL TELL YOU LIKE IT IS!!! because these laws that you state help me, absolutely do not!!! they help them and they freaking know it. Why do you think there’s cease and desist all over my website and not one of them gave a shit about it and continued to hurt me that’s because they know, they laugh in your fucking faces. They know you won’t do a fucking thing about it that’s the damn problem.!!!!

The perception of men, the stigma of being a whore, the stigma of sex work the perception of every human being on this Earth. Is the fucking problem!!!

My truth, THE truth??? for me to speak THE truth, it scare every fucking living one of you and it needs to be, you need to be scared. My truth??? NOT ONE OF YOU CAN HANDLE MY TRUTH!!!

My truth needs to be a wake-up call for every one of you because I’m not the first person, I won’t be the last, I was made the example out of !!! I promise you. IF I WAS TO TELL EVERYONE OF YOU THE TRUTH I DON’T THINK NONE OF YOU CAN HANDLE IT BECAUSE IT’S NOT SOMETHING THAT HUMAN BRAIN CAN WRAP AROUND AND CONCEIVE AND COMPREHEND BUT IT’S HAPPENING RIGHT UNDER YOUR FUCKING NOSES AND AIN’T ONE OF YOU REALLY READY TO HANDLE THIS TRUTH.

But if you want to combat and get a grip on human trafficking and slavery you need to be open-minded and ready. I know for a fact none of you are. Laws need to be changed DRASTICALLY CHANGED AND IMMEDIATELY BECAUSE ALL YOU’RE DOING IS CONTRIBUTING AND CAUSING IT AND YOU’RE HEARING IT FROM THE BITCH THATS BEEN DOWN UNDER FOR THE LAST FOUR AND A HALF FUCKING YEARS

All of you law enforcement and government officials need to hear it from someone that is not scared because I’m here to tell you I’ve been through enough fear and I’ve lost everything but time. I don’t fear anything anymore not from what I’ve gone through. But I’m going to tell you now not one you can handle hearing much less going through with what I have gone through so before I speak I want my rights to protect it as a human tracking victim in the REAL sense not in the illusion of the laws, the illusion that makes you go to sleep at night more comfortable AND at ease thinking you help somebody when you haven’t

Of course I had to speak my mind while it was on my mind because I’m getting very tired of this shit my body is worn out 4 and 1/2 years of this shit I am done and so I just had to speak it while it was right there took my phone before it gets spoken in the wrong Way in real life.

YOU JUST HEARD IT LIVE, YOU JUST HEARD IT REAL,

IF YOU EXPECT ME TO SUGARCOAT ANYTHING GO SOMEWHERE ELSE, BECAUSE I’VE BEEN THROUGH THE HELL AND IT WASN’T SUGAR COATED TO ME.

” I AM ONLY ONE VOICE BUT THROUGH MY STORY THIS VOICE SPEAKS VOLUMES AND CARRIES FAR AND WIDE”

Signed Michelle/Rogue Warrior/MsRogueSA

So let’s explain what exactly took place back in September of last year finally. This would be the first mention since September that I’ve ever told the story besides to him Tuesday morning.

I throw out the month of September, I didn’t know what was going on. Now I know and can identify with it and I can place names to it, so now I can explain it to everyone. I’m just going through noise disturbance campaigns with the son of a drill up in the right-hand corner at the door frame of my bedroom at Budget suites there was a drill going off every morning at 5:14 every morning at that same time my brand-new phone my Galaxy S10 Plus that I had just thought because in June my phones and devices were hacked or whatever, and I was getting I didn’t know what was going on my hotspot I went through five gigs and 20 minutes I paid $35 through Verizon to get that 5 gigs that I didn’t even use. On the brand-new phone my display started with flicker, and I’ve got videos of it even though I can’t put the video on here I can put the pictures of it on here though. They had gotten into my phone. Trying to drive me crazy because I did not know what was going on. At one point I decided to start going into the living room and start sleeping on the couch. Now mind you 2 weeks prior to me finding these objects that I’m about to explain I had taken the bed apart washed the skirting everything flip the mattress over and nothing was under the bed. I’m going to explain the events that took place.

This is what I found on September 3rd 2020 and my telegram folder. This would be psychologically getting me to kill myself.

