Reaching Out

Trying to get help VS actually getting the help: A breakdown of where the system fails those of Domestic Violence and Trafficking

It’s during these times of realizing that I wasn’t able to call out for help safely, securely, or secretly without under being under surveillance. March 2021 I found myself frantically writing a letter to the governor, when I realized that I was actually being trafficked, and that I had been under surveillance. That of which became evident when I saw the mouse move over my desktop. They were taunting me, letting me know that I was being watched.

Between crying and being in a panic, I could barely put the words down on paper. But I kept scribbling down my story on loose-leaf paper. Then it hit me. How was I going to be able to get this to someone, anyone? Much less it actually being delivered to the Governor. Hell, I didn’t even know who the governor of Texas was. I had no idea that it was Governor Abbott. So, I couldn’t even personally address this letter in paper that looked like chicken scratch. That was actually my desperate pleas for help.

The feelings of desperation and helplessness, and the feeling of just being stripped of any right to any kind of privacy at all. Absolutely no way to describe that kind of feeling. Having your every moment watched under such scrutiny. I can tell you, that At that moment I realized that WE ALL TAKE ALL OF OUR RIGHTS FOR GRANTED, UNTIL WE DON’T HAVE THOSE RIGHTS ANY LONGER!!!

From what I have experienced time and time again, the harsh reality of TRYING to find the RIGHT PERSON, IN THE RIGHT DEPARTMENT when you ONLY have a few quick moments to call out for help and ACTUALLY GETTING TO THAT HELP is a gap bigger than the Grand Canyon that desperately needs to be bridged together as a whole.

The programs for victims of Domestic Abuse, Sexual Abuse and Trafficking ARE OUT THERE! But the fact of the matter is that victim ACTUALLY being able to get to that help is NON-EXISTENT!!!!

… From the Victim’s Perspective

First, it’s important to understand the position of the victim. From my experience, I didn’t know exactly what I was going through, I just knew that I was going through it. Therefore, I wasn’t able to identify with any labeling of any kind of abusive situations. I just knew that it was abuse. When I had tried to contact the Battered Women’s Shelter in April 2021, I had just barely come to the conclusion that I was actually being trafficked the whole time. So nine times out of 10 the victim is not going to be able to answer the specific questions that were presented to them at that point in time.

Secondly, the victim is only going to have a small window of time to try to get help, if that at all. She’s going to be panicking, she’s going to be stuttering, she’s not going to be able to talk. She’s not going to be able to think clearly. It’s almost impossible at this point to actually be able to get the full answers out of the victim that the person on the other line, say for example the police, the support lines are actually needing to get answered calmly. That victim is ONLY thinking ONE THING, and that is “GET ME THE HELL OUT OF HERE, PLEASE” For me, after fighting for so long with just trying to get a 5% charge, enough to make a phone call, etc. I was in a hypersensitive state of panic, WITHIN THE TRAUMA.

When Calling the Battered Women’s Shelter and Other Support Lines

When I contacted The battered women’s shelter, because I had not been physically abused, I fell through the cracks. This is a loophole that these predators, these traffickers, these abusers exploit to the fullest with the organized stalking and no touch torture techniques.

Everyone must remember, A PREDATOR A TRAFFICKER, AN ABUSER ARE MASTER MANIPULATORS. THEY HAVE TO BE VERY SMART AND ABLE TO ACCOMPLISH THE KIND OF MANIPULATIONS THAT THEY PULL. THEY KNOW THESE LAWS TO THE T! IN ORDER TO GO TO THE LOOPHOLES, THEY MUST KNOW THE LAWS!

THEY EXPLOIT THESE LOOPHOLES, SIMPLY BECAUSE THEY KNOW THEY CAN GET AWAY WITH IT!!!

AND THE VICTIM CAN’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!!!!

THIS RIGHT HERE IS A MASSIVE PROBLEM!!

How Law Enforcement Contributed to my continual trafficking

More often than not, those that work in law enforcement will be the only way out of a domestic violence or a trafficking situation for a victim. For the simple fact of the matter is that the abuser is going to have that victim so isolated, there will be no way of getting out of it. The victim will be kept away from any health officials, etc. And kept on such a short leash as well as being closely monitored that there will be no chance of trying to find an opportunity to tell someone “I need help,” along with the fear factor that’s involved. There will be some kind of threat that is held over that victim’s head to keep that person from reaching out for help.

The consequences of any law enforcement not taking a victim seriously and dismissing them can be very detrimental if not life or death situations. For me, the consequences of them not taking me seriously in reality forced me back into the trafficking that I was trying to get out of. And in which case, I started seeing law enforcement as being my traffickers as well. And especially with the amount of abuse that I had gone through over such a long period of time, there’s been so many men that have been involved that were evil monsters to me. Therefore, the police became even bigger Evil monsters to me. More so than any of 200 plus attackers.

Out of all the times of reaching out, it has been the incompetence and just pure laziness as well as simply just actually what I called it was licensed narcissist, that has been the number one key factor in the breakdown of the system of a victim trying to get out of those of situations.

Let me go over a few of those situations with you of what I have experienced.

How FBI Contributed to my continual trafficking

The Reality of Emergency Doctors & Nurses Training for Trafficked Victims

When it comes to the training that is provided for doctors and nurses in an emergency room environment. The training is all fine and good, IF THE VICTIM CAN MAKE IT TO THE HOSPITAL. But again, this is not reality, and it’s not feasible in a situation where the victim is isolated and imprisoned in their own home. In my case scenario, this was the problem. So, again, this did not help in my situation. And point-blank, VICTIMS OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND TRAFFICKING IS NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO MAKE IT TO THE HOSPITAL TO GET THIS KIND OF ASSESSMENT DONE.

THE PREDATORS, ABUSERS AND TRAFFICKERS, THEY KNOW ABOUT THIS AND THEY ARE GOING TO KEEP THE VICTIMS AS FAR AWAY FROM THE HOSPITAL AND A DOCTOR’S OFFICE AS THEY CAN POSSIBLY KEEP THEM SO THAT THEY DON’T GET THAT ASSESSMENT DONE!!!!