Satanic Ritual Abuse or SRA

What Is Satanic Ritual Abuse?

The term “ritual abuse” is used to mean different things: it can mean “ritualistic” abuse: repetitive, planned out, compulsive abuse by an isolated perpetrator. More frequently, it describes abuse by an organized group of people, most often by a satanic cult. This presentation is about abuse in satanic cults…
The abuse is used to gain ultimate control over another human being, control by torture of the mind, body, and spirit. The abuse happens as part of a ritual…
— RA Info: Ritual Abuse, Ritual Crime and Healing

January 24th, 2023

“Satanic Ritual Abuse“, I’ve been saying these three words, ironically for three years now. Boy, but when it hits you, just exactly what those words mean, it rocks you to the very core. You can’t breathe, your chest feels completely crushed, your skin crawls, and it doesn’t matter whether you have food in your system or not, you instantaneously and simultaneously dropping to your knees while vomiting up “the disgust”. The trauma from the realizations that begin swimming around in your head, remembering strange things said, things still not understood, it rocks your core AND psyche so hard that it changes your whole chemical make up, INSTANTLY.

You may even experience memory loss or a “black out”. After looking for a specific link that I had saved a couple of years ago that turned into a 3-day reading and research binge, last night I came to realize that this is the “disassocation”. I finally understand that the trauma is so great, the brain can not process it and “kicks it out”, the body goes into protective mode and shuts down, shutting it out.

I can tell you this much, today was one of those, “I can barely make it” healing days.
The sheer exhaustion gave way to a few hours of sleep, if you call it that. Woke up more exhausted than before. Disorentied, shakey, weak…totally discombobulated I believe would be the word I’m looking for. “Out of sorts” as my body is trying to process such horrific realizations.

There’s A Difference

Living through and having endured REAL satanic ritual abuse, as well as having dealt with REAL possession and performing a REAL exorcism TRYING TO HELP my the ex that was possessed, I can’t help but to wonder…my family, mainly my mother…all of my family including both of my sons have shunned me, disgraced me, and disowned me..slandering me…labeling me “as a devil worshiper”. I have been made out to be just this horrible person by my family, that I was so bad, that “I needed to be exorcised.”

At first, I thought this was “survivor’s guilt”, I don’t lie, I don’t steal…Honestly I don’t do anything really. Yes, I have faults, we all do. When the truth of the matter is, what happened to me by her husbands family at the ages of 7, 11 and 14…I was groomed, just like I was groomed to be trafficked. It set the course, so to speak. Yes, I rebelled, yes I lashed out, yes I lied to my mom at the age of 14, just because. Stupid shit, like her coming in from work and asking if I did the dishes and i would look at her and tell her no as she was walking in the kitchen. As I grew up, it just was not her business.

As you can plainly see, this is is not “survivor’s guilt” that I’m dealing with. This is straight up, this is the core of the life long brainwashing.

January 26th, 2023

Ok, so after some time away to process everything, here’s how I’m going to go about this. First of all, I’m human, just like we all are. I have just tried my best throughout my life to find my way through all the abuse. It’s simple. I REFUSE TO BECOME WHAT HAS BEEN SHOWN TO ME.

Trauma-based mind control programming can be defined as “systematic” torture that blocks the victim’s capacity for conscious processing

February 1st through 9th, 2019

February 10th, 2019 Chakra Stones

March 22, 2019

August 20th, 2019

December 8th, 2019

Written Wednesday, November 11, 2020 10:09 PM

I mean like there’s things I can’t figure out like right before I had to move out that apartment there’s only one person that knew that I had gotten me a new belly ring and when I was on the phone with a guy I’ve been seeing he had me so upset and everything I went and got a rose and bought me a plastic Rose or whatever and then I got a new belly ring it was $5 like a head I’m going to sleep that’s the thing like I would read something or when I had told Facebook my family about what’s been going on I would all of a sudden just get sleepy and crash like I couldn’t stay up at all like it was almost like if I said a certain word that it was kind of hypnotic out like I would pass completely out like you would knock me the fuck out okay I woke up I was on my couch and I woke up and there my belly ring was only fucking four my belly ring does not come out ever ever in years matter of fact when I bought it in June the new one that was the first time in life 6 years my belly ring was taking out at all so there was no way I mean like how did it end up in my on my floor who and I would have never taken it off of me I mean like those things are very weird.