Supposedly he didn’t send this email, but somebody did this is when I told everybody not to use the ProtonMail account because ProtonMail was not being paid because well I was working for free while everybody was messing up everything he says he didn’t send it this happened once before back in May I can’t tell who it is, but he got the chewing out. Either way, somebody was playing head games with me. This also happened on September 3rd

Just to give you an idea of where I was this was September 5th and 6th this is when I started figuring out about the all the different aliases that were in my contact list and my Kik and my cash app and my Venmo and my other Kik for work all the different names and correlations and pictures were starting to come up this is the time that I started figuring out that everybody was that was harassing me seem to be on Kik that’s been the main number one common denominator with all the people I have come to identify with. They’ve been in my contact list since the very beginning of me moving here and on Kik . That’s very important to know.

Also, this is about the time that my phone started getting hot going up to 160 something degrees I couldn’t figure out what was going on in the slowing my phone down I couldn’t get anything done I spent a week wasted trying to do nothing but restart my phone all day every day and get frustrated, so this is me trying to figure out WTF is going on with my phone which like I said at the time I did not know what was going on, but I was I went through this in June being hacked and 3 months later which is starting to see a routine and a schedule and repetition started in September, and we can go forward to this year because it seems that I’m going through massive computer problems I like this.

JUST AS A NOTE; for those that say you can’t figure out, you know what’s going on or just looks like a bunch of rubbish. IT’S ELECTRONIC HARASSMENT. IF IT MADE SENSE AND YOU CAN FIGURE IT OUT IT WOULDN’T BE ELECTRONIC HARASSMENT NOW WOULD IT BE… just saying….

September 8th through 10th. I’m getting random phone calls on my real phone number that shouldn’t have been called nobody should know my real phone number that would consist of being harassment as well as this is creating a trigger about the phone. It’s also causing me not to answer the phone which would be in it’s stopping me from any other business phone calls that I may get because I never know who it is. Phone harassment has to do with its still electronic harassment with Internet devices and illegal

Also, at the time I was trying to put together time frames about things that other things that happened back in June and that’s where you see the two screenshots of the website there…. Mind you this is all month long

Next we have Kenneth Salzer .. Says that’s who he is anyways.

By Dr. LacterIn What is Ritual Abuse?November 25, 20108 Min read (Again, Many Thanks to the Author of this Article. It’s a blessing To have found this!)

Knowledge of the methods of torture used within ritual abuse and trauma-based mind control provides a basis for recognition of related trauma disorders. Individuals subjected to these forms of torture may experience intense fear, phobic reactions, or physiological symptoms in response to associated stimuli. In some cases, the individual, or particular dissociated identities, experience a preoccupation with, or attraction to, related stimuli.

Victims may be able to describe the torture they have endured, or they may fear doing so. In many cases of ritual abuse and mind control trauma, the abuse remains dissociated when the individual first seeks treatment. Typically, the initial presenting problems are symptoms of anxiety, depression, or trauma derived from childhood sexual abuse, usually by a family member, who is eventually understood as a participant in the abuser group.

The following is a partial list of these forms of torture:

1. Sexual abuse and torture.

2. Confinement in boxes, cages, coffins, etc, or burial (often with an opening or air-tube for oxygen).

3. Restraint; with ropes, chains, cuffs, etc.

4. Near-drowning.

5. Extremes of heat and cold, including submersion in ice water, and burning chemicals.

6. Skinning (only top layers of the skin are removed in victims intended to survive).

7. Spinning.

8. Blinding light.

9. Electric shock.

10. Forced ingestion of offensive body fluids and matter, such as blood, urine, feces, flesh, etc.

11. Hung in painful positions or upside down.

12. Hunger and thirst.

13. Sleep deprivation.

14 Compression with weights and devices.

15. Sensory deprivation.

16. Drugs to create illusion, confusion, and amnesia, often given by injection or intravenously.

17. Ingestion or intravenous toxic chemicals to create pain or illness, including chemotherapy agents.

18. Limbs pulled or dislocated.

19. Application of snakes, spiders, maggots, rats, and other animals to induce fear and disgust.

20. Near-death experiences; commonly asphyxiation by choking or drowning, with immediate resuscitation.

22. Forced to perform or witness abuse, torture and sacrifice of people and animals, usually with knives.

23. Forced participation in child pornography and prostitution.

24. Raped to become pregnant; the fetus is then aborted for ritual use, or the baby is taken for sacrifice or enslavement.

25. Spiritual abuse to cause victim to feel possessed, harassed, and controlled internally by spirits or demons.

26. Desecration of Judeo-Christian beliefs and forms of worship; Dedication to Satan or other deities.

27. Abuse and illusion to convince victims that God is evil, such as convincing a child that God has raped her.

28. Surgery to torture, experiment, or cause the perception of physical or spiritual bombs or implants.

29. Harm or threats of harm to family, friends, loved ones, pets, and other victims, to force compliance.

30. Use of illusion and virtual reality to confuse and create non-credible disclosure.

To illustrate, ritual abuse survivors may experience intense phobic reactions to spiders or maggots (item 19). They may fear water and baths (item 4). They often fear hypodermic needles (item 16). They become easily too cold, too hot (item 5), or thirsty (item 12). They may have aversive reactions to cameras (item 23). They may become upset upon seeing babies, dolls, or particular animals, or they may strongly identify with abused and abandoned animals and children (items 22 and 24). Sexual aversions are common (items 1, 23, and 24), as are vulnerability to repeated sexual victimization, sexual compulsions, and in some cases, paraphilias, such as sadism (Young, Sachs, Braun, & Watkins, 1991).

Food aversions and eating disorders are common. Ritual abuse survivors may not be able to eat food that is brown or red because these remind them of feces and blood. They are often repulsed by meat, are vegetarian, or fast excessively, or regurgitate food, derived from forced ingestion of body matter and fluids (item 10).

Ritual abuse survivors, by and large, believe in the presence and power of spiritually evil forces, and often feel personally plagued by these (items 25, 26, 27, and 28). They may experience anxiety or an aversion to God and religion (item 26 and 27), or may alternatively be devout in their spiritual beliefs and practices.

Art productions, creative writing, and sandtrays, will often reflect their torture; including knives, religious symbols, frightening figures, coffins, burials, etc. Children unconsciously reenact elements of torture they have witnessed or experienced with toys and other objects. For example, a 3-year-old boy wrapped a rope three times around his neck and pulled upward, as if to hang himself. A 3-year-old girl sang about marrying Satan.

External or internal reminders of torture-related stimuli often precipitate dissociative responses, such as entering a trance state, falling asleep, or an other personality taking executive control of the individual. Torture-associated stimuli may also elicit disturbing impulses to re-enact unprocessed trauma, such as impulses to self-mutilate, or thoughts of stabbing or sexually assaulting an other person.

Somatoform and conversion reactions occur frequently in response to ritual abuse and mind control trauma-reminders. Individuals often experience localized pain, especially genitourinary, musculoskeletal, and gastrointestinal, motor inhibitions, nausea, or even swelling in the affected area, prior to retrieval of any visual or narrative memory of the related torture. These are generally very distressing to the affected individual. Once the trauma is re-associated and processed within the context of psychotherapy or other forms of support, these somatoform and conversion reactions usually dissipate.

Survivors of trauma-based mind control often respond with anxiety to flourescent lighting, since so much programming utilizes intense lighting (item 8). They may startle in response to a telephone ringing, related to programming to receive or make calls to abusers. They may believe they have microphones inside their heads that will relay their disclosures to their abusers (item 27). Fears of electronic or spiritual surveillance, and threats to loved ones (item 29) inhibit their ability to defy and escape their abusers or to disclose their abuse.

Victims of trauma-based mind control also usually experience intense or odd reactions to benign stimuli that were used in their programming. For example, they may have been programmed to remember to forget every time they see an apple, or to remember they are being watched every time they hear a police or fire siren. Similarly, they may make repetitive, robotic statements that do not make sense in the context of dialogue, e.g., “I want to go home”, a common programmed statement intended to keep them obedient to the abuser group and reporting to their abusers. Specific songs may be compulsively sung for similar programmed purposes.

All of these symptoms can occur prior to the individual having any conscious understanding of the related abuse. This point is critical. Dissociative and neurobiological responses to overwhelming trauma (van Der Kolk, McFarlane, & Weisaeth, 1996) often prevent these experiences from being processed into a coherent narrative memory. The diagnostician cannot rely on the patient to put the pieces together of their clinical picture.

Finally, generalized guilt and survivor guilt are strongly associated with ritual abuse, since participation in victimization of others is a mainstay of ritual abuse and mind control torture (items 22 and 29).

For more on recognition of symptoms specific to ritual abuse trauma, see Boyd (1991); Coleman (1994); Gould (1992); Hudson (1991); Mangen (1992); Oksana (2001); Pulling and Cawthorn, 1989; Ross (1995); Ryder (1992); Young (1992); and Young and Young (1997).

References

Boyd, A. (1991). Blasphemous rumors: Is Satanic ritual abuse fact or fantasy? An investigation. London: HarperCollins

Coleman, J. (1994a). Presenting features in adult victims of Satanist ritual abuse. Child Abuse Review, 3, 83-92.

Gould, C. (1992). Diagnosis and treatment of ritually abused children. In D.K. Sakheim & S.E. Devine (Eds.), Out of darkness: Exploring Satanism and ritual abuse (pp. 207-248). New York: Lexington Books.

Hudson, P.S. (1991). Ritual child abuse: discovery, diagnosis and treatment. Saratoga, CA: R & E Publishers.

Mangen, R. (1992). Psychological testing and ritual abuse. In D.K. Sakheim & S.E. Devine (Eds.), Out of darkness: Exploring Satanism and ritual abuse (pp. 147-173). New York: Lexington.

Oksana, C. (1994, revised 2001). Safe passage to healing: A guide for survivors of ritual abuse. NY: Harper Perennial.

Pulling, P., & Cawthorn, K. (1989). The devils web: Who is stalking your children for Satan?. Lafayette, Louisiana: Huntington House.

Ross, C.A. (1995). Satanic ritual abuse: Principles of treatment. Toronto: University of Toronto Press.

Ryder, D., & Noland, J.T. (1992). Breaking the circle of Satanic ritual abuse: Recognizing and recovering from the hidden trauma. Minneapolis, MN: CompCare Publishers.

van der Kolk, B.A., McFarlane, A.C., & Weisaeth, L. (Eds.) (1996). Traumatic stress: The effects of overwhelming experience on mind, body, and society. New York: Guilford.

Young, W.C. (1992). Recognition and treatment of survivors reporting ritual abuse. In D.K. Sakheim & S.E. Devine (Eds.), Out of darkness: Exploring Satanism and ritual abuse (pp. 249-278). New York: Lexington.

Young, W.C., Sachs, R.G., Braun, B.G., & Watkins, R.T. (1991). Patients reporting ritual abuse in childhood: A clinical syndrome. Report of 37 cases. Child Abuse and Neglect, 15, 181-189.

Young, W.C., & Young, L.J. (1997). Recognition and special treatment issues in patients reporting childhood sadistic ritual abuse. In G.A. Fraser (Ed.), The dilemma of ritual abuse: Cautions and guides for therapists (pp. 65-103). Washington, DC: American Psychiatric Press.

Modified: November 13, 2010

Programming Torture

The No Touch Torture Policies
Tuesday, March 9, 2021
1:46 PM
To describe it to the world, for those that could never be able to grasp nor conceive any part of this. And believe me, neither can I, I promise.

The worst part is staying in fear, never knowing who is who, then you find yourself accusing everyone, that’s part of the breakdown process. That’s how they get you to jeopardize your own self. You start to lose your family, your friends, your loved ones. That’s how they get you into isolation.

It’s rape on a whole different level one can never possibly grasp. Rape of the mind, raping you if your memories that you hold dear to you. Rape of ever feeling safe again. In your own, in your loved ones arms, your friends… ABSOLUTELY NO WHERE AND NO ONE WILL EVER HELP YOU TO GRAB THE FEELING OF BEING SAFE EVER AGAIN.

Raping you of your happiness and joy and laughter. Raping your peace… peace of mind. Your comfort,

On the outside they strip you of your dignity, your pride, your grace, your worth, your confidence. They degrade you, humiliate you, “dirty” you. They strip you, EVERY PART OF YOU LITTLE BY LITTLE, PIECE BY PIECE, BRICK BY BRICK…INSIDE AND OUT, MATERIAL, NON-MATERIAL….

EVERY AREA, NO STONE IS LEFT UNTOUCHED… EVERYTHING SACRED TO YOU, THAT YOU HOLD CLOSE…..ITS ALL DESCARTED, DIRTIED, FILTHIED, and TURNS INTO THE MOST HORRIFIC OF NIGHTMARES THAT CAN’T GO TO SLEEP TO EVEN WAKE UP TO. BECAUSE YOU ARE ALWAYS AWAKE LIVING THOSE MOST HORRIFIC NIGHTMARES.

they are so bad, they are so scarry, you find yourself not even being able to speak…you can’t get it out, you can’t even force your lips and your jaw to move to talk. You find the most you can get is mere utter of a sound…if that much. You stutter when you try to talk. It’s so horrific YOU CAN’T SPEAK; YOU DO NOTHING BUT SHIVER…THE CONSTANT SHIVERING…WITH THE TEARS THAT FLOW DOWN YOUR CHEEKS.

I don’t want anyone that doesn’t know… that’s never lived this, to understand this. I would never want anyone that hasn’t lived this to be able to grasp it…to conceive any part of this… because if you do, that means you also are in this most horrific hell of hell’s. Damming you to a hell on earth.

Trapped in your mind, even you don’t even that, because it’s stolen from you. You don’t even have a box to sit it…it’s like a state of dark NOTHINGNESS that you find yourself confined into.

There’s no way I can get across to any one person THE TRUE FEELING EMOTIONS…THE TRUE CONSTANT STATE OF FEAR… NEVER KNOWING ALL OF YOUR ATTACKERS AND NEVER KNOWING WHEN THE NEXT ATTACK WILL HIT YOU…BLIND SIDING YOU OUT OF BLUE… YOUR BODY STAYS TENSED UP JUST TO STAY PREPARED FOR THE NEXT BLOW THAT YOU KNOW IS ANY SECOND…JUST WHEN YOU TRY TO TELAX…

10:TO 15 OR MORE HITS IN THE GUT… COMING FROM EVERY DIRECTION KNOWN …AND THEN SOME…. THERE’S NEVER…JUET RELAX AND GET OVER IT ..

NEVER. there’s never any sleep. If you are not having horrific nightmares, you find yourself waking up choking, not being able to breath. Like someone has your throat so tight…and pushing on your chest…as much as you fight to get air…the more you fight. You more you feel squeezed.

There’s no way I can ever explain to where anyone that hasn’t gone through this can grasp nor conceive. THERE’S NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE… ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU CAN NOT FIGURE THE FUCK OUT WHAT THE LIVING FUCK IS HAPPENING TO YOU…BUT MY GOD, YOU KNOW THAT IT IS…

Because YOU KNOW THAT ITS MADE YOU DROP TO KNEES…LIKE A THUD SO HARD YOU SHAKING YOUR WHOLE HOUSE…. SCREAMING BLOODY MURDER….GOD PLEASE GOD PLEASE GOD PLEASE GOD PLEASE

YOU KNOW YOU’VE BEGGED GOD TO COME TO HELP YOU…TO TAKE THIS EVIL FOR WHATEVER IS HAPPENING…YOU DON’T KNOW

WHAT YOU DO KNOW…YOU DROPPING TO YOUR KNEES SCREAMING OUT GODS NAME…THATS THE ONLY THING YOU KNOW… nothing else.

It’s the most slowest most horrific death and way to know that you are going to die… dying by breaking down your body…

The perfect murder…no fucking proof. They do not touch you…. PHYSICALLY…but they will steal and rape and violate and take everything of you BY NEVER LAYING ONE TOUCH ON YOU!

These ppl that play any part of this…THEY HAVE BEEN CONNED OR BELIEVE AND HAVE EASILY SOLD THEIR SOULS…ON BEAUTIFUL PROMISES OF THE EVIL ONE.

Because there is absolutely no other explanation that any mind can conceive for the mind to register these horrible acts done to any one life. Life is so precious. I don’t care…who what color what race what job they hold…NONE OF THAT MATTERS WHEN YOU ARE TAKING SOMEONE’S LIFE RIPPING EVERY PART OF IT INSIDE OUT… OUTSIDE IN AND ECERY WHICH WAY….AND LOOSE… TIGHT AND LOOSE AGAIN…

THAT IS NOTHING BUT PURE EVIL!

2:32 pm MARCH 9, 2021

I found this, I don’t know who wrote it, but it completely fits. So I’m putting it up, it IS what I identify with.

She has been broken
She has been knocked down
She has been defeated
She has felt the pain that most couldn’t handle

She looks fear in the face
Year after year, day after day
But yet, she never runs
She never hides.
And yet she finds a way
To get back up.

She is unbreakable
She’s the warrior

SHE’S YOU!

“Rogue Warrior” is who I have Become!

I didn’t write this but yet it gives me strength. And I do identify with this right now or try to n

You know it’s a shame and it really sucks that I have to make three four other websites just to be able to put my post up of what I am really going through.

It’s really a shame that I have spent over $10,000 on a website I can’t even post on because I’m not allowed to because I get shoved off of everywhere I try to post or any social media or anything it really sucks to have to make these free websites when I know I’ve got a nice one that I’ve spent mega bucks on JUST TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK MY VOICE AND HAVE MY FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

Seems like all the bullies like telling others what they don’t and don’t have what rights they are right to have and not have. All these bullies are rapist and stalkers it’s a wonderful thing to be overraned by illusion of that’s supposedly called power and control when in reality it’s abuse

And they want to hide their abuse I am having to be silenced to hide their abuse to hide my truth the truth they put on me.

I refuse to be silenced. These websites are easy to come by and make

I stand up and I take a stand, I HAVE A RIGHT NOT TO BE HURT. I HAVE A RIGHT TO BE ABLE TO VOICE MY EXPERIENCES. I HAVE A RIGHT. AND BECAUSE OF MY RIGHTS I STAND UP AND I TAKE MY STAND!

What defines a person

Thursday, April 22, 2021
8:43 PM

I’ve been wanting to write this all day long, since that 2:00 a.m. this morning. I decided to go out at elaborate now I was going to make some surveys and do all kinds of stuff but you know what I believe right now I just want to say my peace.

What defines a person?

Well, that question I guess would be answered depending on who you asked. Some would say money, family, cars, looks. Etc.

What defines a person’s worth? Wow that one is a doozy there. Because the majority if you’re asking this question in the population of sex work. That answer would be, “once a heaux, always a beaux.” Or the other famous one would be
“Can’t make a housewife out of a heaux.”

In which neither of these sentences are actually true in my case. Being that I was a housewife long before heaux, two times matter of fact. And in all reality, in my case, it was actually the slut in me that brought me to be in a heaux. So again I remind all of you….IM LIKE NO OTHER!

So what defines a person? what define their worth?

What is it that to you makes a person Worthy. .

So whether you’re a man in this community or a civie out in the world… a prostitute or an escort or a companion or a provider or whatever you want to call it… Seems like what we do our job seems to define us in the eyes of all of you. It seems like it defines our worth in the eyes of all of you.

But I’ve got some questions to ask because I’m very curious.

So does your job define you does your job define your worth? I’m really trying to understand this so-called logic here that to me is just not logical at all.

So the distaste that comes from any person when they hear somebody’s in sex work they don’t matter if it’s cashier or whatever but just the word itself that distaste from it. Once heard, it’s automatically stripped our worth. GONE IN THAT ONE INSTANT! AND THAT APPARENTLY ALSO DEFINES US AS A PERSON. No good just hated…just literally spat on and told that we no longer have rights because we are an escort.

So I’m really going to ask I love you since this seems to define me as a person and it seems to define my worth. I’m wondering what the fuck did he say about all of you????

Quite frankly said, those of you who go you know haggling prices and treating people like shit and you know being cheap and stingy and just all around bitchy…m when you give me the threatened us and say well I know what you’ve done you’re a sex worker I’ll turn you in.

But hey wait a minute this is what I wonder. How is in any one of you any better when you sleeping in that same bed. Don’t you think you can get in trouble too. Better yet don’t you think we know a little bit more about you also when you pull out these threats. So that means when you come in this community you’re automatically not worth being worried about and fucking around with in the first place. If this is the real case.

As the saying goes, when you sleep in the same bed with the dogs you get up with the same fleas. and where again many of you who don’t even care about your own selves to cover it up you bring those fleas to us when you force us to do bareback or expect us to. So I’m wondering what does that say about you. if this is the real case, I mean.

And I’m not downing anybody I’m really bringing up a real debate here because I I’m not understanding this


Another perfect example that has I personally have been experiencing here lately. Is this excuse about “well you can’t go to the cops.” “This is what I want to know why the hell cant I???” If you’re well educated into what the law states. Escorting is legal going on a date and being paid for companionship and time is legal.

Know that there is a fine line between legal and illegal. See this is why we go about things and we do them a certain way and I make sure that I do everything by book legal. It’s when you ask about how much and all this for services or whatever that makes it illegal so why can’t I go to the cops???

Or is it that you’re just trying to fear monger me???

And I would like to ask you another question. If me being a hoe defines me as a person, then what would you consider customers who call the providers heaux’s, who steal from them in Short change them in whatever else that they do and keep them being a hoe what would that consider them?

Because the way I see it if you are calling a provider a heaux and then you keep her away from trying to get out of being a hoe and keep her down then that would what…???

I’m just wanting to make a point here.